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If beautiful things take place too frequently, then I wouldn't learn to appreciate them. Perhaps a beautiful thing should occur just once in a while. Happy April Fool's, indeed. Got pranked by students twice. Kids are naughty but sometimes so innocent. Been too busy lately to read the book Jia Hui lent me. Well and I think I got too used to Picoult's books that I don't seem to be able to indulge myself in any other novels. 如果美好的事情发生得太频，那我就不会懂得珍惜。也许一件美丽的事应该久久发生那么一次。 果然是愉快的愚人节。被学生耍了两回。这些孩子，调皮是调皮，但有时是那么天真无邪。 最近实在忙得团团转，几乎都没时间读佳惠借给我的书。而且我想我已经习惯了Picoult的作品，现在要我沉浸在其他作品当中，我还真有点办不到。

I know pride is not the most important but sometimes I just can't put it down. There are times I wish I am a little more generous with my praises for others, and set lower expectations of myself or others. Suddenly feel that I'm a person full of faults. A lot of them. Thinking back, I have been and am still a very impatient person, getting worked up over the slightest things and pointing fingers at people. I'm truly sorry about that. 我知道尊严并不是最重要的但有时候就是放不下。有时希望自己对别人的称赞可以大方一点，对别人或对自己的要求可以低一点。 突然觉得自己是个缺点多多的人。真得很多。回想起来，我一直，而且还是个急性子的人，总是为了芝麻绿豆的事变得激动，要不就是把矛头指向别人。 实在是很抱歉。

Are we avoiding something that exists yet that is invisible at the same time? It always seems like something ought to be voiced out but it just becomes the unspoken. Well I can't really articulate what this thing is but it's just there. Or, it is just willingness on my part. 我们是不是在避开什么？它似乎存在却又无法用肉眼看见，若隐若现。有些事看似是应该说出来的，但却终究被埋藏起来。我无法说明白它到底是什么，但它就是存在。 还是，只是我在一厢情愿。

Completed my pokemon game for the 10th time, this time with Mew!

I think I need counselling

I got my EP-430!! Blue though, a pity I couldn't get the red ones but I guess the blue ones are just as nice :) My rival Nelson ought to be credited with a KFC meal treat from me and yes, lunch was lovely with some marking of my students' work in between. Thank you rival!!! :D And then we decided to kill time by walking rounds in big book shop and tada! We really did spend some time inside there. WAIT. I didn't forget this and I MUST mention. How many legs does a chicken have? Yes you're right, TWO. How many legs does a duck have? And yes you're right again, TWO. How many legs does a rabbit have? Nelson thinks it's TWO! Whoops? =xx Alright, AGM was short but I am so thankful Mr Tan's sabotage wasn't a success. Applause for Jason because he got that position and congrats to Joel for leaving that position. Woohoo I feel free and I like it this way! The condition of my burnt skin is rather bad and I think I really can die on the spot if I over-expose myself...

Scorching hot today but a fun-filled day though. Beach volleyball, frisbee, cycling, potluck. I wished life is all about enjoyment but nope, we can't afford that.

RIVAL NELSON!!! I DID IT!!! WAHAHAHAHA.

There are moments that open up your life like a walnut cracked, that change your point of view so that you never look at things the same way again. Sarah's last day today :( Am going to miss her so much! PLAYED with water with Zhi and Angie and it was definitely no calories burned. Nevertheless, it was good time spent and wise choice of an outlet to relax ;) Students were full of humour today even though they can get a little too lame. "Miss Wu!! David Cooperfield decided to name his 4 sons such that their names are almost the same as his. You know what the names are?" "What?" "The first one, David Ironfield." "The second one, David Nickelfield." "The third one, David Footballfield." "The last one............................... David GARFIELD."

You rewind your life like a videocassette and see things that make you weep, things that make you pause, but nothing that makes you want to play it forward. I feel very pessimistic today :( I keep losing things lately. But that aside, nothing seems to liven me up. I feel so... Aimless, and lost. Got so bored just now that I decided to take a walk outside. Spent 2 hours outside and wonder what's the occasion, kept seeing familiar faces. It's kind of sad.. When two people are so tight, a 'hi' or a 'bye' seems so unnecessary. Both of us can talk about everything under the sun. But when you're nothing but acquaintances, you can only afford a 'hi' or a 'bye'. I remember the good times we had but I'm not someone who is contented living on memories..

I fell and got crushed when the monthly thing came.. Nope, not periods, but the phone bills. NO MORE UNLIMITED SMS. Starhub is so evil. They made me get used to typing messages as long as 4 pages without having to consider the cost and now they are taking this privilege away from me. wth. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENDA!!!!

Ladies' night! Dinner at Uncle Sam's restaurant. (No it isn't owned by Uncle Sam nor is the chef Uncle Sam!) Food was good but too much for a serving! I finished my food 2 hours ago but I'm still feeling damn bloated. Nevertheless it was great! Angieneer went a little nuts but I guess I can really understand why. School is starting. SIAN.

