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Sometimes spending on your loved ones makes you a happy person. I bought my sis an mp3 today! Cheap but she loves it :) Got myself a colourful and cheap cheap bag!! :DDD BUT, I got myself a universal keyboard protector and cut it so awfully that now it seems so ugly on my keyboard:( I want to get myself a new one!! But cannot waste $$$. My most favourite watch officially died today. My clock didn't stop ticking nor did my world stop revolving though! I've had a lovely time with chewchew today! I brought her to the salon and I think that guy is sooooo charming lah ohmytian I should go and have my hair trimmed tomorrow LOL. HAPPY BIRTHDAY EH CHRIS!

I think their 合音 is awesome! (Y) Credits to Sunshine boy for the recommendation eh? HAHAHAH And for the previous two videos I shared!

I mass sent a text message to friends (whom I really want to keep up with and am still keeping up with) and it's funny how they responded. Very interesting and funny replies which made me believe these are friendships that are still worth investing in :)

Sis fainted at home thrice yesterday and got admitted to the hospital late at night. She was on drip and doctor said she was suffering from dehydration. See? The importance of drinking water! We almost got shocked to death by her. Walked past PEPS today and I do miss those very faded days. Sometimes I wish I could just enter and visit the teachers who are still around! (chewchew you want to go back? hahaha) Work resumes tomorrow and I don't really anticipate but thankfully I'm not dreading it too. It's just that I have finished 谈情说案 and there is nothing else to look forward to everyday after work! I've been rushing home to watch this everyday for almost a month! But anyway, the ending is awesome, far from expectations (my expectations were actually lower) and anyone who's interested in mysterious cases/crimes + romance serials should try it. HOWEVER, I've also learnt that 看戏就看戏，不要入戏太深，中毒太深. 戏里面发生的，真实生活不一定会，所以不要想太多！

I think this guy is damn talented. Elva's friggin' high song can actually go through such a transformation in his hands.

The typical JJ fan like Angie or my sis will fall for this.

I'm in the mood for parataxis now! 1. Fact number 1: Very heavy rain this morning! I lost my poncho (I think my sis didn't return me) so I got one for $5.50 from 7-11 and had a very sumptuous and fulfilling breakfast from the nearby market. Yummiesssssssssss. I saw it later in the news that there were severe floodings in about 5 areas in Singapore today. Just now when I bus-ed home I was thinking why I always don't see floods occuring when one of the areas is so near my place! (not that I'm a sadist lah but I'm just curious how the situation is like) 2. Fact number 2: The Swiss guy admitted he's guilty of vandalism on the SMRT. Actually I think his graffiti is really quite cool BUTTTTTTTTTTT vandalism on public property is a no no! So I'm not an advocate here. And the fact that he cut one of the wires on the track shows that he's being destructive and sad to say that's an act of deviance, at least in our Sg context. There are places that offer people...

After don't-know-how-long (so grammatically incorrect), I can now safely declare that I'm really happy. Have been happy since the start of this week (which is like 2 days back only). No particular reason why so, maybe because I have the company of good people. I am glad I've not only sorted certain things out, but I don't even bother about issues that bring me nothing but sadness. I'm not at the zenith now but I'm contented with where I've reached. Not the summit, but not a trough. Thankful for the people who chatted, who texted and who called to talk to me all the time to keep me occupied. I think you definitely know who you are so just know that I'm thankful and I love you! If you want to make me something, invent a time machine that can capture this moment so that I can always take it out whenever I feel like feeling it. DANGDANGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

This is one of the Bieber's hits that keep playing in my head the whole of today. I'm hardly hooked to non-emo songs! But I think Bieber's a talent and Ludacris is ever so superb at his rap. Bieber's song 'Never say never' with Jaden Smith is also another awesome track. Encouraging lyrics!

This is like my favourite Neyo's song. I can't wait for him to finish writing for Blue and see the sparks that trigger between the two.

I'm like dying to catch this. MEL!

I remember watching the movie with 2 good friends at... Sec4? I like the meaning behind the movie, atypical romance film. Angie, do you remember? Ha

I really like this MV. And this song mustn't be heard too frequently. The niceness of it is when it's heard again after a long time.

