past.

To start this off, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE. :) Alright, let me see... I'm almost clueless of what to say for a start. Well, 2008 had been quite a a year of ups and downs for me because it was the year I cried my worst? I sort of had the worst misunderstanding with my mum where I cried at night like everyday... And it was the year I felt like giving up everything in life.. But of course, my life doesn't consist of only the bad times. I received the MOE CLEP scholarship once again in 2008, I had great friends to stand by me when I was at my lowest, I survived through the tortuous CSC Independent Studies which took me almost half a year to complete. Moral of the story is? Never give up as long as there is hope. :) Each year, people constantly walk in and out of my life, of course, there are people who stay. Whatever that is, thankyou to those who have left an indelible impression in my life and made me feel that I'm still someone who is being cared for, like everyone else. ...

Potluck yesterday was cool! I have to bring up something here. ANGIE made cookies for all of us! Can you sense her sincerity? YES WE CAN. (I was made to include this part of the content...) The Little Nonya! As much as we were indulged in the yummilicious food, we didn't forget to catch our favourite show for the season! :D But anyway, I have to say I still like my own curry best. ;D 2 days of staff meeting was extremely taxing. 2009's sure going to be a challenging year for me. Just a "powerless" long-term relief teacher, no doubt about that. But from now on I have to watch my own language.. NO - f-u-c-k (But I don't use it VERBALLY anyway..) - shit (shit, my favourite line leh!) - damn (Is this even swearing? I always use it unknowingly... ohmy.) - walao (I can't think of anyone who can avoid using this..) Being the youngest in the school, all the teachers are my seniors. Yet, some of them prefer me to address them by their names! 8 years ago, I addressed th...

Shit. 2009 is coming.

How many 'all over again's can one afford? I can't afford too many. Compass Point was bursting at its seams today, like DUH. It was the roadshow for The Little Nonya and I'm seriously glad this show has received outstanding viewership, breaking the million record. :D It was a little pity I didn't manage to get my hands on the limited 100 posters and of course, not Yuwu's signature as well. Nevertheless, it was still the greatest thing to be able to see Yuwu once again. :D I'm amazed 戴阳天 has secured such a big fan base when he has entered the entertainment industry for barely a year or two. But yeah, his acting is really good in that show and he's quite good looking. BUT YUWU IS STILL MY FAVOURITE. I almost died in the crowd, be it being squeezed or stepped on or pushed blah blah blah... I was literally wet when I finally got myself out of the throngs of fans! So sian can! Didn't take a good look of Yuwu today. :( Look at how packed the place is! Even...

Where your whole life stretches out ahead of you like a forked road. Sometimes, or perhaps all the time, I'm a failure. I make sweeping decisions and then I regret. And then I tell myself there isn't life without regrets. Yet I hate that tinge of regret that cuts right through me like a curved blade. Dilemmas make you feel lost, but they make you realise what you really want. So are they good or bad?

Chase every rung of possibility. Gym with Zhi in the early morning and now I'm aching all over. Have been a good girl today! Went to mum's stall to help out, even though I only cut some vegetables and packed some food. It's been some time since I helped out and my teachers have been asking why I'm not trying to lighten my mum's burden since I am so free these days. :/ My student is such a poor thing. His father insists tuition whereas his mum says no. His parents are divorced and it's not surprising their stands are opposites. I just kind of empathise with my student because he's stuck in the middle. I'm a poor thing too. I had 11 lessons with him and I charge him less than $100 IN TOTAL.

Lost. Helpless. Fearful. Discouraged. Exhausted. Tell me I'm strong enough to get over the negative feelings that haunt me.

Firstly, even though I may be late, I still want to dedicate to my good friend, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE YING HAO. FINALLY 18!! And I'm turning 19 soon! :D (okay, that isn't something I should be proud of.) Yesterday was Christmas eve and as usual, nothing special about it. But for once, I had a Christmas eve dinner outside at Thai express and I thought it was great. Those who enjoy hot and spicy food, you should just give it a shot. Yummy yum yum. :D This time, Xiaobai was the organiser of the dinner. XIAOBAI ok!! No joke!! =xx And then it was overnight PS2 till 5am (along with Cadbury hot chocolate drink at 11pm and steamboat supper at 1am and chocolate icecream at 2am!) before everyone turned in for a short nap. And then, while I slept, all of them left without me knowing! =xx P.S: Zi Rui and Angie, don't think I don't know both of you changed my MSN pm... Watch out ah both of you!!! I've always liked Christmas but it's a pity I don't really celebrate it becaus...

Hang in there, GuoLian! Tell yourself you're not at the lowest and all will be over in a split second!

I wouldn't really say I enjoyed at the bbq. Because it wasn't really a class one, more of a clique one, as always. Somehow, such gatherings have gradually lose their meanings because people from two different worlds just find it hard to come together and click. Nevertheless, thankyou Jia Hui for going through the hassle. :) Max has become part of my life that whenever I go to CCK, I see the need to drop by his house! Alright, for now, pictures. ;D MEL Warrick My dearest missed 老婆！ Favourite teacher and her little cutie pie. :D Most motivating Math teacher! :D Finally, the 8 of us unite!

It's been very exciting and nice being with Ohanas at Genting. The fun we had was boundless and irreplaceable. Zi Rui's family were super nice to us, treating us to dinners for 2 nights and the meals cost quite a bomb! Missed out a few rides as usual because of my timid nature and I WAS REALLY FEELING UNWELL. LOL. Hurt my arm during the Flying Dragon ride! But it was still my favourite. :) All of us went crazy at the last ride! Screaming as if we were attention seekers. No doubt this is one of the most memorable trips I ever had. :) For now, pictures for viewing! :D