past.

|a|a|a. bad mood. bad mood. bad mood. dunno y. |a|a|a. not really ba. iya i dunno. mixed emotions. 7 more days to their takeover parade? think so ba. hope he gets promoted. tml got acsi gangshow. suddenly a bit e reluctant to go. cos i dun wan c someone. |a|a|a. but min and sther expect me to intro intro siarh. ha lol. i wont la definitely. even if i wan he oso dun wan de. ha lol. nice day today. but boring. cant go out. no nice tv shows. feel like calling him!! =x but of cos cant la. haiz. or maybe can start doing hols hw le. den can use rest of e days to play. but i everytime like that say. in e end sure do last min work de. keke. nice one na. i listened to 'e reason' again and again. sad siarh. lol. waiting for him to come online? -shrugs- i dunno. maybe yes. maybe no. i dunno. everytime i go offline he wil come online. meant to be like that? -shrugs- again. i dunno. perhaps. hoping to c him online soon thou. ha lol. -i miss you- =x guolovesduncan 3.14pm out of my mind. noth...

misplaced my trust in someone. last nite he got back his phone temporary. so i sms-ed him. so i was rite. he guessed was himself. thou he was rite lo. ha lol. but eventually i told him e truth. not bad siarh. i felt much better. or i wld have exploded le. ha lol. maybe he may sound very calm. maybe he intended not to talk to me anymore. but anyway. i said le. and there is no way i can take back my words. so if he wan to siam me or wat oso nvm lo. ha lol. i misplaced my trust in someone siarh. i trusted him and he betrayed my trust. haiz nvm forget it. i m tired of being angry with him le anyway. but i rather believe py this time. i c no point y she has to lie to me anyway. and moreover she is much better den that ********* watever la. wan to eat chocolate again. heh. dunno if limin they all back from ice skating or not. must call her siarh. cos tsu hui nv ans my call. maybe she not free. hmmm. cant stand it anymore le. go buy chocolate le. ha lol. guolovesduncan 1.49pm i told you wat i...

step down. today is step down and sec1 enrolment. not i wan to say but most of e sec1s got attitude lo. hope they wil change like how we sec2s have changed. self praise self praise. keke. met sheena jiahui min and sther at 9. den sther realiz she didnt bring beret den she cried. den went home to take. jiahui oso went home to take. but sway siarh cos in e end didnt use beret. jus like wat i told jiahui. so min sheena and me go coffeeshop makan. baoyue melissa liyi suling came back. sheena and i so scared when we saw liyi!!!! of cos la. she so fierce de. gee lol. den we go to field to start e ceremony. was quite sad la. cos we these few batches quite close de lo. thou i dunno bout e previous batches. den took lotsa pics. even took with ms moo. den i wished all e leaders good luck but except jiaxin. til now stil scared of her man. heh. den went to mac with min jiahui sther kian wee jun rong. oh yah stupid kian wee borrowed my comb nv returned me! ha lol. anyway we ate and talked cock. saw...

cold day. today rained and rained. cold day man. morning met bteng as usual. saw something again. but pple tell me not to blif wat i saw. how am i supposed to not blif my own eyes? haiz watever la. dunno wat to say. today got spring cleaning. very fun. haha lol. after school talking to yh at umbrella area. saw him. first time can stand so near him w/o saying hi. lol. den went to ginza with tsu hui. we talked and talked. shared deep secrets. haha lol. den went to imm to join limin stheng sther. went with junrong tsuhui chris yh. sian man. shldnt have gone. stupid junrong. strangle my neck so hard til now stil pain. but bcos i snatched his phone la. gee lol. den went home with jun rong. saw lyn and her ahem clement tang. lol. sian sian sian. bad mood today. feel like crying. but i cannot. i told jiahui i dun always cry. and she even told me she hasnt seen me cry before. ha lol. den i shall keep e record? haha. i aint that fragile. i noe how to act. i noe how to put up a strong font. thou...

i was silly. i guess i had been too silly. to believe something i shldnt have. but i realized it too late. y must you fool me? y did i not doubt it at all? y? this morning. supposed to be a nice one. but it has turned into a bad one. when i saw something i didnt wan to c. as i walked into e school. i really felt like crying. but there seemed to be no leaning shoulders around. i felt. a sense of loss. til i saw them come to school tog. i knew i had been fooled. by 2 pple whom i tot i could trust. watever it is. thanks to sther and min. nice and broad shoulders they have lent me. felt more comforted. ha lol. today was boring. except that we watched e mtvs during chinese lesson. had much laughter. went to mac after school. with stheng and sther. stupid 2b1 pple. go take my umbrella. next thing they did was to spill sther's food. almost wanted to scold them. uncivilised pple. good enough that they knew to apologise. and said will pay tml. or i sure hoot them. lucky i siam when they thr...

