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1. Happy one day old to my merlot baby :) 2. Bidding was fun and funny but irritating. I can't imagine doing that every semester. 3. HAPPY BELATED TO MY 老婆 Esther Ng:) 4. The girls came over yesterday. I have overcome my fear for soccer girls! LOL.

Sometimes I really know. I guess we just want to pretend, because only that will save all of us some unnecessary awkwardness. Many a times I tell myself I must learn to be a more sensitive friend, at least one who spares a thought for my friends' feelings, but my selfishness tends to get the better of me when I'm not conscious of it. Okay, nope, I'm not trying to defend myself by saying that. I know my attitude really sucks, especially when things come up and ruin my mood. I'm truly sorry each time I throw tantrums and start being crude. And I promise I don't like to bottle things up too. The only reasons why I don't like to thrash things out are because I will either make things worse by saying the wrong things and we might all just end up arguing over who is right and wrong. I prefer to sort things out on my own, okay? Please don't say I'm irrational. I don't like it. I guess a person's rationality is differently defined by individuals. To you,...

I guess I'm just lonely...

It's okay you didn't feel the same way. I'm glad to have you as my friend too :)

I know when he's been on your mind That distant look is in your eyes I thought with time you'd realize it's over, over It's not the way I choose to live And something somewhere's got to give As sharing this relationship gets older, older You know I'd fight for you But how can I fight someone who isn't even there I've had the rest of you, now I want the best of you I don't care if that's not fair Cause I want it all or nothing at all There's no where left to fall When you reach the bottom, it's now or never Is it all, or are we just friends Is this how it ends, with a simple telephone call You leave me here, with nothing at all There are times it seems to me I'm sharing you in memories I feel it in my heart but I don't show it, show it And then there's times you look at me As though I'm all that you can see Those times I dont believe its right, I know it, know it Don't make me promises Baby you never did know how to kee...

I have no freaking idea what is wrong with blogger but whatever. I'll just type whatever I can. If you think I've been AP-ing and that's why not blogging, you're wrong. It's with blogger, not me. I don't like Wintermelon :( He made me damn upset today.. Wintermelon: Eh why you like Doraemon ah? Guava: *silence* Wintermelon: You know why he's blue? Guava: uh huh... Wintermelon: He was actually yellow but he got depression and became blue. Then you know why he doesn't have ears? Guava: I know la... Wintermelon: You know the ending? Guava: There's an ending? Wintermelon: The ending is: Daxiong woke up and realised it's all a dream. I don't like Wintermelon :( I feel so emo the whole day after hearing him say that. I wished he didn't tell me. Why are my lovely dreams always shattered. Can't I live in self-denial.. Anyway, pon-ed school on Tuesday and went picnic with Coconut and Starfruit. Coconut and I did cooking and scalded ourselves. ...

Wth.

1. Sick. Flu bug stung me but nope, not H1N1. 2. Brother back from Amsterdam. He didn't get me anything. I'm QUITE affected. 3. Steamboat buffet with Coconut Strawberry Eggplant Longan Watermelon. Starfruit it was good you didn't go. The food was not as good as our 12.80 free facial steamboat. 4. Walked home with Coconut from Sunset Way. Long walk, long talk. Thankyou Coconut. 5. Bugis yesterday. We banged into another car and the car owner happened to be an unreasonable what the hell. Trouble trouble and trouble. My mum and sis were so scared they cried. 6. I bought my sis an IPod Touch that cost me $388. My mum was so touched she cried in the shop. 7. Visited quad cousins but they were not at home. 8. Dinner with Uncle and Auntie at the restaurant we have not dined at for 12 years. I enjoyed my dinner because it was the first time I felt so close to my uncle. 9. Sundays are not good days. Today is exceptionally boring. Tuition, visited Max, bought Toto, shopped for grocer...

Tell me if you care.

