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All we needed was enlightenment. Thank you Buttercup! What you said last night actually set me thinking. Even though I ended up being alone, two people who could have been alone are not lonely anymore:) Someone has to be there at the bottom. We shan't always strive for the top. Once again, the day is saved.....Thanks to the POWERPUFF GIRLS! P.S: Arigato Jia Ying for helping me with the import!! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY:) Yes, I need to have a clear mind. I need to stay rational. I need to believe that I can do it. And, stop asking questions which are irrelevant. “味道总会随风而逝。” --《卖海豚的女孩》

I saw this notebook which I reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy like! But $14.50, a definite no-no. I told myself I will not exceed an expenditure of $30 per week from now on (UNLESS NECESSARY)!! When I saw a VCD sales at BTP just now, I had to make a big round to refrain from going down to take a look:( Few more weeks to gooooooooooooooooo 想到该做就去做，别再考虑了。

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAHIL AND KAIXIANG AND SIS! The day started off with a treat from Yh at Pepperlunch yummiessssssssssssss Saw him once again after two months! So we, together with Rui and Zhi, made our way to Science Centre. Eventually we figured the admission ticket was too ex so we headed to mei li shi jie to play lannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn Crap, we couldn't even complete a single L4D2 game -.- It's ok, we'll do it again next time! Max come back soon so that we can playyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Thankyou L01! For making the meet up such a nice one:) As usual we were laughing like crazy women upon hearing what Deng jie said hahahahhahah (Y) I merely like to give surprise, is there anything wrong with it?

Today is a happy day. I don't know why but it just is:) Met Rahil for breakfast. I can't believe I brought my camera but without my memory card inside -.- This is the second time. Freak. I really miss hanging out with Rahil:) My white chocolate mocha helped me stay awake throughout the day (5 hours without break)! A rare lovely Thursday. HY and LX waited for me just to print notes. Rather, they helped me print. Arigato ladies!!! I really look forward to class gathering tomorrwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww I miss playing with Wei Wei I miss listening to Deng Yuan tell me stories I miss bickering with Yu Han I miss gossiping with Huimin I miss joking with Wen Ting I miss fooling around with Mengli I miss quarrelling with Zhi I miss being tricked by Brennnnnnnnnnn WHERE ARE ALL THE GOOD OLD DAYS?! I really hated JC life but these people really made me enjoy some parts of it. JC was really crap but in retrospect, I think I really remember more good times than the bad ones. Can't wait to se...

I know this is wrong but.... I've finished another book today! Melissa Hill's Please Forgive Me was a good read and I think it ended sweetly. I felt like I was on a rollercoaster ride for the past 2 weeks while reading the book really slowly (because I had to do my assignments). The excitement following the unravelling of the truths really made me unable to sit still. I actually stayed up to read last night! Terrible. Okay this really has to stop. No more reading other than readings! Heard about Mr Kenny's proposal during contact time with his bouquet of 99 pink roses. How sweet! I wished I had been there to witness it!!

I think this song is damn nice. (Max this is for youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu) I think I understand what it means to miss someone dearly. But while at it I'm still living my life the way I think I should:)

I finally sorted out the above stack of notes that had been lying on my table since yonks ago! Madness. I almost spent half a day doing it. (okay maybe I was just too slack...) Now I feel neater and more motivated to do work:) I've been into HK videos on Youtube and I reallyyyyyyyyyyyy think that I should be born there! Well time to end my indulgence here and get down to serious work. About 3 more big assignments to go before I can start studying for exams! A shot of twenty over old school songs and now I come to the realisation that I've wasted so much time. I don't regret but I think I've learnt:) HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIXUANNNNNNNNNN :D

Because Man U won Liverpool with a score of 2-1 last night, our hardcore ManU fan lecturer decided he shall postpone the deadline for assignment to next Friday (which is Good Friday)! AWESOME :D Thank you Man U, thank you Rooney and Park for scoring! That's the nice thing for the day part 1:) I was QUITE attentive for once during EL lecture today because we watched a video which featured Mark Twain and his story which I read when I was in primary school -- Tom Sawyer's Adventures. How I miss reading it! I think I will read it again when this semester ends. That's the nice thing for the day part 2:) It's even week! That means no school for me tomorrow:D That makes it part 3!

