past.

I like how people spam me whenever AhWU goes onto stage to get his award every year. I know that these people are happy that I am happy, and so I really am. And the best thing about AhWU getting the award this year is that his speech sounded exceptionally warm and sincere (he always is). Thank you AhWU for making me scream in front of the TV every year, without fail :)   FOR YOU

Finally went to the Titanic Artifacts Exhibition. I love visiting exhibitions, and I am always thankful for those who made all these possible! So much hardwork involved!

友達以上，戀人未滿。

今天是應該囘學校溫書的。也不是沒有溫習，只是也讀完了一本小説。是幾個星期前買的，Sophia 的《背對背相愛》。兩天内就把它讀完，現在說起來還有些許愧疚。不過這麽久沒看小説了，感覺還是很好的，尤其結局又是我喜歡的 sweet ending。和往常一樣，這樣的小説縂能打動我。

人總是在理性和感性之間徘徊。 似乎理性讓人太果斷，感性讓人太婆媽。 取得平衡？ 說到容易，如何辦到？ 誰又曉得那所謂的平衡是否平衡？

Seriously, tell me, how can I not be upset? It was supposed to be a good day, not until I saw this. I think I almost died. I had a bad feeling earlier that something bad was going to happen to him and it happened. I hate it. My dearest AhWU, please get well soon!!!

      你會不會.

Yeah, some things are meant to be. To quote Coelho, maybe sometimes we really need the conspiracy of the whole universe to help us achieve something we want very much. And then I wonder, what do I want, very much?

I was actually feeling extremely demoralised after today's paper. I walked a long way back to the library not just to avoid the peak hour, but also to reflect upon myself, whether or not I had worked hard for this exam. I wanted so much to whine to someone but I couldn't and I shouldn't, because I didn't want to impose on anyone, not even him, for I know everybody is busy preparing for their remaining papers. Yes, and I know I shouldn't mull over this anymore. But my headache is killing me and the contents I'm studying for aren't getting into my head anymore. Thank goodness, there is always my best friend.

It always feels like yesterday that I last saw sam. Always. And precisely because of it all being just yesterdays, I know I have to move on. I don't know if I will be happy, but I want to be. Revision has not been too effective but I am still trying. Seeing 林立老师 always makes me a little more motivated to work harder! JIAYOU GL!!!

因为太幸福，所以不真实。因为不真实，所以珍惜，怕幸福会有用完的一天。

我覺得最幸福的事就是有一群朋友因為看到我開心所以覺得開心 :)

雨天挺美的。 今天站在巴士站，車許久都不來。 雖説只站了二十分鈡，卻看到平時不怎麽注意的事。 一個父親左手拿著已經坏了的雨傘，右手抱著年幼的女兒，匆忙下車。 下車后，女兒舉起手中的玩具對父親說：“爸爸，我的玩具坏了。” 父親着急，大概以爲是自己抱女兒下車的時候不小心撞坏的。“唉，怎麽辦？” 女兒似乎感受到父親的焦急，不想讓父親覺得内疚。“沒關係。我們回家吧。” 一對男女匆匆下了巴士。 男生把左手放在女生頭上。 男生的右手握著一把沒打開的雨傘。 雖然兩人都淋溼了，但都笑得很開心。 那一刻，我想起周傑倫歌曲裏的一句話： “最美的不是下雨天，是曾與你躲過雨的屋簷。” 一個七八嵗左右的男孩。 穿著校服，撐著一把大傘。 奇怪又好笑的是，他全身濕透了。 或許是他剛才調皮地在雨中玩。 他撐著大傘，把小手伸出來，讓雨點滴在手掌上。 他的腳步看似很輕快，樣子很快樂。 雨天，讓我想起了一個笨蛋。   雨天真的挺美的。

Finally, I am done with grad mag. It really wasn't easy, having to grapple with school, friends and work at the same time. But I have the most understanding, helpful and supportive friends ever. Thank you Yanli and Shishi for helping me in whichever way you can. Thank you Yanxing and Lanhua for your help too! Pulling both of you into bytk was one of the most regretful things I did! So sorry! Thank you Mic, Yi Rong, Wen Jie, Janvin, Jiayi, Geng Jie and every other friend who gave me your greatest support. Thank you Pei Sen for making me laugh during the most stressful times. Thank you my dear group project mates who have been so understanding towards me! Thank you teachers for being so understanding and caring! Thank you my dear friends who came down to the dinner to support and also gave comforting feedback with regard to the magazine and the dinner last night. Thank YOU for rendering moral support and always asking what you could do even though you knew you couldn't do anythin...