With three additional readers comes great responsibility. Cos' it will only mean no usage of vulgarities (not like I use, at least, not anymore!) and obscene content. Okay, to the three nosey girls, I'm sorry to disappoint you if you realised my entries are not that interesting after all. Miss Wu is human too! Please, study ah :) The day almost killed me. I'm worn out, totally. Lunch with Coconut and Starfruit was gossipy as ever. Starfruit had her Banditto while Coconut had her CHEEKY rollers and yep, I had my Zinger with a strand of hair in it. BUT, I did not lugi because I had a new one :) A short game with the other three fruits before Starfruit and I ran off to Clementi like two mad women. (sorry Coconut we ps-ed you!) Then continued with another game with Angie and Zhi.. Oh yes, before I forget. I got my two BLUE DVDs from London!! They cost me a bomb please! Probably more expensive than a bomb... Anyway, thanks to Zhi who helped me with the orders :) Alright, bushed....

Took leave to do medical checkup with the girls. Everything went well except... Ha. I'm fine but I know my mum is the one who's worried even though she keeps asking me not to think so much. Lunch was good :) We bought our wassants!! Yippeeee I wish I can work at Provence then I can eat those lovely pastries everyday. Emo day.. :(

Everything turned out pretty fine in the end, except that I still had to raise my voice towards the end of school. No worries, voice saved. Slight damage but not beyond salvation. Trekking was bad. First half was manageable but we got lost in the forests and ended up feeding the swarms of mossies . Shucks, mission failed. Bused down to Queensway where we met Tsu Hui and all of us were sooo noisy. Nice catching up, though, after all we haven't seen this woman for almost half a year?! Met YuJia on the way back ohmytian. I got to believe we share some kind of fate! Well well but yes people do drift and I guess we are just, weird. I feel so damn screwed today arg. Coconut Starfruit quick meet up I want to tell stories!!! :( I don't really blame anyone cos' I think our friendship isn't really strong to begin with. I will stop defending myself.

The day was slack and good and I liked it. (But tomorrow's so going to suck.) Ice Age 3 with YC and Angie. I love animated movies yay :D Okay, I officially hurt my right arm and that is no good. Bless me tomorrow because tomorrow's going to be a hectic day for me. Jiayou GuoLian... Jiayou..

Maxie's new residence is so hotel-like.. *envious eyes* Totally reminds me of the picture of Eaton Hotel that Coconut showed me! Hai..dream house. So ideal. New house is good because not only is it nice, there is a new kbox set named KPro yay:D Sang for hours ohmytian. Then we had dinner and gossips :) NS is so mafan it takes away the guys from Ohana and we always have missing people during meet-ups sian. P.S: I know a lot of you are jealous of my dangdang blogskin right? Okay I allow you to be jealous :) Bus stop. Songs. IMISSYOU :(

Sooo tired. But that's not what bothers me. I'm broke. That's what bothers me!!! I owe Zhi money I owe Jia Hui money I owe my mum money! Ohmy this is baddddd. Met Coconut for dinner (Starfruit I wished you were there!!) and shared gossips! Hai, you know, some people just don't understand.... :(

Today is so damn shaggggedddd. Woke up at 6.05a.m only to think that I was dreaming and then went back to sleep.... Until Coconut texted at 6.28a.m! Chiong like siao then in the end cabbed down. School was hectic. Especially when you don't really know what to do! A game with YC Zhi and Watermelon. I almost got killed by the several blows! :o YC Zhi and I went on a binge after that (ohmytian all the fats shed are back..). Chicken rice at Block 333 hai we know why. Bandung! Then to Clementi Food Centre for fried carrot cake, and then to the coffee shop for popiah! Then bubble tea at Bubble Queue. Ohmytianness! This week is so disgusting I need sleep so badly.... IMISSYOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOKE HWEE! This sure sucks. Today alone I have sent more than 20 text messages! Ouch. 500 free text messages is a lousy offer, nothing compared to my previous unlimited service! People please don't text me anymore, call me! (If you're lucky, I might answer or call back if I see a missed call from you.) School was fine except that I'm back to teaching lower primary kids who can really drive me nuts. However, today's class was cute! Student: Can I do my own work now? Teacher: You still have 2 more worksheets to go. Student: Go where? *innocent face* The teacher was not me, but I was in class and I really wanted to laugh. Take care people, Wan Ting, Zheng Ning, Jia Hui, Starfruit, Mel and everyone else I haven't been hearing from or seeing! I still care hor!