The Reason I'm not a perfect person As many things I wish I didn't do But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new And the reason is you I'm sorry that I hurt you It's something I must live with everyday And all the pain I put you through I wish that I could take it all away And be the one who catches all your tears Thats why i need you to hear I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is You [x4] I'm not a perfect person I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is you I've found a reason to show A side of me you didn't know A reason for all that I do And the reason is you

a stab in e heart. today released late from school. cos got com class. this morning bteng late so i went to school alone. but darn hungry so went to buy something to eat at e bakery. saw him when i stepped into e school. in other words. today he was earlier den me. perhaps it was meant to be like that. i somehow purposely lowered my head. we walked past each other. some sort of. but didnt say hi. but anyway it was always like that. we say only when ***** is around. but i believe he doesnt really wan to c me too. lol. everyone was tired today. siti didnt come. max and weijie oso. today's pe game was lousy. thou good enough that we girls put up a show. mr tay knew that thou. poor yingpeng sprained her leg. limped and limped. lol. cher played e scooby doo during home econs. i slept thru out. 1 whole hour. mrs lee absent today. so ms moo took over. that means 3periods of maths. was obviously boring. i slept for e last 10min. ms moo complimented that i was quiet thou. lol lol lol. =p lu...

haiz. haiz. dunno wats wrong today. confused man. haiz. first is royce msg me during lessons. bout something. til now i stil feel so guilty. haiz. all bcos of me n my big mouth. haiz. idiotic me. den after school. i c him. obviously i avoiding him. but dunno he noe or not. haiz. i feel like banging my head against a pillar. haiz. i really feel so bad. very very bad. haiz. anyway. today didnt eat anything at all. only a tuna sandwich after school. but some 'hypocrite' appeared in front of me. made me lose my appetite. lol. den after that some pple go take e eng competition. actually walked home with yiqin de. den at e bus stop. waited very long. suddenly siao siao wan go back to school. so went back and saw jun rong lo. den we talked cock here and there. den yuyuan gave me e free concert ticket. wOoT! thanks to him. den i can go de. keke. den waited for jiahui they all come out lo. den we went home le. so i quickly bathed and changed. met shawn and jun rong. den we go mac makan....

'badder' headache. haiz. today got a worse headache den yesterday. ouch. painful. haiz. fever siarh. jus now morning pe lesson played captains ball. muscles cramp until like siao. but was a nice game thou. jus now went to mac with mel after school. last nite chatted with many pple lo. including ouxiang. but den. iya. dunno wat to say. lol. den today c him. dunno shld say hi or not. so didnt. i dun think he saw me anw. lol. after mel go home le. went to look for stheng n limin at coffeeshop. they finished makan-ing le. den limin n i go 7-11 go talk cock for a while. den went home with yingpeng. waited til 5 17 oso nv c him. lol. finished eng ppt. stil must memorise script. but dun feel like going to sch tml. haiz. guolovesduncan 7.56pm if i could enjoy life totally w/o you. that would be decades later. if i could stop missing you. that would be hundreds and thousands years later. if i could ever afford to let you go. that would be impossible.

dun.wanna.think.bout.you. hmmm. headache today. not a bad one thou. yesterday was busy. online for 2hrs. talked to yoke hwee on e phone for a while. talked bout something i didnt really wan to hear. ha LoL. watched tv. do my word puzzle. huiying came. played monopoly with her. played badminton. watch tv. talked to chris on e fone for like 1hr? around dere la. thou is stil something i dun wan to hear. but i listened. cos i m curious. and he said. to ease my curiosity. ha LoL. played badminton again. played mahjong. ate US pizza. 4pieces. slept. today. dunno wat to do. very sian at home. must do research. must do ppt for english. practice for oral. but dunno wat research to do. haiz. c first la. Zzzzz. guolovesduncan 2.55pm every night. i c you in my dreams.

you broke my heart into two. dunno y. yesterday actually not sad de. now den sad. dunno y. ouch. my heart hurts. haiz. maybe i shld hv guessed it ma. y i so dumb. now den discover. haiz. forget it. anw. nothing can change this cruel fact. y i so dumb. keep thinking bout it. now talking to yiqin. sian siarh. ha LoL. today no guides. heng. last nite talked to limin almost for 2hrs. we shared some deep secrets. ha LoL. jun rong sent me a video. very funny. must thank him ba. cos it was funny. it made me laugh. thou after laughing.i stil quite sad. dunno y. really dunno y. maybe not bcos of that. but bcos e whole world is ignoring me. for e first time. i didn receive a single msg in one day. hah. maybe i m too used to msgs everyday. ha LoL. i saw sther display pic. her neoprint with limin. very nice. yesterday finally took with kexian le. wan to take with kaixin. mel and michelle as well. hmmm. no hmwk. dunno wat to do. waiting for someone to be online. cos i wan to c his nick. i wan to c ...

dere was a first time.a second.i dun wan a third pls. haiz. pple in cls ignoring me today. many obvious cases. but dunno y. got back maths paper. 93. lousy. but shld hv expected it.cos everytime section A good section B sure lousy. lit ca marks only 70%. that was lousy. haiz. i complain that stheng they all apparently not suang with me.yp said was bcos i give them cold shoulder.wat shit is this? like wat jiahui said. is they lack e initiative n courage to talk to me first ma.den tot i nv talk to them.so i hv to agree with jiahui loads.yesterday i ask stheng 10over qns but she ignored me. she answered none. den now they saying is my fault? i dun understand. y is it always hv to me who takes e initiative? there wil be times when i m fragile rite? only min ah limin n sther bother to talk to me.but others?never at all. haiz. forget it. anw. maybe transferring school in aug le. a change in environment may not be a bad thing uh? after school actually got e eng competition thing. but didnt go...