Over the years, our perspectives have changed so much. We ourselves, are perhaps changed persons too. Look around you. Are they the same people? Or have they changed? For the better? Or worse? Whether or not it's the earlier or the latter, do you love them as much as before? Somerset Maugham ever said that we are not the same persons as before; nor are those we love. Yet it is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person. Sometimes I wonder if I can really achieve that... Darren brought up something which I thought was pretty interesting and that never really left my mind since. Sometimes we are so sure we're on the right track only to find out that we're on the wrong train. It may sound a little cliche but I guess it's another stark reality that's placed right before us. Many a times I am so glad I am doing something I like, but only to realise that it isn't something I should have done. Can't really specify an example here but I guess ...

Guess I'm more or less decided on what I want after a visit to the open house. Making options is definitely the last thing I ever want to do, unless I can be so sure I won't regret.. Towned with Mel! I'm quite glad I'm not in the shopping mood today or I'll just splurge again. Today was just window shopping!

The carnival was probably the smallest scale I have ever been to. Nevertheless, it was considered happening and I got to meet Shaun again, this time, with Jeremy tagging along! Hubbart is so cute he shook my hand and let me carry him. Not everyone gets to carry him okay!! I'm so tired I need a long, long break.

Took really pretty pictures with CaoYu Wei Xin and Liling earlier. Wheeeee. Alright I actually meant the backdrop was pretty, not us la. So fun and felt so youthful :D Chewchew and Mel are two people I really love to hang out with. Mel could laugh at a joke I finished 10 minutes ago -.- Ohwell. Doraemon stuff as belated birthday present. Thankyou dears! I super love the closet and the ruler and the pouch. Favourite is still my bohemianbaby's new babysitter!! I think we share telepathy, cos' you girls know what I want :D Thanks! Zi Rui is not here on the first Friday to listen to my gossips. :( I MISS YOU RUI!

ZI RUI I MISS YOU ALREADY. See you in a fortnight's time.

Joey's last day. I miss him :(

Always look forward to meet-ups with Bren. Finally met her again and as much as the time spent was short, it was quality time! However, school was kind of bad. I was so stressful that I almost broke down after dismissal. I seriously wonder how I'm going to continue with a life like this. Okay, not that I am harbouring silly thoughts. It's a little sad I guess. That whether it's the person I respect, love, or care for most, they just can't get it. Not sure if they've put themselves in my shoes but they never really seemed so. I'd really appreciate if you don't tell me what to do. Because I don't want and I don't need a change. You can say I'm rigid. You can say I'm heartless. Go ahead please. I am. So? Have you been through what I've undergone? Even if you did, it could only be somewhat similar, never exactly the same. So, stop. Please.

Life can be pretty screwed up whether or not you have done well. If you do, then you'll be bothered by options you have to make. If you don't, you'll be bothered by not being able to opt. Am I considered an adult? I don't have the slightest idea. But I don't want to be one, most definitely. Adults have weird thinking. I promise I don't want to teach tomorrow. Miss Wu is losing her voice...

Today is a very, very hot day! Can't stand the intense heat ohmygoodness. An enjoyable YET sinful day spent with chewchew! But it's okay :) Because the enjoyable portion exceeds the sinful portion. Chewchew please ask me along if you want to buy clothes next time. I like to grab a lot a lot of clothes for you. WAHAHAHA. Bought so manyyyyyy stickers for $1! Ohmygoodness cheap stuff.

No matter what happens, life moves on. I'm trying to inscribe that into my mind. Let's talk about something more exciting/interesting. Thursday was Edwina's birthday. We surprised her with a cake! Ohmygoodness the cake was far too creamy. Nevertheless, so fun to be with the RTs and SNOs in that small room! Cao (you) Yu is the reason why I still go to school I guess. She never fails to make my days with all her super funny speeches/jokes! Oh man.. Very soon we'll all have to say goodbye. Hmmm..

Sometimes I think I screw my whole life up.

I am damn _______________. Fill in the blank. Please don't contact me for the next 2 days. 2 more nights. For once I am so ___________. Fill in the blank.

Dinner with good friend Mr. Lee Yoohoo was as good as ever. But shopping was the most sinful thing ever too! I settled a bag and a T-shirt for $28. Please tell me you are jealous :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FEL! :D Marche with Ohanas yesterday. I wouldn't say the food was damn nice but still, it was satisfactory. Fire drill exercise this morning! So exciting! Cao Yu and I were giggling and laughing away. We would have been so dead if there was really a fire. Okay children, this is a bad example. You got to be serious when a fire drill exercise takes place! Alright, so the big day is fixed and everyone is talking about it. I seriously just need something to keep me occupied so that I won't think about it.