past.

i thought i have recovered, but tonight i had to realise i have not. the celebration kind of sucked totally anyway. and it left everyone going home with a frown? i don't know. everything just didn't seem good. if today never came, i would never know.

term3's L1R5 same as prelims. how sad. too fated to the number 15 or what? lol. and for the first time in ctss, i received the biggest blow. E-MATHS - A2. cannot imagine what my tutor's going to say. =/ BUT THEN, a-maths paper1 won amitabha! though paper2 may not. ha. and and and, first time a B3 for combined humans. tears in my eyes when i received my papers. but heard miss lau's going to intervene. so might have to say sayonara to my B3. c.lit was.. disappointing. well, just pray hard i get into JJ. and i finally made up my mind not to drop physics. it's an incurable heartache.

i know our words no longer count. and they probably don't a long time ago. promises don't have to be kept all the time. i will keep them in my heart. how can i help you?

lunched with the gang. mac as usual, as requested by sarch each time exams end. haha. and then went to wm with sther to collect our long awaited cds!! =D met weibin again!!! hahah. cuteeeee. went to kbox to find zirui and co. yy and i left first. hope they didn't get into a fight with the lady with lousy attitude! =xx the end of exams doesn't feel that good. i'm rotting. but then, mahjong tomorrow. finally! =D have not played for 2 months le okay.

before i reached home, things to blog flooded my mind. but now that i'm in front of the computer, everything disappears. maybe my memory's failing me. haha. first and foremost, i think zhi en is really really cute! and then, met weibin when i went to buy sweettalk. cuter than before! and as gentlemanly as before =D i think the luckiest people in 4d1 are ah dong, tiff, bteng and me. because we can heave our long awaited sighs of relief after 2.15 pm today. but yeah, one more lap to go, and got to change to full gear soon. things are no longer the same. i said i will let nature take its course. and i am trying. what if the good friend who makes you upset asks you to cheer up, not knowing that she has made you feel upset? what if your good friend tells you that you are not her good friend? i never really thought of any solutions before anything happens. i just panicked when it happens, and it becomes too late. i feel like singing "every little thing i do, never seems enough f...

let this be the last time i blog while i prepare for my battles. i want my mum to know that: -i didn't go out to have fun. -i went to the library to study. -i can't study at home. -home is nice, but not a place for me to study. -i am matured enough to know that this is not the time to play. i did it, but i get nothing i return. and i expected that. we built it up, to watch it fall, like we meant nothing at all.

An empty room can be so deafening, the silence makes you wanna scream. It drives you crazy. I chased away the shadows of your name, and burned the picture in a frame. But it couldn't save me. And how could we quit something we never even tried, well you still can't tell me why. We built it up, to watch it fall. Like we meant nothing at all. I gave and gave the best of me, but couldn't give you what you need. You walked away, you stole my life, just to find what you're looking for. But no matter how i try, i can't hate you anymore. You're not the person that you used to be, the one i want who wanted me. And that's a shame but, there's only so many tears that you can cry. Before it drains the light right from your eyes. And i can't go on that way. And so i'm letting go of everything we were. It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. Sometimes you hold so tight, it slips right through your hands. Will i ever understand? jay's latest album isn...