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多么潇洒的祝福 我以为说的清楚 当你的不舍 埋在我手里哭 对和错却在眼前反覆的冲突 多么温暖的结束 我以为你会快乐 当我的拥抱 抱不住你的苦 谁会相信我要比你更加无助 结束不是我要的结果 却成了彼此唯一的出口 当城市烟火叫人坠落 那个紧紧把你抱住的人应该是我 结束不是我要的结果 感情却在拉扯中失控 当街边的车催你放手 那个等在车窗里的人已不是我 Nice old song! The MV features Jacky, Karen and JERRY . Right, I think this is a good way to psycho ANGIE into listening to this. Hor Angie? =xxx SANDWICH this Friday!!!

I'm so glad I'm blogging now because my Internet crashed last night and it was such a pain in the neck. Almost couldn't get my I and R done! Officially the end of PW. I think heaving a sigh of relief is not enough to express this great feeling. Today was a close shave! Was about to submit my I and R then my dear Auntie Rainbow read through my I and R word by word and realised that my last paragraph contradicted my first paragraph! *Zoom* Chionged to library with Zhi to re-type my second page but library staff went out for lunch!! Miss Chiew! First person who came to my mind so immediately called her. *Zoom* Rushed to staff room and borrowed her laptop and she printed it for me. Heng man! After like 7 months okay. I'm out of this. Sweet. Went to Brenda's house, the TRACKMILL one. As empty as ______. I don't know what's the word to describe. Mengli was like so gaga over the Hokkien karaoke songs that Brenda played -.- I had no choice but to watch 综艺大哥大 in Bren...

Haven't blogged at such an hour for a long time. Done with practising of OP, I and R second draft, editing of slides. Really really tired and hungry today, but have no idea what went wrong with me. Felt like an idiot playing with the trolley in Giant with Mengli and Yu Han this afternoon. However, was kind of fun. I can't wait for tomorrow. Because I'm really dying to release all my complaints about PW tomorrow. It hauls back something that was supposed to have diminished but hasn't.

Sweet dream I had last night. Almost didn't want to wake up =xx 可是有些东西是可欲不可求的 :/ Slacked my day away like that. Watch videos the whole day. Ohmytian so sinful! >. I'm kind of irritated by it but hush.. it will be over soon! A few days before I get my freedom back! Ms Lee asked to meet me again. I'm not running away but our schedules always clash, what can I do? Moreover it's pointless I guess. I'm just going to say no no no, I'm not going back to that rundown place.

Then I'm trying not to take it so seriously. Why are people today ending their lives? Doesn't it take a lot of courage? Yet, even if they do have the courage, it always turns out to be a foolish decision. And people around the so-called most poor thing person cry for him/her, looking at the state he/she is in. Anyway, I'm waiting for PW to end asap cause' I'm quite tired of acting. I know my acting skills are superb but it can get really tiring and irritating when it doesn't come to an end. I look at the mess on my table and I get a headache. Can't really believe it. I'm taking A levels Chinese exam on Monday. Ha. And I actually forgot to check my exam venue today. Nice one.

Finally, it's the last day of my J1 life! Yipeeeeeee~ Another 1 year plus and I'll be out of the school! =xxx Right, wonderful morning I've got! Toblerone from Pei Ting! Though I don't like that brand >. Intended to pon Math lecture with Mengli but changed my mind in the end because felt bad enough that only one-third of the class attended the lecture. OP was fine and Ms Chiew said I was alright!:D Mengli's comment made me laugh till now. LOL. Cakes! Chocolate cake! =xx Yummies:p But feeling more upset that Jia Lee is leaving us:( My dear LI MA. LOL. Super duper uber going to miss her! 07L01's strength is declining with Jia Lee's departure and Ma Rui retaining next year. Sianity civilisation. Maybe there'll be less laughter next year!:( CLL was kind of pathetic with less than half the class attending lesson. Nevertheless, it was a short and enjoyable period:) Max's house! MJ first. But SANDWICH was more interesting!:D We laughed and hit and scream...