This is the scene in the film that made all the audiences burst out into laughter, including myself!! Everytime I think of this scene I will just smile to myself hahahahahahaha I promise it's funny! ENJOY!:D

我的内心世界，谁明了？ 作为忠臣，只能效忠国君，不可有其他期望。 但是作为一个小小的官吏，却有一万个不许。既不能以下犯上，对那些比自己辈分小的官员则要使用怀柔政策。 但是宫中尔虞我诈，你对别人有情有义，别人未必对你仁慈。 到底怎样才是最正确的？ Put this context into my situation and yes, that's me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANLI:) Spent a short afternoon with the blondes:) Headed off to have dinner with Ben and soccer girls before hopping on to Jasmine's car to NTU! The guitar concert was brilliant! (Y) Honestly it was good:) One of the best musical concerts I've been to. The Entertainment played by Bren and co still rings in my headdddddddddddddddddd BREN YOU ARE FANTABULOUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS LOVE YOU LOADS LAH (P.S: Are you very happy that Jasmine sat beside me during the concert? I took her car lehhhhhh see your concert brought two childhood friends together hahahahahahahah) Thank you Jas for sending us to and fro! No more procrastination. Get down to work tomorrowwwwwwwwwww Simply because I want to keep my promise:) So I won't do anything, no matter what I hear.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENDAAAAAAAAA :D Thank you for being such a lovely friend from the day I knew you. I know you always stalk me on my blog although you never mentionedddddddd LOL Please if you read this drop me a comment because you never did! Brought chewwwwwwwwww to eat steamboat! Yumsssssss The weather wasn't very kind to us but we still managed to have a good time! Shoppingggggggggggg No more $$ in wallet. Can't wait to quickly finish my assignments man.

I promise it's my last time seeing. I told myself if ever I post these lyrics, it means I can really, really do it already. Or rather, I've done it already. 真的希望你们快乐 终于舍得去成全去放手 不追问你的感受 尊重彼此的选择 当你决定了向左 我往前走 我不停走 哈哈天啊，我竟然违背了自己的原则！I watched 学警狙击 and finished it! :/ 好快哦。转眼间，两年就这样过了。 原来我们浪费了这么多时间。

School for this week has finally ended for me! :)  (though that doesn't mean I can rest since there are never-ending assignments to work on....) Saw Mel at FASS today! Such a rare sighttttttttttt Weekend's packed but I'm sure fun is sure to come:)

I've been listening to this song every now and then. I listened to Daughtry's version almost everyday last December. I never thought Westlife's version will be nice because Chris Daughtry's voice is really unique and so I thought the individuality of his songs can't be placed in comparison with other versions of the same tracks. Until Mel asked me to help her get Westlife's version, I realised Westlife actually made the song much smoother and gentler. It's another kind of 'feel' altogether. To judge which is better, I can't really do it. Each has his own distinctiveness. And the lyrics are simple but definitely just nice and perfect context:)

WELCOME BACK CHEWWWWWWWW:) It was a long day and I never really stopped feeling worn out. Nevertheless it was nice to have submitted EL assignment and had a constructive EL project discussion. JIAYOU! Heard a kinda depressing piece of news today and it hit me hard. While some people totally give up in the face of really insignificant problems that can't even be considered as being problematic, some continue to grit their teeth when they are actually confronting the worst of their lives. It really struck me how the latter group manages to do it. Willpower can indeed be amazingly overwhelming and influential. I salute you, really. Thank you for being so strong. Because of you, I feel that all the more I need to be strong. Thank you for replying, Twinnie. Even though it had nothing to do with my explanation that day. Perhaps I really upsetted you, therefore you don't see the need for a reply. Whatever that is, I don't really want to care who you are with. You just need ...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE:) It's been some time since we were so crazy. Breakfast with Tsu in the morning (I really think it's damn value for money to eat macs in school) and surprise by YC and YY. As usual Tsu was kinda going nuts at the sight of the pair (I didn't say scandalous pair ok?). And then we went shoppinggggggggggggg. I promise I don't like to go shopping with them lahhhhhhhhh. Always tempt me to buy stuff :( I had my weekly dose of drug ---> mocha frap! Haven't gone shopping with these people for so longgggggggggggggg We were so crazy. Thanks. We walked pass CKTangs again. 不一定每件事都是为任何人，总得该为自己。

Such apt lyrics.