For once i weekly's horoscope predictions were quite spot on! But anyway it is not the horoscope or zodiac predictions that are important. I am really estactic now! I swear I had a feeling that this week's i would have AhWU on the front cover and tada! I can't believe myself! I really love this front cover because it's like once in a million and his image this time is exceptionally awesome to the MAX! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (it's been ages since I last uploaded pictures huh?)  When I'm happy, I lose a bit of rationality. I added another notebook to my collection! I really like it! I think it's a great day today:) Despite all the weariness from waking up early and having to work! But! I saw G11 today and still felt a little 舍不得:/

This couple of days was not easy to get by. I fell sick immediately after mum went overseas. 小妹 accompanied me to the doctor and I really appreciated that because I really don't like to see a doctor alone:( Can't believe I actually survived the night from ECP to Changi Village then to Bedok and back to ECP. I know I was such a bad cyclist and had to make the rest slow down for me. Sorry! I kind of realised that this so-called uni summer vacation was fruitfully spent with Ohana. I like to see them delirious with joy and when the girls come together to talk about things we didn't used to discuss. (Fel we miss you!!) Maybe I should be thankful to you because you made me see life in a different light. I choose to think this way because this is probably the best and most worthy thing to remember about you. You made me realise that there is sometimes really no point in being obstinate about certain things. But I think ultimately I want to thank myself most because I did it. With ...

I'm dying! The tonsils infection is killing me. Gosh. I've been falling sick at an alarming rate and, highly likely, lack of sleep is one of the attributes. This is really so much like in college days! And, I really don't miss it. I MUST GET WELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEL:)

I don't know if it's right to sacrifice certain things for certain people. Maybe it's not a matter of right or wrong. Maybe it's about the worth. But I figured it's pointless to ponder over it since it's over. Don't cry over spilt milk, well said. Different friends know me differently, I just realised. It is not that I am proud about not crying. Because I jolly well know that not crying isn't a symbolism for strength. But I just don't know how to. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUYUAN:)

This song keeps playing in my head (maybe because I looped it). I think feng-ge sang it so wellllll. And I have to wait till tomorrow to watch my next episode of the serial. Can't wait! Today was kind of my first official lesson with students in college. For a start I nearly made a mess out of everything I said and they seemed really confused. Thank goodness I managed to explain it clearly thereafter and they were convinced! I believe confidence is really half the battle won. You may not have the knowledge but carrying yourself well will have conveyed some message across to the target audience. Deep inside I was so stressed out before I started talking. Ever since I started working there, some people, my friends I mean, don't quite believe I can make it. Some say I won't be able to command respect, some say I am stupid and should try something easier. I think I have chosen this job for a reason, the pay is (Y), unquestionable, BUT. It's also the challenging nature that ...

Chatted with Max, and then we had a short conference. It's been ages since we last did something like this. The last time we conferenced was probably in J2 before A levels? Time really flies man. And we really become busier people. Or are we just lazy?

Just when I'm so into doing something I like, I receive really really demoralising comments. But I know it's time I learn to be receptive to criticisms. Try, at least. I cannot live in my comfort zone for long, where everyone only says nice things. 难怪人家说，实现梦想的过程中波折重重。

Yes it's funny how I spent more time waiting for you than being with you. And how I had been so unhappy in the process of looking for my happiness. It is true that there are often reverse sides to the reverse sides. I'm glad I've seen them all today. Thankful that life isn't all perfect, because it is the little flaws that give me the tinge of regret that makes certain episodes in life worth remembering. Now that this episode has come to an end, I await and anticipate more exciting upcoming episodes that will paint my life colourful. For so long, I've only managed to see black and white, and sometimes grey.

I'm sure the problem lies with myself. How to solve it is another problem. The feeling of the unknown keeps coming back. These two days I tried to keep myself occupied by playing some Facebook games. But that is running away, it's not a solution, apparently. I really need to get back to reading to keep myself mentally balanced. To me it's the most constructive thing to do when I'm lost. A distraction from distractions. Nice.

I made another unpardonable mistake. How could I have misplaced such an important document? I really hate my carelessness.

I guess it is this feeling I fear that I never wanted to let go. The feeling of having nothing to cling on to. I hope and I know it will be over somehow. Most of all I have let go.

Auntie Rainbow treated the movie Karate Kid at The Cathay and Sunshine Boy treated popcorn combo! Suddenly I feel really fortunate to know such wonderful and generous friends who are always willing to share:) The movie was not too bad but I think I enjoyed the setting best. The chairs are so comfy to sit on I could totally just sleep. It's Friday and I have only 3 days to cherish. But I know days are to be lived, not counted. Thank you myself for having emptied my mind:)

It was superb time spent with superb company yesterday (even though the very cheap steamboat place was under renovation how sad). We lunched at Phin's Steakhouse which I thought was a great place to chill just like Hoagies. I can't believe it's already Thursday today when I still have not done my revision for teaching next week. What a dread. These two weeks are like the best days after exams have ended for me. Work wasn't so nice but still manageable. But of course I prefer holidays like now when I get to check my list of TVB serials and read the books which I've always wanted to. Sadly such days are coming to an end and I'll be back to work next week. Gosh, this is perhaps why people say happiness doesn't last!

