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many mosquito bites.. i guess. i muz b getting stronger. each day. dunno if we are still frenz. but even if we arent. i m glad. i aint liking you more. my feelings for you. arent getting stronger. ++ many mosquito bites ++ woke up at 8.21 in e morning and started washing up and den changed. den met hui ling outside 7 eleven in central. we took bus 282 to ginza. cos i wan photocopy my survey forms. tot e shop wouldnt b opened so early. so we went around looking at handphones. though shops werent opened too. den we sat down. talked rubbish. and den went to check if e shop has opened. lol. long ago opened le lo. so i photocopied 30 copies of e survey form. and den we called limin to ask when she wud b playing bball. she said 12!! lol. really regretted meeting hui ling so early. dumb me! lol. so we went to e west coast cc. went to e study area to 'analyse' our survey forms. hui ling did 4 pieces for me=x. oh man. lol. gotta thank her. geez. so we waited till bout 11.35 den we walke...

correct decision? correct choice? if loving you was a challenge. i wouldnt take up tis challenge. it seems too tough. too tough for me. i m contented. seeing you happy. seeing you grin. seeing you smile all e time. your laughter warms my heart. just you only. my happiness. keep smiling. ++ correct decision? correct choice? ++ if i hv chosen to go and play bball with them. i wouldnt b here using e com rite now. i wud b standing in e middle of e court. getting into pple's way again. lol=x. wateva. but anw v scared kexian later not suang cos i said i wud b going but in e end still din go. lol=x. yesterday. or was it e day before? arh wateva. tat zcx asked if i din wan to go and play with them cos he wud b dere. i was almost too stunned. too shocked tat he wud ask tat. i was speechless. den he tol me he heard it from kexian. lol=x. i dunno. no idea. dunno if i shud blame her for talking rubbish and some crap. or shud i thank her for letting him know e truth and understand how i feel be...

quadruplets cousins in life. dere are ups and downs. b willing to make mistakes. b willing to try out some things. b willing to accept tat as you try out new things. dere will b some untidiness. dere will b some imperfection. mistakes. and mishaps. =] ++ quadruplets cousins ++ my cousins just went home. they are quadruplets. two boys two girls. e four respective names are xu - han, ting, min and ang. v cute!! heh=x. though they are already five years old. but they look so small sized and cute and short. heh. i bet i was taller den them at their age. geez=x. they used to cry and scream when they c my siblings and i. but now. they wud even play with us. soo happy. geez=]. however. they always lyk to win and dun really lyk to "admit defeat". wateva games they play. they expect to win all e time. but of cos. being e third oldest sis of theirs, i wud always give in to them. geez=]. tis morn just emailed e nie teacher to let him view our survey. hoped he approved asap den i can dis...

so damn pek cek it has been a long time. since you last sms me. but i felt better. cos i know i wouldnt. wouldnt fall into e pit anymore. at least if i were to fall into it. e pit isnt getting deeper. no longer getting deeper. i know. we're just frenz. just frenz. and you are. my good fren. =] ++ so damn pek cek ++ now tat everyone at home has gone out for supper at west coast and i am left at home with my sis and maid. i m glad i din go out. or i wouldnt hv e chance to use e com rite now. so damn pek cek. i only wanted to use e com for a while to edit my survey form den my tat bro kept arguing with me. just for e use of e com. arg!!! but anw. yiwen and i finished e survey le. finally! haiz. but she going back to taiwan soon. and i hv to do e remaining stuff. just cos e other two members of e group arent contributing enough. but we were afraid of reprimanding them. so scared they not suang den dun wan to do a single thing. haiz. wateva. now e most impt thing is to let pple do my su...

nicey pics.. i always hoped. you're e one. dere with me. sharing my brightest moments. however. tat was only a desire. a simple desire. which dun hv to b fulfilled. i wan us to b frenz. just frenz. ++ nicey pics.. ++ woke up at 10.14 in e morning n den jeremy sms me. asking bout a pretty girl she saw at e mdm fong retirement dinner last nite. but i din go. lol=x. anw. after having breakfast. used e com till now. just checked my mail an hour ago. shawn sent me two similar e-cards apologising to me cos he told hc i showed limin his msn account. lol=x. i din blame him lahz. but he kept thinking tat i was angry and kept apologising. anw. apology accepted. though he did nothing wrong. heh=xx. just uploaded some new pics. jay's and edison's. all v nice. geez=]. got jay's ones from tis v nice webby. really v nice. geez=]. http://www.tvseriesfans.com/forums/showthread/t-4608.html but forgot to copy down edison's. geez=]. but nvm de. almost e same mahz. heh=xx. another short...

