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I don't know where we are heading. I don't know where we are now. But the only option left now is to continue moving forward, no more turning back. I wished a day would come when all of us are good friends again, but seemingly I'm still living in my fantasy. I'm mad too but I don't know what to say. Am I supposed to say "oh yes, you make me so mad."? Looks like there's going to be another change in my life. It's yet another turning point. And all these turnings are making me go berserk.

Finally, the long-awaited Friday is here :D This is how meaningless my life is. Friday - wish Monday will never come. Monday - wish Friday is tomorrow. Still, I got over the 4 days. And still, I wish Monday will never come. As much as I know this is not going to happen, I'm looking forward to Tuesday! Be it going out with the LC people or staying at home to sleep all I want, I don't really care! =xx I love and miss and want holidays! There isn't really any moment I enjoy in school. I'm sick and tired, sick and tired of school. So, please spare me from that. My life's a cycle now. A very fixed one. Monday - end at 2, Yoga for an hour, study with ZW YC. Tuesday - end at 3.30, study with ZW YC. Wednesday - end at 2, CCA till 4.30, study with ZW YC. Thursday - end at 2, study with ZW YC. Friday - end at 2, LEP till 3, Guides till 6.30. Sunday - Lib with ZW YC Angie JH. Maybe the Saturday slot is empty. LOL. Dinnered with Rahil, Badd, Sarch. See, this is how much I love ...

200 POUNDS BEAUTY is very nice! I rate it 4 out of 5! I CRIED at the last part! Oh my believe it or not! =xxx But yeah, haven't enjoyed a movie for quite some time. Worth catching! :D Few more days to May. And that's like in the twinkle of an eye. Time's not stopping. Neither am I moving on. But somehow I just can't afford to let go of the kite I've been tightly grabbing on to for this long. Do you know how it feels like to watch someone from afar?

Angie Zhi Wei YC ZR and JD stayed over last night. Guess such stuff will really be rare nowadays considering the fact that almost all of us are in different schools. JD really has turned bad. Not ROTTEN though. LOL. Finally a wish fulfilled. I've received my award from the GOH. I did it. The stall was fine with great help from my dears. We probably wouldn't earn any profits ultimately but I think they really had fun and that was most important of all. Even MAX dyed his hair! Goodness gracious. But I'm really sorry about my poor attitude today. Dinner with Angie Zhi Wei Fel Stheng Tsu Hui YP YC XX NY and Max at Macs. LOL. A sad thing that Stheng YP Fel left early. Really had a great laugh. We all know why. Tsu Hui and her gossips; Zhi Wei and her logic; Angie and her listen-here-listen-there; Nan Yang and his WONDERFUL answers; Xiao Xuan and her lag-ness; Yuci and her laughter; Max and his good linkage! Something I really really ought to say, 我的世界要是少了你们，我可能会少了一份快乐！ It's ...

Another 7.5 hours spent in the library. But today wasn't as productive as last week because we were all so high, no idea over what. LOL. It was like a gathering for the small group of us - ZR TH YP Lao Zhuang Angie Zhi Zhi YC and me! HAHA. Watched 新警察故事 on teevee just now. Nice and thrilling! Got my Daniel! :D But he acted as a bad guy and died in the end :/ Well but anyway it got me so high =xx Looking forward to Friday as well as Saturday. Finally I'm seeing myself fulfil a dream of mine. And it's going to be another Speech Day in CT. Though, I have no idea if there'll be another picture taken on this day. You said you'll be around no matter what happens. So is our pact still valid?

如果开始就能看见幸福 不在别人眼光耳语中迷路 或许我不能把爱看清楚 想把你的手牢牢握住 Conversed with Max on the phone last night for 59 minutes and I laughed till I teared. And those were not tears of joy. LOL. His descriptions were superb. POWDERFUL. I called him just now. Actually did it without much hesitation. Couldn't believe it myself either. Ha. Sick and tired of hearing about breakups. Like what Shirleen said, it's like the breakingup season. 5 cases of such I have heard. I have had enough of those please. Back to my truckloads of work. Feel so like hurling vulgarity at this point of time. LOL =xx my heart was fractured into splints and shards by your arrival.

