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Maybe that's my way of running away from problems. Waste of money, yes. Turns people off, yes. Self-degrading, yes. But hey, my good friend Samuel says, "everyone needs to run away once in a while." :) I merely ran away for a while and I've returned. I know for a fact, that I might have problems catching up this couple of days but I don't really give a damn. Sorry, but I'm not trying to sound cool. I really, really don't care, just yet. The doctor gave me a 2-day MC but I guess I'll be going back to school tomorrow. It was quite shocking that the doctor named out all my symptoms and the problems I'm facing. No doubt he's cut out to be a doctor. But is it really good to have someone knowing you better than you knowing yourself? I remember being asked this question during Adam Khoo's workshop on my 16th birthday. I don't know. But I do know that I don't really know who I am. Is that what you call, no sense of identity? Being confronte...

1. Pizza Hut with Rahil, Badd and Shahrul last evening:) It was Rahil's treat:) Pictures up during weekend. 2. Fever. 3. Sorry to everyone/anyone who was trying to put up with my bad temper today. 4. Math test tomorrow and CLL test on Friday and I haven't touched any. 5. CSC seminar was boring. But saw my laopo Stheng, Kevin, TongJing, Jelyn so many people:) 6. Too much chocolate today. 7. I have a friend who wants to listen to my grumbles:) 8. Avoid making a choice is also a choice.

This sucks. I'm lost and I feel painful. It sucks to lose a sense of direction in life. It sucks to feel helpless and no one gives you the right advice because you already know the answer yourself. It sucks to be indecisive.

Miss Leo was so funny la. "Alright, we're going to do a very simple exercise today. It's called the 'fat-burning exercise'...." Well it was actually just about running! Within 20 minutes, any number of rounds but at least 6! Ran with Zhi Wei and felt really relaxed running with her:) QUITE a productive time with Yanli Yangce and Tzelin! Can hardly believe BRENDA IS SCARED OF CATS. Hello friend, don't deny can? You ran so fast at the sight of the 'tiger'! =xx Cat lovers!

Met up with my beloved juniors Zheng Ning Teng Yu and Kevin. Ate at mac and talked about where they are considering to head towards. Arcade! Zheng Ning and Kevin were quite good at driving actually, and SOMEONE got FIRST. LOL. 4 of us played the don't know what game. Didn't quite want to play initially but that Kevin forced me. Well, was quite thrilling though! >. Pictures! Was raining very heavily just now and I missed the bus. Super late when I reached mac. Sat at the bus stop and waited 20 minutes for the bus. I love rainy days. So engrossed in the guys dancing downstairs =xx Love them man:) Many may think my decision is stupid. Well, I haven't come to a final one yet but I can only say I'm helpless.

I have a lovely dedication from my twinnie! Navigate to her blog and you know how honoured I am:D

Mahjong session with Feli Shirl and XiuXiu. I mean, XiuXiu didn't play. Reminisce is good, sometimes. Brings back the hilarious and childish moments that always make me feel I was stupid and foolish and insensible. Sec1, I liked HC. He liked Limin. Sec2, I liked CCJH. He liked Limin. Sec3, I liked KM. He liked Limin. Sec4, I had a crush on kxg. He liked Limin. Plus plus plus Sec2 when I liked CCJH, got into countless misunderstandings with Shirl. Dumb. Currently I'm back to gawking at cute guys and no more likelike kind of thing. Waste of time and kills brain cells. Many people think I deliberately remember the past and keep harping on it. Not that I intentionally want to remember them but I just don't forget. Somehow it seems a little beyond my own control. I wouldn't want those stuff to take up my memory space right -.- Oh yeah and I have been cursing and swearing all my life. I think I kind of became a little better after knowing my bestie. At least less complaints a...

Swam with Angie, Zi Rui, Max, Nan Yang and Xiao Xuan. Today's lunch was again yummilicious:p Chicken rice!:D Studied at the MPH again, but I think we were fooling around much more than we were studying =xx Shall not put up the violent pictures of Max or he'll kill me if he finds out >. Played bubbles inside! =xx But I studied okay! The ever so sweet couple. Spot Max. Ahh. Another lovely Saturday spent:) Feli and gang coming for mahjong in a while!