Starvation! >. Right, quite a nice day spent. Never dozed off during lessons except for CLL when we were supposed to read our snow mountain flying fox =xxx Well, nevertheless, Wednesdays are always my smiling days!:) DUH! Every smile makes me melt! >. There was a mini competition during CLDDS on some Literature and History stuff. Can't believe it! I got third! And my prize was a $5 dollar popular/CD-Rama voucher! LOL. Think I can use it for Fish's album =xx Man, Monday's A level Chinese and I haven't done any revision! =xx SMILE!:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAR BENITA A.K.A BANANAS:) I'm in quite a bad mood today so there's nothing much I want to blog about. Went to JP with Angie and got a cookie for Loon Yuan whose birthday is tomorrow. So cute:) A war finally broke out. I kind of anticipated this day but never thought it to be like this. I won't apologise because I don't see why it's my fault. Moreover, an apology may not just settle everything. I really did reflect upon myself but I don't see the fault lying with myself. I will just shut up the next time, be it whether that's being right or normal, wrong or abnormal.

Met Teng Yu and Wen Shi in the morning to teach them A-Maths! O levels are finally here. 果然是一转眼! Ms Chiew called me to ask if I was in school. OMG. Wanted to make a trip to the polyclinic, or rather, went but left. Thought was quite a waste of time so met Huimin and Zhi outside lib >. Borrowed books on our toopid upcoming CSC Independent Study. Jialat. I made Zhi angry today:( Holidays are never enough. That's due to the never-ending homework. Piling up and never getting lesser! =xx This week's I Weekly has about 3-4 pictures of AhWU! And Louis Koo has a new movie! Wheeeeeeeee~ Man, it's raining cats and dogs! Double happiness!:) HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAR PEI TNG, A.K.A AUNTIE RAINBOW!:) Because of you, I've run out of reasons to cry:)

Everyone's falling sick these days, probably because of the bad weathers. The pain in my throat was killing me yesterday, yet went for a game of badminton with Melissa under the scorching sun. How shiok is that? Then we were so bored that we decided to go 'shopping'. Yeah, so we headed for FairPricefinest. LOL. We ALMOST combed the 3 levels but only went home with two YanYan biscuits and a can of bird's nest drink:) We rushed home for the show 天涯侠医. However, I did not really understand the ending -.- Had some nuggets for supper despite the condition of my throat. BUT BUT BUT! I recovered this morning!:D This goes to show that 以毒攻毒 is still effective! >. Went to get presents for Pei Ting and Benita today at IMM with Zhi's company. I'm quite sure Pei Ting will laugh at her presents :D =xxx Oh yeah, Daiso played 'The Reason' just now! >. My dear is coming back to visit! Staying over at my house!:DDD Probably I won't find someone who understands me...

School was quite fun today I guess. Or maybe I only enjoyed GP lesson. Ha. Birthday celebration for YP, same place again:/ But the birthday present we got for her was really nice! And the cookie&cream cake was yummilicious! =xxx Haven't had BK for a long time too. Yumsyums:D Couldn't bring myself to be angry with Yuyuan >. But I guess it's quite hard to get my dear magazine back:( Of all people, the garang guni. Hai. Pictures!:D Haven't taken for a long, long time.

AhWU is nominated for Best Actor Award! :DDDD Although his chances are not high compared to Chen Hanwei, I'm glad he still got in!:DDD The Peak got nominated too! Though it must compete with Metamorphosis >. Voting slips!! Come come come! Angie, Zheng Ning, Xiaobai, Esther, thanks for ren xin-ing to cut your mags! >. Still, I'm going to kill Yuyuan for selling my AhWU mag to the garang guni! >. Man, 2004 till now! 4th year I'm supporting him!:)

Just finished watching Star Awards Prelude 2007. Got my AhWU!~ :D Was sleeping just now so didn't catch the 6.30p.m. news! I woke up at 7p.m. >. So, didn't manage to catch who are nominated for Best Actor Award!:( Though I'm quite sure AhWU won't get in this year:( Zhi is complaining about her AhEN not getting in =xx Alright, so today is hahashang's 大寿！ The PAELOL2007 clique gave him a hand-drawn shirt! Happy birthday dude! Stay away from me when it's not the appropriate time to joke. I don't want to start blasting.

OP was kind of scary, was trembling but Ms Chiew said I sounded confident! =xxx Come to think of it, haven't done a presentation for very long! Max managed to get 我决定 and send it to my phone:) Even if the whole world is against me now, I don't really care! What's more it's not true, in fact I have a whole bunch of people behind me! I'm not going to get swayed this time. 100 over bucks? I will pay. Even if it means not eating during my breaks for months! >.

