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happy birthday tecksing.

the birthdays novday celebrated.
15/11, 28/11, 23/12, 06/01, _____

if there was one more, it would be complete.
but things are meant to be left incomplete.



marcho5, i knew you.
ever since the day i knew you, you've been calling me 'emo', till today. haha.

o1o7o5, i gave you a birthday present. we chatted at the playground while celebrating hl's birthday.
o7o7o5, we had a meeting at the stone table about the carnival. ha. i remember i was happy when mrs. tan suggested to combine with your class.
o8o7o5, i asked myself if i was just your 'venting' machine.
11o7o5, i wished you would talk to me.
15o7o5, we finally talked after 7 days(:
16o7o5, went to xian's bbq and you were there too, but we didn't talk a single bit.
20o7o5, you said bye to me.
22o7o5, we did not talk for 7 days.
29o7o5, 068199 ): the lucky draw ticket we bought together did not win.
o5o8o5, i deleted all the messages.
o8o8o5, yiluxiangbei. i cried. ha.
o9o8o5, 10th day not talking.
1oo8o5, 11th day.
11o8o5, 12th day.
12o8o5, 13th day.
13o8o5, 14th day. goodness. i thought i almost died.
14o8o5, 15th day already. i really missed those days
17o8o5, 18th day. i wished all were like in the past, including times when you told me about her.
19o8o5, listened to yiluxiangbei.
2oo8o5, steamboat at marina to celebrate sther's birthday. finally talked(:
23o8o5, )':
25o8o5, i told myself 'i hate you'.
28o8o5, yiluxiangbei was first on the chart board on 93.3!(:
17o9o6, i asked myself though i wanted to ask you instead, 'talk to me, would you?'.
18o9o5, i told myself again, 'i hate you'.
o71oo5, i heard that you were fine. phew.
241oo5, i said to myself, 'you don't mean a thing to me after all'.
o511o5, we talked(:
2411o5, i realised it ain't always true when you say you don't love someone anymore.
o8o1o6, i lied. it was self-deception.
12o1o6, a sms i received that read 'happy birthday!' though i know peisin dropped the hint.
28o1o6, steamboat at sther's house. you called me 'girl'. haha.
3oo1o6, i listened to yiluxiangbei after so long.
o2o2o6, i told myself that a glance every morning would be enough.
14o2o6, i tried to let go of what meant something to me and, ouch. i felt painful.
26o2o6, i longed for a conversation not more than 10 minutes and on the same day, we talked(:
27o2o6, you smsed me and told me to smile.
o2o3o6, you told me you won't forgive me till i talked to you face to face. haha.
15o3o6, sk asked me, "does it hurt to love him?" i didn't answer. but i went home and got it.
18o3o6, missed the UG camp days, when we practically worked together all the time.
3oo3o6, yiluxiangbei, again.
31o3o6, we talked(:
o7o4o6, smsed(:
22o4o6, speech day. 3 photos, same as last year. and i called you just to say 'bye'. haha. how lame.
23o4o6, your msn was, "it tear my heart to see her leave." you must really love her. ha.
o6o5o6, pain. but i told myself it was not possible for me to hang on that long.
19o5o6, waited for 2 hours just to say bye. but you said hi first(:
27o5o6, i knew that was a limit.
31o5o6, yiluxiangbei.
o2o6o6, i realised, i can't explain why my heart chose to love who it loved.
o3o6o6, there ain't really a difference between letting go and not letting go.
o8o6o6, june hols was a torture. but i thought another 2 weeks more my feelings would fade.
o9o6o6, walked past without even lifting my head. like only 5cm away. haha.
28o6o6, so shocked that you wished me good luck for my english paper.
3oo6o6, my heart shattered when i walked off after passing you the card. )':
010706, stayed up to wish you but you didn't reply. well, at least we chatted over msn(:
11o7o6, you smiled at me. but just 2 hours later, you pretended you never saw me and walked past me.
13o7o6, you said hi.
15o7o6, it's the last thing i can do. i will give up on all wishful thoughts. i can only try, to throw all my memories away.

don't leave me with anything else that reminds me of you.

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