past.

did not study much, did not play much. not quite a good game today with mel , yinghao and xiaozhuang . but the game started off with a hit on zhuangwei 's head! so, as usual, laughed like some mad people. this time was worse, because i laughed till i dropped to the ground. haha! life has left me so speechless. i can't win life, it's too powerful, i can't outtalk.

the song just keeps ringing in my head. we weren't supposed to share many memories, but i can't stop thinking about times we shared. anyone else can tell me how bad you are, but i never really got them. perhaps the little time we ever spent together, as friends, were when you were good. i want to forget you and i don't want to. this isn't really contradicting, is it? it shouldn't be, since my heart told me that. love hurts. let the person who makes you think love hurts be x . look at the different scenarios. eq 1: you are super close to x but you couldn't tell x that you love x = hurt eq 2: you told x that you love x and you start avoiding x or x avoids you = hurt eq 3: you seldom talk to x and can only look at x from a distance = hurt eq 4: x doesn't know you love x and you wished you could tell x that = hurt eq 5: x is so near yet so far = hurt eq 6: you don't often get to see x and you start reminiscing the good times = hurt eq 7: ...

Gotta make a little room for me to breathe, got the feeling that you're about to pull me in too deep. The more i try to walk away, the harder it gets to believe that i don' t need you. You've got me tempted by what's forbidden. How can you be so sweet but so unforgiving. And i'm emotionally drained. Am i too gone to be saved, but i dont want it any other way. don't fantasize too much, it's bad for health. ha. man, really regretted not going to blue 's concert. 24o9o4. super wasted thing on earth. ha. time for me to get out of the tornado . no more 'just pass' alright? aim A2 . got to overcome this barrier and i must, i will. no more low A1 okay? make it at least 90 . mug hard guolian, you gotta mug hard.

Earth,wind, water and fire seems like we've lost our desire to fight for what we know is right Lost in our way of life Colours and fountains and mountains and trees Take just a second to stop and to think God was an atrist painted pictures to see look how beautiful life can be spent hours on videos. sinful. but i finally found blue at brits award, after one year. goodness. yeah. tomorrow's doom's day for me.

Every breath you take, and every move you make Every bond you break, every step you take I'll be watching you Every single day, and every word you say Every game you play, every night you stay I'll be watching you Can't you see, you belong to me How my poor heart aches with every breath you take Every move you make, every vow you break Every bond you break, every smile you fake I'll be watching you Since you've been gone, I been lost without a trace I dream at night, I can only see your face I look around, but it's you I can't replace I feel so cold, and I long for your embrace I keep crying baby, baby, please nicest song. nicest tune. oh well. spent like 7.5 hours with mel , yinghao and zhuangwei . gamed. mentally and physically. laughed non stop. the playground is a wonderful place(: i never knew that whatever i did, i had a motive. it was all wishful thinking on my part. to you, i'm probably forever acting noble, thinking of means and ways to sow di...

she wouldnt be so nice one.arent u happy dat she isnt dat nice to me? biang. am i that evil to you? not reali cos i noe wats ur motive what is it? you noe it, i noe it. we all noe it. still need to say ?

i can't drain my tears. they won't come out. i just want peace. think my brother's going to hate me for life.

lunched with ley , rhl , stheng , sarch and wee at imm mac. laughed like mad people =xx neoprints at je(: everything would be great if i had entered that arcade to try out the machine. ha movie at sther 's house. mel almost used up the whole box of tissue paper i think. ha. not a bad day spent. take care my dear friend. yes you. YOU HAVE ME. it bled again.

terms exams have finally ended. i'm glad the last paper ended well. RELATIVELY easy. may not pass though! heh. but a-maths p2 was kinda disastrous =xx i can only clasp my palms and pray that i pass all subjects. ha. oh ya. breakfast with novday on monday, four-fifth of it, to be exact. but i enjoyed(: and wished it'd be like this every monday. wanted to rush home to sleep my fill after the last paper. but kena dragged to jp. here i am, with a bad bad bad headache. ever since i said that, everything became worse.

happy birthday tecksing . the birthdays novday celebrated. 15/11, 28/11, 23/12, 06/01, _____ if there was one more, it would be complete. but things are meant to be left incomplete. marcho5, i knew you. ever since the day i knew you, you've been calling me 'emo', till today. haha. o1o7o5, i gave you a birthday present. we chatted at the playground while celebrating hl's birthday. o7o7o5, we had a meeting at the stone table about the carnival. ha. i remember i was happy when mrs. tan suggested to combine with your class. o8o7o5, i asked myself if i was just your 'venting' machine. 11o7o5, i wished you would talk to me. 15o7o5, we finally talked after 7 days(: 16o7o5, went to xian 's bbq and you were there too, but we didn't talk a single bit. 20o7o5, you said bye to me. 22o7o5, we did not talk for 7 days. 29o7o5, 068199 ): the lucky draw ticket we bought together did not win. o5o8o5, i deleted all the messages. o8o8o5, yiluxiangbei . i cried. ha. o9o8o5...

Caterpillar: How do you become a butterfly? Butterfly: You have to be willing to die. Caterpillar: Die? Butterfly: Well, it feels like you're dying. But it really turns out to be a transformation to something better. if that explains what i feel, then i'm willing to die . till i'm healed again, rediscovered my strengths, perhaps those bitter blues will be gone. it takes far less courage to kill yourself than it takes to make yourself wake up one more time. how true is that? i'm broken and faded but i just need the courage to wake myself up. time is an equal opportunity employer. each human being has exactly the same number of hours and minutes every day. rich people can't buy more hours. scientists can't invent new minutes. and you can't save time to spend it on another day. even so, time is amazingly fair and forgiving. for no matter how much time you've wasted in the past, you still have an entire tomorrow. what if i die tomorrow? then i would have was...

the feeling just ain't right for me whenever i reach home early. ha. lately the memories are back to haunt me. or were they always? other than the guiding days, it's just s.h.e , novday . have we really put an end to it? the friendship? the birthdays we have celebrated together? the good food we ate? the places we went? the memories we shared? jiahui lost that handphone pouch. "i'm sad because i know i will never get a gift from both of them together again." it saddens me as well. it's just equivalent to, i know 3 of us or 5 of us will never go out together anymore. no more s.h.e , no more novday . i don't know how true others think this is. i really miss those days. mel said, "memories are enough to last a lifetime." i don't agree. i never did. every memory that stays tells me the past has become history. it cannot never be held in my hands anymore. the memories used to make me a happier person. but now, everything contradicts. i was told t...

back from jogging. shiokness. it's totally great to perspire. at least it's better to let water come out as perspiration than tears, ain't it? i cried for you, i can't believe.