It's like a resignation letter that bounced back because my superior doesn't understand and doesn't allow me to get out of this sickening working environment. I'm not seeing anything positive in this situation and so, I can only get out of it. Thank you Mrs Gan and Mrs Tey for your precious time and advice although in the end, I still failed. Pissed. Getting impatient. However, I will still continue standing firm and comply with my own decision, my choice. Even if I still fail utimately, at least I have seen what the world has come to and the types of people I ought to beware. Most importantly, I have learnt to protect myself:) Enjoyed the 'Metamorphosis play' with Zi Rui and Zhi Wei. Making me laugh like some mad woman in front of the computer.

I like it when you make me smile but you don't even know it! Is that why I'm so excited every now and then? =xx SMILE:) Yours is enough!

Met group members for PW early this morning. PW's driving me crazy and I can imagine myself screaming at the end of OP. LOL. But tomorrow's only structured rehearsal >. Went to Clementi KFC AGAIN, to be Math tutor AGAIN. Taught SiNi E-Math and OMG, I think I need to brush up first before I even start teaching! >. My probability is a ------ =xxx I love rainy days!:)

Went swimming with Zhi after teaching Teng Yu and Wen Shi HCl and Math at KFC. Ate ice cream!! Cookie and cream. Yummies:p Zhi and I are going a little crazy over AhEN and AhWU RESPECTIVELY:) This is important because it is unlikely that I will go gaga over AhEN =xxx Moreover, I like AhWU first before she likes AhEN! >. See this!

I realised I have more than 10 shows that I want to watch! However, there's simply too little time a day to finish so many things! 24 hours = insufficient! >. Therefore, I have decided that I should finish PW first before anything else:) OP rehearsal's a few days away and I'm not prepared =xx Jia Hui and Melissa were too bored just now that they decided to come over to my place for mahjong. But we played less than 5 games! I'm really vexed because my mum keeps drilling into me all the things about my China trip. I know she's concerned. I'm just tired of hearing everything for the whole day today and in the first place, I'm totally against the trip! She thinks I'm unhappy with everything but I'm just tired! Some pics taken that day when we went cycling!

My heading says it all!:) A very, very fruitful day! -Wasn't really a good start though, with Prof. Yu mistaking Darren and I as an item and he kept harping on it during break. Whatthewhatthewhatthe! >. -Brenda is bai kah today and I offered to help her during CLL lecture. But I stepped on her foot instead! >. -WM with Zhi! That's the zenith of my day!:D Haircut first! Felt so light now! =xx Then went to TS so randomly! But I'm glad I made the random choice because I saw all the shows that I have been looking for for ages! Will be so busy these days because I will be watching the shows as follow: 1. 不老传说 2. 大头绿衣斗僵尸 3. 鹿鼎记 4. 洗冤录 OMG so tempting! Super want to watch the second one because the last time I watched it was 11 years ago! >. -Today's the last day for J2s. Super going to miss Alex and Alicia:) -I know you're trying very hard while I'm turning a blind eye. I hope you will not give up trying and I really will try the next time! -Oh ya! Went lib w...

Ponstar. 13 hours of sleep:) never had that for a long time. Time for some PW. Getting tired of it but it's the last mile, endure!:) Replaying 我决定. Very nice!:) 同个路口同一片天空 发现我已不会舍不得 在终於释怀的那一刻 找回了久违的快乐:) I realised it doesn't really matter how they think. Cos' whatever results you get, it's your own business. People around won't be happy for you. You just have to be happy/unhappy with your results. They will not grieve for you when you're grieving. Everyone will just ask you to be content. 我决定要在天亮之前告别这一段全心全意占有的记忆

