past.

It's a happy leap, I should think. A significant and quite memorable one too. Didn't get to touch the computer last night. Probably have forgotten certain details. I think I did the craziest things. Or at least, things I usually won't do. I skipped second half of lecture and ran out of LT with Zhi. (Suspected was seen, but I can only say regret for the mistake I committed can be tempered by time.) I jay-walked. Man, did I really? I ran after a bus, with all my might in the hope of reaching the theatre in time. I held my bladder and insisted on buying tickets first. I kind of made my eyes swim in tears at the KS' scenes. I told him I got over him, in his face, and didn't feel much about it. I succeeded, the most confirmed answer this time round. I'm glad we're back at where we started, although I can somehow foresee that we'll always remain at that level. I don't quite know if I was watching the movie attentively. Come to think of it, I think I was on...

I died a second time and there are more to come.

If I were to put my mood on a scale of 1-10 right now, it will be 6. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MRS JOYCE TAN! She replied and thanked me for being thoughtful. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAOXUN! This idiot didn't even bother to reply. Oh well. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIYING!:D Hello, I don't usually highlight my words in pink. You're so honoured. Please tell me you are even if you're not. Thank you. I'm terribly sorry I didn't pass the present to you personally. Heard from Ben that everyone was questioning my sincerity! I'm feeling really bad now but it was because the crowd there was too overwhelming, especially Jasmine was there. Man. I can't believe I typed this. See, for you I spoke the truth. Friday's CLL test has been postponed. One down. Hurray. Intuition told me AhWU would appear in this week's i. Bought, and bingo. Double hurray. Right, if I were to put my mood on a scale of 1-10 again, it will be -1. I failed my first CLL test, I think. Wen Qin was betting I would be...

That was the price of my visit to the doctor. Man, it was such a long wait and almost got me really impatient. 38.3 degree celcius due to infection of my throat. For once I didn't ask for an MC but the doctor suggested I should take one. I know why. 5 different types of Cadbury roses at Max's and bak gut teh for dinner on Saturday. Laksa for breakfast, nice hot chilli and shark's fins with a pinch of fatal pepper at Esther's yesterday. I think I almost died. Been a long time since I fell this ill. More to catch up after today. Time should take a rest like I do. Edits(3.07p.m): Had fun with 6 ladies yesterday. Miss the great days. Yet, just felt different because one was missing. I always thought we finally got to meet up but it was just not the same anymore. Maybe in time to come, it'll just remain like this. But we had our enjoyable and childish games anyway. Loved. I know there's still a fine line between us. About friends only demanding for equality, it's...

For the first time I didn't want to win in a competition. Didn't see the thrill of entering the semi-finals. Nevertheless, it was quite a nice experience at NUS with Yanli, Yiping, Yun Fun, Yiting, Naiqi, Xinyu and Mingxuan. And yes, Yun Fan has received the best performer award which was kind of within our expectations. Finally went to swim with Zhi again after 3 weeks. This time, in the afternoon. The sun rays were so enticing I couldn't help but jumped out of the waters and exclaimed, "太阳出来了，我们好好珍惜吧！" The couple beside us heard and probably thought I was nuts and kept laughing. Maybe I was really a little out of my mind at that moment. The making of The Leap Years. I was so darn right. AhWU is playing the role of K.S and I really love this character. Oh, and that half an hour came with 20 over pieces of nuggets, of which I think I ate nearly 10 or more, and a drink. Lovely Max. Week 9 Monday - CSC test Tuesday - GP test Thursday - Math test Friday - CLL test/re...

I think I had the best morning ever in JJ today. This should be one of the few pathetic reasons why I'm still staying in this school. And I hope, I can have a morning like this everyday, or at least, every Monday to Friday. Occasionally sets me thinking if that's our routine. It's become a habitual kind of thing for me that I often feel uneasy when it doesn't take place. Yet, I promise I will refrain, because I'll never want my path to intersect with hers, in an explosion of hostile rivalry. Most of all, I don't see myself as being capable enough to bear the consequences of having those cliches become stark realities. You always have to choose between who to be selfish to. Made a remark yesterday that really upset Zhi. She explained and I really appreciate that. I'm truly sorry for that, Zhi. Thanks for telling me. You know I really don't mean it. There's a place I want to go to, but I don't know where. There's a person I want to meet, but I ...

A replay of a movie made four years ago, but with a change in the ending. This was the second chance offered by Fate which had emerged, after the years of sheepish hiding, to make restitution. The ways of Fate in the service of this awesome thing called love were surely mysterious. She had read a story, as a child, of a little girl who wept over a sad ending in her story-book. A fairy appeared with a pair of scissors. "Cut it out," said the fairy. "But that will ruin my book!" said the little girl, who had got it for her birthday. "No, it won't," said the fairy and proceeded to help the little girl cut out the sad ending. "Throw it away, since it makes you unahppy," said the fairy and the little girl obeyed and threw it away. "Now read the story again," said the fairy, and the little girl was astonished to see a new page where the old one had been cut off, containing exactly the ending she wanted. Could be numbness, could be because...

Then can I be ugly? I think I already am. I seriously think you have a screw loose up there. Unreasonable, and an irritant that makes me hate school. But I'm going to produce good results no matter what and it shall never be your credits. Craving for Coke is back. Maybe it has helped a lot in terms of extinguishing the sprawling fire in me. I've held back for so long and doesn't kill to hold back till my A's are over and till I get out of this (I think you can say it's bloody) school. Things on a happier note, I've borrowed "A Leap Of Love" like finally and I'm already engrossed in it. Bought a pair of shorts at a sale with Zhi just now and have satisfied my want. I miss Mrs Gan and she said I can pay her a visit this week. Great! Zhi has promised to go with me to see AhWU tomorrow but I debated with myself and thought I shouldn't be so selfish. Wasting my own time on these is bad enough, wasting Zhi's time on these when she can use the tim...