Dear GL LL has high hopes on you. You better do your best! JIAYOU GL! Self.

  分別.

想了很久，最後還是決定用中文表達心裏的話。畢竟，記錄的是中文係的美好時光，自然要用中文。 我知道這句話已經挂在嘴邊許久，但是……我可能就要畢業了！ 老實說，我當然真的不想畢業。原因有二：1) 朋友；2) 真的還很喜歡學習。 但只能怪自己少壯不努力！ 說我迷信也好，想太多也好，我總是覺得，這個學期的最後一堂課是上林立老師的課，好像就注定我是要這個學期畢業。仿佛老天要我開心地畢業。 如果真是這樣，那讓我在這裡做個預設的告別。 我常說，要不是嵐花，或許我不會在中文係。我想我永遠會記得這個如此熱心幫我的大姐。 也許是緣份，讓當初懵懂的我在經史子集的課上坐在雪琦的旁邊。結果她成了我在中文係最好的朋友。（我不說的話，你會不會知道？哈哈。） 當然還有我最愛的亦容、雯潔、衍興、盈利、亭慧。 還有整天逗我笑的彥麗、嘉宜、添豪、耿捷。 還有不酸我會死的王坤利。 天啊。我怎麽可能捨得畢業？ 只要想起那些時光，一起做小組作業、一起為現代文學小品彩排、一起邊吃邊説笑、一起溫書、一起厭倦Deck的食物，我就好捨不得。 記得第一次上林立老師的課的時候，我對老師的第一個評語是：“怎麽這個老師講話這麽俗？” 結果他成了我最敬愛的老師。 記得跟王昌偉老師說過一些畢業的事宜，後來他一直都記著，讓我好感動。 太多太多的回憶，如此美好，如此令我不捨。 如果、萬一、假如，這個學期畢業了，那麽我只想感謝一群在我身邊的朋友。沒有你們的話，誰跟我一起笑囌老師的笑話？誰聼我說林立老師很可愛？誰讓我訴苦？誰陪我一起喊餓？（說到這裡，我又餓了。） 大學生涯，大部分是開心的。真慶幸。 謝謝你們啦，我最愛的朋友。 過幾個小時上林立老師的課，我的心情應該會很矛盾吧？ 老師大概會以一貫的傻笑說：“好吧，今天就上到這裡。”       FOR YOU.   

我只是很怕。

http://youtu.be/ujCMfXAqDjE   昨天.

Titanic has always been a film of nostalgia, at least to me, because it reminds me of how my family and I would crowd around our new VCD player then to watch the movie numerous times. I have probably watched it on VCD 9 times? Or maybe even 10. But I have always wanted to have a different experience in the theatres, and I did today. It is difficult not to get upset when you are watching a great movie like such in the theatres, even though you would have expected everything that comes along. I still wished Jack didn't have to die, but I know he had to or there would be no story of Titanic to tell. I have to say, watching it this time makes me learn a lot more about the film, whether in terms of filming techniques or the characters. I really, like how Rose takes on the role of an observer, and this is something I never did realise when I watched it so many times before.Well, I just want to conclude that, I do not agree with those who say that this is an overrated film, simp...

今天，朋友她告白了。雖然是個匿名的告白，但我真的替她開心。畢竟，不論是喜歡還是欣賞，只要想到能讓對方覺得自己能感動另一個人，那還是挺好的感覺吧？ 接著我又想起過去我是如何托人把那些糖果扔進他的書包，如何假裝在走廊上踫到他，但事實上我是故意經過那裏的。 還有，那寫了近一年的博客。裏頭都是最真實的感受。 對了。正因爲都是最真實的感受，所以不管將來發生什麽事，回頭再看看這一幕的時候，你不會覺得有什麽遺憾。 說真的，我好像再回到那些日子，再瘋一次。 能夠把心裏的話轉達給自己喜歡或欣賞的對象知道，那是很美好，很幸福的。 朋友，你真幸福！

      再來一次，再痛一次。

今天，朋友跟我说她碰到欣赏的对象，然后跟他聊了一下。虽然她没说，但我知道她在暗爽。那种脸上的雀跃是不会骗人的。 这大概就是学生生涯中最令人快乐的事吧？傻呆呆地欣赏一个人，跟他说话时总会装出一副镇定，但心却兴奋得都快爆开了。 毕业后，只需要回想起有这么一个令自己向往上学的人，嘴角还是会扬起来。