past.

what is she thinking? it's a matter of fact she doesn't like him anymore. why is she jealous then? why does she have to imagine how he popped the question to her? why does she have to know whether they have held hands? why does she enquire so much when it's none of her business. is nothing to do with her even if they are together, right? i just wish to tell her "shut up and don't fantasize you idiot." the heart keeps breaking into smaller pieces. the cracks that are showing in her life can never be mended.

walked home with a broken heart. and the rain just won't stop. you won't go crazy if you don't feel painful.

Never even thought to cry When I heard you say goodbye Never said where you were going There's no laughter in the air Only silence everywhere And so much left unspoken Since you've been gone I haven't been the same I wish that i could see Who's to blame Was I lost in you and me To the point i couldn't see That what we had was dying Now it's all that I can do To see photographs of you And stop myself from crying I should learn to live without your love Got so many memories But it's not enough it hurts so much, literally. and there's nothing i can do. i'm sorry i used the last resort. i'm sorry. cause' after one big round, i know i still can't forget. and it still hurts.

confessions. - i love blue . i love blue . i love blue . - tang wen long is hot. too bad his christian name doesn't appeal to me. - vincent ng is omgness. look at how we drift. when they are doing n level prelims, we are preparing for o level prelims. when they take a break from n level prelims, we are doing o level prelims. when they take n level, we are preparing for o level. when they are done with n level, we are doing with o level. when we are done with o level, they are enjoying holidays already. will all the friendships last till eternity? nope. recesses seem exceptionally quiet nowadays, no one to jump queues like before. we can have our meals as slowly as we want because even if we are released late, we get to buy our food and finish on time. no idea what's with everyone in my class lately. perhaps the exam stress is killing everyone. and when i come online, everyone is offline. the pain perpetuates.

i never could have seen this far, i never could have seen this coming. it seems like my world's falling apart. why is everything so hard? i don't think that i can deal with the things you said. it just won't go away. in a perfect world, this could never happen. in a perfect world, you'd still be here. and it makes no sense. i could just pick up the pieces, but to you, this means nothing, nothing at all. i used to think that i was strong, until the day it all went wrong. i think i need a miracle to make it through. i wish that i could bring you back, i wish that i could turn back time. because i can't let go, i just can't find my way. without you i just can't find my way. celebrated sther 's birthday in advance yesterday. not as fun as last year anymore. people were no longer enthusiastic as well. everything's so different. and, pizza hut reminds me of the two times i had lunches with s.h.e , and once with novday . if yinghao is reading this, he will...

finally i'm using the com again after one week. lol. yesterday's oral was =xx with the examiner saying "all the best to you, bye." when i left. ha. well can't be bothered anymore. anyway it's the last oral exam of my life! =xx pe was hilarious today. mel possesses supernatural powers and max fell! ouch =/ i still miss that backview. and the heartache remains.

gastric hurts the whole day. but it's far much better than a heartache. the absence of a heartache has given me 12 hours of sleep(; another slacking saturday. man, is saturday a day that hypnotizes me to sleep or what? lol. but well, i will have more time to prepare for my war already. because the heartache is gone, for good.

jiahui , angie and yinghao are probably watching the fireworks at esplanade now ): sorry guys. really sorry. back from wm. took a stroll at t&s, at the babies' wear. it just felt so wrong. fancy a girl of my age hanging out at the area. i think those people might think i'm an unwed mum. lol. =xx chinese lesson was great. the whole row of us had helluva fun with the psychology test . max , xiaoxuan , nanyang , zirui , yuyuan and me! i will have a good ending with my lover ? hahaha! and the book said i'm evil . goodness. alright the later part could be right but not the earlier. =xx please take note of the date. because yeah, 11o8o6 , i have decided to give up! i'm serious this time, and will be. all the pictures are deleted and will not be retrieved anymore. and all the msgs will be deleted. nanyang is right. it hurts me to get rid of every memory i have. but i'm going to let this pain last for just one day. after today, i will be fine and i will be ready...

i'm desperately in search of my revision worksheets! losing them only means having to redo them. relative velocity's killing me. my memory's got to be failing me. please, i just want to recall who i lent my worksheets to. as well as my throat. it's getting from bad to worse, and worse to worst. strepsils didn't help, neither did saltwater work. man i'm taking my o level english oral soon. national day? ha. just don't feel like it this year. the atmosphere isn't there. and as the big exams edge nearer, i know i can easily lose the feeling.

sorry angie , jiahui and yinghao for being late yesterday. won't be late next monday =/ how nice would it be if novday wasn't history ? if jiahui was late, angie has yinghao and i have tecky . or angie has me and tecky has yinghao . if angie was late, i have jiahui and yinghao has tecky . if i was late, angie has jiahui and yinghao has tecky . or angie has yinghao and jiahui has tecky . if tecky was late, nah. he won't. because 5 of us won't even have the chance to have breakfast together. i guess i will really need a trip to the beach and shout my lungs and heart out. can't get that irritating and painful feeling off my chest. wait. ley and i were discussing about love hurts this afternoon. is there love that doesn't hurt? i don't know and i don't care. because i think i won't really get a definite answer, for everyone has a different definition. earlier on, many things went through my brain and i have got loads of things t...

my eyelids are really heavy, but insisting to use the com. because there aren't lessons tomorrow! =xx and today i realised i'm not prepared to die yet. many things i'm not done with. sent text messages to loved ones last night telling them that i love them. 3 replies to tell me that they love me too. but whatever it is, they don't have to tell me. because i just love them. man, my so bloody beloved yujia has moved, out of singapore. what meaning is there left to continue staying here.

my poor rocking chair. kwan broke it! joke of the day. =xx and kexian and i laughed for 10 minutes. my throat's killing me. and i thought of you today, again.

man looks like this is another slacking saturday for me. slacking though i know it's a sin. can't help it. laziness is getting the better of me. night focus got to save me.

have not blogged for 5 days! hmmm. time for me to blog my fill! hahah. #1 results are back! eng-4, h.chinese-5, emaths-1, amaths-1, chem-5, physics-8, c.lit-3, combined humans-6. L1R5 - 15 . 17th in class, amazingly. #2 i somehow admitted my purpose of going online all the time. #3 i miss sheena quek kexian felicia xiuying nic sini ! #4 haven't been studying a lot this week. #5 i've got a printer and scanner! =D #6 night focus starting on monday. i'm anticipating! =xx #7 love at 0 degree celcius ends today. really wonder what's the ending. #8 i'm meeting someone next week! #9 nice p.e game today with kiatchong banging into jiahui and kwan pinching me so hard and me whacking kwan on his back and yopo 's specs flying off twice and just HAVOC. #10 dinnered with mel and yinghao at kfc. yummies =p #11 didn't have breakfast with jiahui angie and yinghao on monday ): #12 tecky last logged into friendster 6 days ago but novday 's pictures are...