Always wanted to make this a private one but was not courageous enough to do so. Finally Darling locked it up and gave me the idea to follow suit. My readers are always the same old few. Yet, there's this ridiculous reason why I made up my mind to lock it. But then again, considering my fickle-minded and indecisive nature, probably I will unlock it some time soon. I don't know what's the root of the problem, even till today. The problem has persisted for months but I can't see the cause behind it. I used to think it was a matter of getting used but I know I can't bring myself to adapt. I would say it's tolerance and sometimes it exceeds my limit. In fact, very often it gets on my nerves. I blame myself for being so petty, so childish, but I really can't help it. Maybe because I seriously suck at interpretations. Edits(2.26pm): I deleted the game I kept playing in my phone. I deleted my com's solitaire. I'm getting rid of all sorts of distractions. I ...

A sentence we kept using today to describe the 'lamp posts' of the day >. Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERALDINE, QIU YI AND BRYAN!:D Visited Mrs Ong at her shop. Forgot to take a picture with her!:( Missed her so much! Xiaobai went for the birthday celebration for Zhi and Fel!:o She told me she enjoyed okay!! Hmmm, Zhi said the cake tasted alright. But I still think it was a flop:( Initially. When it reached there..... Haven't had such a great laugh for so long! Today I laughed it out and felt super great:D Zi Rui and Zhuang Wei were my jokers and they were superb at amusing me! Zi Rui commented that my cake was NOT BAD. His comments are always precious to me! Because he's always so picky >. Wanted a group picture very badly but we couldn't find anyone to take for us. Finally, Yuyuan managed to pluck up his courage and approach a sweet couple who took two pictures for us:D Conferenced on the phone and Max Angie were causing me so much cramps because they kept makin...

Brenda decided to give me a shocking(AGAIN) Valentine's but didn't manage to. Queuing up for food after PC lesson and here came Brenda. "Hey, I gave Jas the photo and told her it was from you. So if she comes to thank you later, just pretend it was you who developed and gave her okay?" "Huh..." Ate porridge but couldn't finish even half a bowl because was too anxious about Jasmine coming over to thank me. Finally, she came. Before she opened her mouth, I spoke first. "Hey Jasmine. I tell you hor, I didn't develop the picture. Brenda did it to sabo me. Anyway, this is for you (passes her a lollipop) and please help me scold Brenda. Thank you!" Phew. After saying what I had to, I realised I shouldn't use the word 'sabo'. But she didn't realise my choice of words I guess =xx Man, for the first time my heart didn't race when I was talking to her! Made this for my friends! From YC, 彩虹阿姨, Yan Hong, Yu Han, stewpig, Mengli, Wen...

Got scolded by Miss Chiew 3 times in a day for TALKING, rather, for replying. Others asked questions, I answered, caught, scolded. Felt so kindergarden-like. "I don't want to hear you talking again okay?" Nods. -.- NO WORRIES MENGLI. I WON'T BLAME YOU:D Man, I think there's a serious problem with my notes! So many people failed:/ Guilt overwhelms me. A strangled smile fell from your face It kills me that I hurt you this way The worst part is that I didn't even know Now there's a million reasons for you to go But if you can find a reason to stay I'll do whatever it takes To turn this around I know what's at stake I know that I've let you down And if you give me a chance Believe that I can change I'll keep us together Whatever it takes She said if we're gonna make this work You gotta let me inside even though it hurts Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see She said like it or not it's the way it's gotta be You gotta lo...

Twinnie came to visit me and we played mahjong! She said my mum has slimmed down a lot and my mum is super happy now >. I have tonnes of homework waiting for me. Jialat. CSC Proposal Math assignment GP test tomorrow ohmyohmyohmy.... Twinnie can draw!

Long day out and I'm really worn out. Met Tecky at Clementi to go to Max's. I can't remember how many rounds of mahjong I won but anyway, it was A LOT and Max was really going mad already! LOL! HOWEVER, there's always a cloud on the horizon >. Second last round, Max 砰砰胡+清一色. Supposed to be $25.60 but because of some calculation error here and there, we only paid him $12.80 each =xxx Fel came and we played blackjack. Lost a lot again -.- 老婆's house next. Finally saw her mum! So young can?! BLACKJACK again and LOST AGAIN. Left with a few cents now. Must be because I multi-tasked. Blackjack and mahjong at the same time and so God of Fortune decided I shouldn't win too much >. Had a lot of pictures taken. Loads of random pictures in the recreational room thanks to Vanessa's friend. LOL. KFC treat from 老婆's parents. Yummies:D I shall quit gambling:) And I'm officially sick. Too much CNY snacks >. 老婆's room! Very cosy:) Recreational room! More...

My house has turned into a gambling den today. Lost EVERY SINGLE CENT I had initially. Man. Times flies (again). My cousins are all married and 2 with kids. Saw baby cousin JunYing today:) My second cousin doesn't look like David Tao anymore:/ He's married and has become fatter? =xx Had fun with my quadruplets cousins too!:) More fun tomorrow:D Actually they really hate to take pics. Unhealthy. Mother and newborn baby cousin JunYing:)