Whenever I'm lazy or feeling neutral (means neither happy nor sad lah), I tend to type in point form. New discovery? 1. I decided long hair doesn't suit me after all so I'm back to short hair again:) Feels much lighter now with my 三千烦恼丝 goneeeeeeeeeeeee 2. I've left fb for a while. I think it has caused a bit too many problems of late and I can't think of anything else to make this situation better other than deactivating my account. Sometimes fb is really a bane :/ I'll be back! 3. I'm beginning to feel tired already just thinking about what has happened so far. BUT! I'm going to listen to Max and go all my way out. I think it's still worth trying before I give up, right? 加油吧！

Dear Maxxxxxxx Thank you for calling from Taiwan! You really let me have a clearer view of what I needed to do:) I think forgetting the unhappiness and continuing to love will make me a better person and make things work out better too. I'm going all the way out, even if it means stumbling upon obstacles that are difficult to overcome:) 苦中一点甜！ LOVE YOU TO THE MAX

After being friends for so long, I only realised today that the person I have known is merely an empty shell with no soul inside. How did you do it? I can never imagine how you managed to screw my life upside down like this when I cared so much for your feelings. I should have known that everything is just a surface. Thank you for letting me realise how scary you are.

Suddenly feel freer with most of the assignments done:) I am a accomplished person these days! Ok shan't be complacent, must continue to work hard. Was doing my readings for history tutorial. Realised there are quite a lot of controversies going on with regard to Emperor Wu Zetian. Seriously why point fingers at her? I mean yes she was cruel, she killed her children, she had a lot of guys surrounding her, but do all these alone make her a horrid person because she is a woman? A man could have a few concubines but a woman could not? The other emperors, like Tang Taizong, killed their own flesh and blood or kins to survive in the palace. Why do people seem to argue more when Wu Zetian did the same? Just because she's a woman so she shouldn't be doing all these? If that's the case, then apparently some people still think that men have superiority over women and should enjoy more rights in having more wives rather than women have more than one husband. Ridiculous. Nonethele...

During the course of these two years, there have been quite a bit of changes. Stagnant, progress, deterioration. My hopes were slowly built up, dashed, all sorts. Wasted a lot of time too, in just trying to get things back on tracks when in actual fact these matters didn't even need an external pressure to make them work. Yes, the works of nature will do the job nicely. I don't want to waste any more time. I don't want to think that I can do anything to nip the problem in the bud. I will not be swayed again. 鲁迅笔下的阿Q有精神胜利法，我也一样. 我可以的！

Dear bf 你曾经（很久很久以前，大概一年前？）告诉我一句话：“化悲愤为力量！”当时我觉得你在敷衍我，好像不知道要用什么话来鼓励或者安慰我，所以随随便便说一句话。今天回想起这句话，我觉得它的意义非常深刻。 在这两个星期里，我完成了很多事。也许都是不可能完成的事。因为之前我太悲伤了。我觉得好像是世界末日。我觉得我在意的人都把我当作是理所当然的。我觉得我好像是人群中一个寂寞的人。 原来悲愤真的可以转化成力量。这几天我做了很多事，觉得自己很有效率。希望我可以这样维持下去，不放弃。 谢谢你bf！有时候我会想，没有你这么忍让我的坏脾气和无理取闹，我应该怎么办？ :) 永远感激你的bf:)

MAX! Thanks for dropping by despite the tight schedule you are bogged down with over there in Taiwan:) Met Yan Hong finallyyyyyy after a million decades. It was good catching up once again:) Ohana girls unite! We went down to the library to do work today. It's always such quality time spent with the girls that makes me feel that I always have them around:) I love the library! Finished my second half of EL assignment within an hour or less. Awesome. Thanks for meeting SK:) I really miss you lah. It's been almost a year! It's still nice having you around no matter how long we haven't seen each other. I so miss the days we would talk all day long during old school days, be it over the phone or in persons. Yes, reminisce.. Not that I won't care anymore. Maybe I will care less. Or I will try to.

I think this song is kinda.. cool? Fish seems to sing it rather joyously (even the tune itself is also quite 'cute' at the start) but somehow there's just this tinge of sadness amidst! Hear and see if you can feel it.

Disclaimer: I took the above picture but the object itself was made by Zhi. Nice hor? (not nice also must say nice. It's V'day gift! Mine is the nicest =xx ) Watched Being Human with Angie. I honestly think the movie is not very nice. (I seldom comment that movies are not nice) Funny maybe. Nevertheless, I'm proud of you Ce!:) I'm broke like to the MAX.