Completed 掌上明珠 and 富贵门 today! I think I am so pro at watching TVB serials :D Other than having to finish the next one which is 谈情说案, I must continue with my reading tomorrow. This week is the last week of freedom, I must cherish! When I asked: If trying means going to a point of danger, would you still try? You said yes. But I realised it's not even worth trying, no matter what the outcome will be.

记得当时谁路过 秒针忽然停顿过 气温湿度曾骤变太多 记忆不停重叠过 你的表情提示过 爱的可能是我 想法很乱 幻觉太多 疑虑很大 直到说不清楚 心算太慢 但仍然算错 找对人 偏错过 直到开始想喜欢我 直到终于不喜欢我 直到碰上一个 逃避一个 追不上 躲不过 直到开始找不到我 直到终于不想找我 直到你擦身过 才认得我 彼此也在折磨 像当初 想法太乱 直觉对么 疑虑很大 直到爱不清楚 当这世上 全怀疑我错 总有人 相信我

The LEP seminar was a little boring but it was nice to relive some college memories. AGM this time was the most constructive I must say. Maybe this way I will be more motivated to render my service. I've been sleeping later, and later than before. I think this is a very bad sign because I feel my biological clock gradually altering again. I can't wait to try out a new recipe tomorrow and let Ohana and chewchew try. Doudou should be leaving tomorrow or the day after. I think I will miss him and hopefully his owner treats his good:) Maybe my new lease of life should start today. Despite all the pain and wasted time, maybe I really did come out stronger. Just a little loss of faith, and courage. Hopefully I'll fully recuperate and gain back what I've lost after a while. I hope you're doing great and I hope you're truly happy. We all need to let go, especially when there's nothing left to cling on to. Now I get it.

兜兜转转，我还是一直回到原点。我相信我不能放下的不是你，而是整件事。我一直觉得我自己才是受害者，但也许并不是这样。也许只是我不能够很理智地看待这件事。但我也希望你们能够明白我为什么不能够理智。我只是个很普通很普通的人，我会生气，会难过。我现在不能原谅，是因为我还不能明白。我不能明白你为什么可以这样对我，这样伤害我。可能有一天我会开窍，会明白，所以才会原谅。但那一天到来之前，我都不能原谅你。我不会恨你，但是我不想看见你。我也很想看见自己关心的人真正快乐，分享他的幸福。但目前我还办不到。

Heidou is going to be out of the house soon because the cat is out of the bag. Hopefully his owner will be a rightful one and treats him well. That aside, YC and I did cooking at Chew's house today. 3 blondes in the house cooking! But I think it was fun (and very sinful because I had a lot of ice cream including last night's Oreo Parfait but it was really really good). And thank you good friend for your Taiwan snacks and DangDang chain. See lah you add on to my kilograms leh :/ I never knew I didn't delete the contact on MSN until YC saw and told me today. I always thought I did already. But it doesn't matter, anymore.

This is the little thing that made its way to my house last night. It's a newborn so it's been sleeping. Such a cutie pie, isn't it? It's the size of a tissue box! I like to pat its head and he likes it too. He's so much smaller than Harry when he was 2 months old.

It was crazy. My good friend came today after 5 months of absence. And that explains my lethargy for the day. Or was it because I've used up too much energy? 2 hours of badminton with Ade and JY and then Ce and I walked the trail. Albeit we gave up at NUS and boarded a bus to Clementi, I'm glad I do remember the way after all! It is nice to talk about everything under the sun like this. I love to walk, but often no one wants to walk that trail with me because everyone thinks it's a boring thing to do and waste of time. I choose to think that covering that trail not only enables me to see more things but also think through more things along the way. The weather is such a scorcher today. I'm a thirsty person since 12p.m. It's far too difficult to get people into your way of thinking, even your closest friends. No matter how close, there are still those who doubt, who don't get it. And this is probably what disappoints me. HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEIWEN:)

The early afternoon was spent with the RT gang. I think Shin Tokyo is not a very great place to dine at, either because I don't appreciate Japanese food or that the food is really just average. I had my monthly drug with Coconut at Coronation (I just had it at the airport on 30 May when we picked Maxie up). Coconut got her new addicted drug at Sogurt. The mango peach one was really so nice I think the next time I ever pass by I'll be the one trying it. I managed to finish reading Ahern's Book of Tomorrow after getting home. Gosh, it's too awesome. I would say it's magical and thrilling. The starting was a little boring perhaps but towards the back the climax slowly built up. Far too exciting. And as usual I like the way Ahern ends her writing, nice. I highly recommend this book and I rate it 4 out of 5 stars. The timing was just nice as I managed to take a good shower after my read and hitch a ride from EH CHRIS! to somewhere nearby for supper. SOMEONE tried to trau...