Pictures of yesterday's gluttinous balls first:D Mine! Redbean! Yam! Peanut!:DD Have been a bad girl:( Skipped H3 and went to WM with Zhi Wei. Had a haircut and went around spending money. I had a very expensive lunch okay! I ordered cai tau gui (carrot cake) initially and the auntie came telling me 煤气没有了. I told her forget about my order then. Went to the timsum stall to get 3 dollars worth of timsum and then Zhi Wei ran to me... Auntie跟你炒了. Win liao lor. Another 3 bucks for me. Couldn't finish all and had to get Zhi Wei to help me settle. My lunch cost 6 dollars!! Bought Bee Teng and Nelson's birthday presents! And saw Brenda and Tzer Jing at the bus interchange. This is funny. Me: Aye? Tzer Jing, 为什么你一个人啊？ Tzer Jing: Orh. 不懂 leh. 走着走着就一个人了 lor. LOL! Oh yeah, CLL test was a gone case but I'm expecting the worst already. Did this and wanted to put as my blog picture but couldn't seem to resize it. Oh well.

Was a very tiring day, though, I didn't doze off in any lesson. Zhi Wei and I were sinfully drawing on our hands and legs during Math lecture and not listening to Mrs Chan >. Congrats to everyone who has taken his/her results. Whatever score that is, I think you've done well and deserve an applause:) Especially Zheng Ning and Teng Yu, I'm proud of you:) Melissa has a sudden craving for 汤圆 after watching a Channel 8 variety show last night and so, she asked me to go and eat with her. Met her today at Clementi and we had 4 yummy 汤圆 each. Pictures shall be up tomorrow because my phone is charging right now. Don't you think your apology came a little too late? I don't quite believe in 'Better late than never' all the time. You've forgotten and that's that. A stiff apology is a second insult. The injured party doesn't want to be compensated, but wants to be healed because she has been hurt. Your apology nearly made me break down. And I hate apologi...

Firstly again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIONA LIM:D HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAI FUN:D HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAUDIA:D All are my OG mates:D As the heading suggests, we had spring cleaning today! I love spring cleaning, so fun:D I was washing the rag in the toilet and Mengli tried to steal my job! She told me "Hey your cutecute class!" then she ran off to class to clean the whiteboard when it was supposed to be my job! >. In the end, Miss Chiew said I was too short to do that so she told me to do something else! Grr. Cleaned the windows with Zhi Wei Huimin Wen Ting and Amelia. So funny can. Finished cleaning already but still kept cleaning, for the sake of cleaning/killing time. Ha. Had fun:) :o In case she's not distinguishable, yeah, that's 陈思桦同学! Release of O's results tomorrow! So anxious! I don't even know why I'm anxious >. Best of luck to Sheena, Kexian, Shirleen, Feli, XiuXiu, Nic, SiNi, Kevin, Zheng Ning, Teng Yu, Paul, Jason, Hui Xin, Wen Shi, Yen Sze, Wei Wen, Leon,...

Morning assembly venue has been changed to the old/new parade square! Gosh, I was frantically looking for my class this morning! Couldn't see the Bannister flag till I saw Xiaoqi and she pointed to me >. Our class is just right in front of the podium can! Ohmy. Belated birthday present from Huimin. Doraemon and Mickey Mouse handphone accessories. Oh I love Doraemon and Mickey:D Early this morning Zhi Wei gave me something that shocked/surprised me =xx I know everyone else will be jealous but too bad, it's only for me:D Look what's written on the CD! So sweet:) She decided she should help her AhEN 打广告 too. Well I kind of expected that:/ Yep it's from her!! Alright and I went back to CT, like again? Sense of familiarity and unfamiliarity. Contradicting I know. But yes, these are unutterable moments that cannot be articulated with words. I can't bring myself to deny the fact that I'm slowly losing any passion I used to have for guiding. Met Sheena:) The girl who...