I finished reading 《红颜露水》last night and dozed off on my bed at 9p.m. thereabout. And I only woke up at 9.30a.m. this morning!! Haven't had such a long sleep for ages and no doubt I feel much invigorated now to chiong my assignments! The scenes in 张小娴's books always replay in my mind after I have finished them. Somehow there is always something that I will learn at the end of a tale. No matter how tough, I must try to complete my EL essay todayyyyyyyyyy

Sweet hor? I can't seem to find this version of the comic. I really want to see the ending! Anyone knows where to read the comic or watch it online? I survived another day! March is madness with all the deadlines but I am so going to make itttttttttttttt 从我们认识到现在，我告诉我自己什么都要让你。这次也不例外。

Sometimes life gets tooooooo busyyyyyyy that it is really damn difficult to strike a balance between work and friends. I can't really give up one for the other can I? I'm trying very hard and even though I'm tired, I want to keep going. Good morning world. It's going to be a long day but I know I can make it, right?

Day 1 without Max. And it's going to be a long one month! I miss you already Max!!! Macs makes me a happy person too:) I had macs for dinner with lx san! KAP is always the best place to have macs. I'm very motivated to complete my assignments, even though they are really tough and seemingly impossible to finish! (but my books are waiting for me to read them so I must persevere!) YES I CAN DO IT! Thank you bf for the SMS. Sometimes it is such messages that make me stronger and affirm that you're the best! (ok don't be too complacent please) 我觉得我一天比一天想得开:)

Eric are you happy with the ending? LOL If only the time paradox really exists huh.

That's old Nobita.

Thank you Ohanies:) Having your company always beats taking Prozaic. Thank you for the time spent even though it's a weekday! I miss you already Max. Take good care! It's good to know I've moved another step forward. No lies. I didn't and I don't have to pretend that I am upset because I am really not:) It's our friendship that bothers me most, won't you believe? Sometimes it is really what you leave behind that makes it difficult. 曾几何时，我是那么在乎。但是现在回想起，一切好像只是虚幻，一点都不真实。 万物真的可以很脆弱。

没有什么分别啦.

Where are all the good times? Why did things turn out like this? Things always get more complicated when we grow up huh? But never mind, I must start caring for my loved ones again!

Let this be the first time I praise you. You're a freaking brilliant actor.

I'm back on my feet, ready to fight again. Finally I really stepped out of the house today to take a look at the world outside. Thank you chewchew for meeting and giving me this chance to go out. Remember to bring the BOO pen to Cambodia and scare kids who are naughty:) But don't scare your father please. Enjoy your trip and remember we are doing a lot of things when you're back. Take care:) I miss you eh Mel. Meet soon:) I miss you Nelson. Where are you? I miss you Chrissss when are you coming back lol. I miss you Coconut your stuff is still with meeeeeeee I miss you guys Ohana. Sorry for playing MIA these two weeks. 我知错了. I bought a book today and it makes me happy. Maybe because that gave me the motivation to quickly finish my assignments which I barely started on. I have 7 books to read after clearing my assignments. P.S: YC when are you returning me my book? Is it still in good condition? Don't think I forgot about it ah.... LOL I know I can be very unglam to the m...

好了；堕落够了，是时候重新开始，找回人生了。 谢谢大家的关心，我找回自己了。

Uploaded another one for you ERIC. LOL

Why do all of you point your fingers at me?

I really need to know how I can get out of this. Can I stand up again?

Doraemon has always been the one who makes impossible things happen. What if he's gone forever?

Gaming, shoplifting, late nights, wasting life away. So much thrill and not having to remember things. But I know it's time I get my life back.

很久没有哭了。 希望这一次，被眼泪洗涤后的眼睛能够把世界看得更清楚。

Self-delusion always gets you to nowhere..

Maybe from the beginning I was the only liar. I've never felt my life was this worthless.

I knew I would regret, just never thought it to be this soon. It just keeps coming back, never letting me off. Why the shit did it have to happen? I think it's something we can never explain nor understand. Freak.

I can lie, but I've run out of lies.

why is my life so fucked up

Sorry Fel I didn't celebrate your birthday with you:( I'm wasting my life away. Why? I can't stop fighting with my thoughts. There are too many puzzling issues that I can never sort out. I used to love all the beatiful things in this life, but nothing left is beautiful. I never understood how you could build me up and tear me down like this. And I still don't.

whatthefuck

The kind of happiness I want is simple. Good morning world, please make my day a nicer one. (Though the fact that I have to wake up so early is already a bad one) HAPPY BIRTHDAY FEL:)