forfeit. hmmm. jus came back home not long ago. jus now went to mac with min ah n jun rong. couldnt find e cd ouxiang wans!!! haiz. wat a disappointment man!!! heh. anyway after that went to big bookshop. bought lotsa stuff. bought two ATTITUDES bookmarks for chris n ouxiang. hahaha. LoL. den wanted to go back to school de. wanna c if ouxiang stil in school. keke. but den saw chris n ernie walking to mac. den chris say ouxiang go home le. so we all went to mac lo. ha. chris bought 20pcs nuggets. keke. but i ate e most. obviously. gee. den min ah n i both drank two cups of water each within 5min. haha. den we played e zong ji mi ma. den i tio twice. min ah oso. chris oso. jun rong 4 times. keke. tml all of us say wan do forfeit le. stupid jun rong. tell me go say hi to ouxiang n hold his hand. bleahx. gee. den chris more dumb la. tell me go call ouxiang n talk to him on e line for half an hour. that was lame. lol. but in e end everyone owe to tml. keke. haiz. poor ouxiang. he wear scand...

a friend lost. guess i lost a friend today. a friend i hv known for 1 yr n 17days. but maybe it isnt a bad thing ba. anyway we always walk past each other w/o even saying a hi. jus as if we dunno each other at all. i hv nv talked to him BEFORE too. moreover. again n again. he seems to prove to me all e time that i m not worth his trust. since i hv left such bad impression on him. i c no point in being friends with him le. hope i hv done e right thing. haiz... jus now actually went to mac. but too many pple le. so went to kfc. cos that chris n ouxiang wan go dere ma. n i said i wld treat them. but they win liao la. last min go home oso nv tell me. so stheng min-ah sther n me go makan dere lo. den met a retarded boy. kept on ka jiao-ing us. esp stheng. she must be so mad le. den min-ah n sther n me dunno y la. laugh like siao. ha. chris called back when i almost finished my meal. win liao la. tell me he meeting ouxiang in half an hour. dumb. he said that cos he i knew i wan to c ouxiang ...

depression. haiz. dunno wats wrong with my body system. somehow suffering from depression... ha. jus now mama go change her hp cover. she promised to get one for me. cos since p6 til now i always wanted e nokia 6510 alot. but she did not get it for me. next is something really very ridiculous. i borrowed disc man from jinyi some time ago. but i stopped listening since last thu bcos my ears hurt a lot ever since listening to lyn's mp3 at full blast vol. so i kept it in my drawer. i NEVER touched it at all but i do see it in my drawer everyday. last nite i felt like listening le but it wasnt in my drawer anymore. i asked my whole family, including my maids. but none of them took it. i cleared everything on my shelf but couldnt find it as well. my mum scolded me for misplacing it. but e fact is that i didnt! SO AMAZINGLY. my mum found it on my shelf this mroning. at a v significant spot some more. apparently someone has taken it but put it on my shelf when that person noes i was looki...

i attitude?lol. tired siarh. last nite talked to ouxiang's friend for like about 1 hour from 11 23 to 12 23 after midnight. hahaha. den slept at 1am plus ba. this morning woke up at 10plus. heh. haven been updating entries again. heh. cos these days got mid yr exams lo. everyone busy studying. including myself of cos. keke. for e past few days. have been going to mac everyday to makan and study. normally is go with stheng limin min ah sther siti they all den when they go home le i go join lyn hl kian wee and jun rong lo. me is like '2-headed snake' le lo. heh. but nvm la. for e past 2 weeks. almost everyday can c ouxiang. gee. lyn kept thinking my purpose of going mac is to wait for him thou. doinkz. lol. yesterday went to jp with stheng min ah sther and limin. chris ouxiang and yh joined us after 3e1 phy paper. but den yesterday i whole day not feeling well ma. so bad mood lo. sian sian one. nv talk much. esp to e three guys. so they tot i angry with them or something ba. ...

bye yiwen. yesterday yiwen left le. many pple from 2c1 went to airport to send her off. bj min ah bk shirley tsu hui bteng zhi wei yinghao shawn zhuang wei stheng hl yuci lyn sther yy kian wee limin weis jiemin and me. miss soh jun rong band pple jinyi magdeline and yiwen's pri sch friends oso got go. netballers oso. 10 met yy at his house bus stop. e stupid bus uncle got ap siarh. obviously we waiting for bus wat. den he jus drove off. lucky we not late. reached interchange le den saw shawn kian wee and jun rong. den we went to control station den saw most of them. we took to queenstown to meet bteng and zhuang wei. den took mrt to airport. we were playing in e train so happily when yiwen called me to tell me she was in e same train oso. she wore same shirt as bteng siarh. hahaha. den reach airport le took skytrain to terminal 2. we took alot of pics den went to eat.some ate sushi some ate burger king. den when i was with e pple who were having sushi meal. shirley kexian alicia fe...