坏习惯 维持好几年 每次被你伤了 装作没感觉 在一起久了 什么都随便了 心 就这样慢慢 被忽略 连要回家都看你心情 什么都是你说了才算 夜凉如水我忽然清醒 体贴还不如一些任性 请让我一个人走路回去　我说我可以就是可以 你 真的不用表现担心 就省省力气 我决定不再等你决定　我决定今夜想想自己 我 决定偶尔也试着去 怀疑 是否你的决定我都只能 同意 我不怕 这样的结局 至少 该怎么做 我自己决定 再如何伤心 都最后一次了 天 在破晓之后 最美丽 同个路口同一片天空 发现我已不会舍不得 在终於释怀的那一刻 找回了久违的快乐 请让我一个人走路回去　我说我可以就是可以 你 真的不用表现担心 就省省力气 我决定不再等你决定　我决定不再等待续集 我 决定要在天亮之前 冷静 让所有情节从此冻结在 这里 就让我一个人走路回去　我说我可以就是可以 你 真的不用表现担心 就省省力气 我决定不再等你决定 我决定不再等待续集 我 决定要在天亮之前 告别 这一段全心全意占有的 记忆 A song that Max introduced to me today. I think it's nice:) But not confirmed will be in Fish's album. Still, I have decided to buy her album rather than Jay's =xx 崇拜 is also a nice track! Must listen!:) Met Melissa and she told me the most shocking piece of news on earth though I chose not to believe it, just yet:( I became so abnormal that I ate sushi for the first time in my life. Man, I can't believe it myself. My grades: A A A D E. The D and the E spoiled my report card:(

Today Rui broke my AhWU and me up! >. Went cycling with Zhi, Angie, YC, Fel, Tsu, YP, Rui, AhDong and xiaoZhuang. Was a short 1 hour but enjoyable:) So准 can?！ When we walked past the skyride reception counter, they were playing 'The Reason'! So I cycled today and I heard 'The Reason'! HA! Angie! Don't expect me to emo! :D Well, but still, it's a big rock off my chest. Haven't felt so relaxed for a long time!:) This is my bestie!:) He told me this yesterday: That's really good thing to know. I'm glad you're moving on. Well do properly close that chapter of your life with whatever you have to do and let go. Take care. 2 whole years of complaints and sorrows! He actually listened to everything! I love him to the max!:)

When I'm free, I think. When I think, it hurts. When it hurts, my eyes swim in tears. But this time, I insist on holding back because I no longer want to blink them off in misery. I remember I told Jia Hui, that I probably would keep my changing my url again and again till I think I can totally get you off my mind. I changed my url again. I guess and I hope it's my last:) Although we always knew that each other exists, we never really cared and never knew each other. 2005, We knew each other because of the people we like. We even joked about how to spoil their relationship. Today, they are no longer together. And you no longer like her. Me? I waited for two years. But I have no idea what I was waiting for. Towards the end of the year, I told myself, all will be enough if I have a glance of your back every Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday. I always kept the donation draw ticket that we bought together because you told me that if we did not win, you would draw some...

10 hours spent outside the house. I kind of miss my phone already! Right, realised we are forever doing the same old things at Max's house, today's not an exception too. But he got me hooked to Magicians of love! Oh shucks. But it's better than nothing because I really have nothing much to do other than watching videos! Want to rent from my uncle's VCD shop but feel a little paiseh because I returned his VCDs very late the other time =xx Rahil reminded me! Many people have been sending me friendster invitations lately. HA! I have my reasons for deleting that useless account and I shouldn't be retrieving it anymore I guess! The end of promos just makes me feel different. Other than having more time to enjoy, it gives me more time to emo and brood over Guides stuff too. Should I rejoice or should I feel sad for that? Oh well. Found Sharon's blog like finally！ I miss her! :(

Finally, I can heave a sigh of relief. Yesterday's CSC paper was out to kill us, no more A for any subject this time round. Did craftwork with Zhi. HA! Who would be so crazy like us to do craftwork immediately after promos? Put my SIM card into my old mobile because the new one will be sent for repair today. Found sk's message, like finally! 17 Oct 2006: If in one year's time, you still feel for him, be bold and let him know. It's far too long to neglect again. How I wished these words still matter a lot to me. Going to have loads and tonnes of fun later :D

Right, the 3-hour Math paper was a killer, or was it that I didn't do enough practice? Anything. It's over and I'm trying not to brood over it, considering I left like 6 questions blank. Got to be the first time I'm leaving so many blanks ever since PSLE Math paper. CLL Language paper was fine, especially for the 古文 part! The translation was great because I studied quite hard for that part! :D However, compo was a total diaster. Man, I have actually screwed up 3 compo already. Oh yeah! Dreamt of my AhWU for 3 nights! Unbelievable! It's about the same thing! >. Some pictures taken during Mid Autumn, both in JJ and CT. Pei Ting and Rui! I took this! I think it's a super sweet picture! :D Darlings!:) Funny!