Been retiring to bed really early these days. Just how much do I appreciate my sleep! I seriously find it a luxury to be able to sleep for all I want :D Yup and one thing, I'm trying not to take any naps anymore. Wastes time! Might as well finish homework first and then sleep after that till the next day! I won't even mind not taking dinner! =xxx Alrights, there will be no more shuai shuai in my life. At least, it's not him anymore. I'm going to wake up from my dream, get out of my fantasy! (; Have been a good girl! Finish homework on time! Will be studying with Zhi Wei YC and Xiao Bai every week! And with Angie during weekends! What a fulfilling J1! And hopefully, I'll be able to leave by next year :D Shucks, my craving for chocolates is back. FATTENING!

Productivity today increases to 7.5 hours. Good girls, aren't we? LOL =xxx It's so GP today. Cause' I did all the never-ending GP work and somehow, it's ending soon. Cause' I'm finishing them SOON >. Finally, I received a call from my almost-long-lost friend. We talked for 1:02:51. That would be 1 hour, 2 minutes and 51 seconds. And yepps, I really don't remember when's the last time we talked on the phone. LOL. I know we can never go back to the S.H.E or Novday days but anyway, I cherish the friendships I have with each one of us now. I'm tired of school, tired of people, and tired of my life. But I'm moving on. Someday, somehow, somewhat, I'm going to be happpy like you too.

Mahjong with Max Angie and Zhi Wei. I got to believe in 情场失意，赌场得意. LOL. We played ten rounds and of which, I won 9 rounds, with Max winning one round after my 4th round of winning. LOL. If only we've played with money, I'll be filthy rich right now =xxx So yepps, because they were not too happy with me winning all the time, they decided to penalise me. I played with my tiles opened, so that they could keep whatever tiles I wanted. LOL. As for the last round, all of us played with our tiles opened that Angie actually could still win eventually. LOL =xx SHOPPING! In an NTUC though. We were so noisy that the Auntie selling fishballs couldn't help but commented that Jian Dong was the only guy, the only quiet one. LOL. Couldn't help it, the combination of Zhi Wei Fel Angie and YC could give a blast. LOL. Steamboat! Yummies. First steamboat with my dears Angie Fel YC ZW Stheng TH YY and JD. A pity ZR and lao Zhuang were not around, though. Anyway, it saved our pockets a lot c...

It really hit me hard and I guess I need some time to cool down and recover. Incidents like this one happened again and again. I'm not yet immune to it but it should be a matter of time. It's funny how life works, ain't it? I tried so hard to focus on something else but it cut me even deeper. Now, my heart literally hurts but the one who used to make me feel better is busy with his girlfriend. Oh well. Went to JP with Xiao Bai Zhi Wei and YC. Laughing like mad girls on our way there. In the end it was like an emo trip home. Perhaps not all of us though. Some things have to happen when we don't expect them to. I feel more painful now, thinking about why I have stayed in JJ. Maybe I really shouldn't have. It was a painful beginning for me to have left CT after 4 years in it, and in the hope of being able to adapt in JJ. Yet more blows hit me and threw me back to the dumps. Once again, I have to pick myself up even though I think I'd rather stay in the dumps, since...

Cramps really can kill. I'm dying of fatigue now. And dear Max doesn't want to put down the phone!! >. I really feel so sianed of school already. I had so much to blog today but because of lethargy getting the better of me, I decided I should do it some other time. Nights, I'm dying.

I had the first interview of my 17 years of life! Alrights, everything's a breeze but I won't know what the results are though. LOL. The interviewers were nice and funny at times and yepps, I always find myself a very lucky person. GCE O Level Express Chinese Oral Examination, I know the examiner! Everything went well. GCE O Level Chemistry Practical Examination, I know the invigilator! Changing burette wasn't a problem as well. And now, the English interviewer was an ex-CTSS teacher! Oh I don't know if everything would be alrights though. At least I was confident about it and everything has become history :D PW's killing me! What's the problem with groundbreakers? >. My shuai shuai is not in school today!! What a tragedy!! But then, I found my bao bei water bottle le!! :D Watch over me. There's PC tomorrow =xx Now that you're no longer part of my life, I will learn to fill that space with something else. Someday we will meet.

Studied with my dears - Angie YC and Zhi Wei! Quite a productive 6.5-hour spent in the library :D And because we were quite scared of having our bags removed by the guards, we ate our lunch within half an hour! That's like so chop chop. LOL! Received invitation from CT yesterday! Finally, the day I long-awaited has come! I'm awarded 'GCE O Level Examinations 7 Distinctions'! :D Aha. And oh my, interview at MOE tomorrow >. Oh my, I've only cleared half the mountain of my weekend assignments! MORE TO COME! =/