let e music heal your soul.. y? y is tis so? y is it tat even my best fren. b such a wet blanket. when i m already down. on another side. y did my good fren. reveal a secret. tat shud b kept? dere is no true love. but is dere no true frenz as well? i seem to b lost. i seem to b out of place. tis world is so dark. who wud brighten up tis place? and let me recognise e pple? e pple who are real and true? ++ let e music heal your soul.. ++ morning woke up at 10.14 and wrote names on some of my new books. at 11am. switched on e tv and watched tat my fair princess. 11.37am. had mee goreng for "breakfast". den after tat continued to watch tv. in e afternoon. dad's frenz came. lunch was chicken rice. but i was busy using e com so i din eat. now. 3.06pm. sitting in front of e com. staring into e com screen. eating chicken rice. which is my lunch. mood swings again? mayb. perhaps. -shrugs- short entry today. mayb wud write more in e evening or at nite. din enjoy my lunch. when one ...

dark clouds gathering.. mayb. perhaps. you shud tell me. we are just frenz. though i know tat. but i wan to hear it from you. i guess i wud not give up. and i dun hv to give up. cos in e first place i haven pinned any hopes. but let me know. we are frenz. are we? ++ dark clouds gathering.. ++ woke up at 7.06 in e morning and got changed into my uniform. or i min e shirt only. skirt was v crumpled. tried to look for another one. but couldnt find it at all. guess it was missing. so told my maid to iron e crumpled one. den when i was all ready. opened door n got ready to walk to school. yiwen so !@#$%^&* one. lol=x. at tat time den sms to tell me rmb to bring shi ji tat chinese book.so i went back to my house. n rmb tat e book was in my box. which was gonna b moved to e new house soon. so i had a hard time looking for e book n den rushed to school. den on my way dere. saw a big dog. tat dumb dog seemed to b following me or something. of cos. i was scared. lol=x. so i walked at e grass...

can i not b strong? ='( can i not appear to b strong all e time? today just went back to nhps again..e concert was okie..but din really enjoyed it....after tat went to macs with furball n biqing..but i only ate furball's fries..n nothing much..den waited for yiwen.. yiwen n i made our way to limin's house..or shall i say..limin took us to her house when we reached e bus stop..we were meddling bout with e laptop..den sudd..dunno wat happened..e laptop went crazy..n we couldnt do anymore..so we went downstairs..played captain's ball or is it netball or is it bball..watever..i din enjoy e game at all..not at all..how i enjoy a game lyk tat when ...... haiz..lotsa pple understand..i was lyk an obvious extra person standing in e middle of e court..getting into pple's way..so darn extra.. den finally went home..today..msg alot of pple..shuyi..ernie..siti..n dunno who else..shuyi n ernie n siti were pple trying to cheer me up..which was to no avail..on msn..esther meiz n l...

at yuyuan's house.. today at 12++ just went to nhps..with shaun shentong jo lys..din really enjoy in fact..just talked to mrs hoh a.k.a ms yin..mrs kee n zhang lao shi..after tat met bj lyn n huiling at macs..den took bus 173 to yuyuan's house..on e surface is to go dere do project..but i guessed we played more den we did..lol..we reached dere n had beehoon for lunch..after tat went to explore his house..okie..mayb not me ba..is them lo..cos is their first time at yuyuan's house ma..anw..we went into yuyuan's room and started with stuff..i on e cd player n put in e jay cd..den they started playing prank calls..well i was involved as well=x..we called many pple..limin..zirui..shirley..who else ah??..iya cant rmb la..anw..after tat started doing a bit..den too sian..cos yuyuan went for his tuition..wont b back so soon..den they ate ice cream den talked cock a little..lol..n after tat went up again..haiz..before tat..they saw a spider on yuyuan's bed..all of them screa...

sunday++monday. [heart's breaking..] today..went to work at uncle's office again..but tis time went with da jie n er mei guoyi..guoyi played truant=x..geez..lol..but today nothing much to do at e office..so went off early..wanted to go to jurong to eat..but mum dun allow..so din go..wanted to go to westmall oso.. mum oso dun allow..so took bus 985 to bukit batok to take train.. kaoz man..tat bus journey was a long one..fell asleep on e bus siarh..den finally took train to jurong east..n den take bus again..tis time took bus 97 back home..wah..i v hungry siarh..got da jie help me go downstairs buy gardenir bread n i ate four pieces of them.. with nutella spread..geez=p..den after tat took shower..oh cool.. lol.. after tat muz plan tmr's prog le..tmr going back to nhps with shaun they all n after tat need to go to yuyuan house do cme project.. hopefully we can finish by tmr or i die of overload manz..oh wateva it is la..hope tmr yuyuan prepare a feast for me..heh=x.. today sa...

rather late in e nite.. hm..is kinda late in e nite now..feeling kinda sian..nothing to do..just finished revising e sec1 chinese textbook..i min..some chapters..lots more to finish..taking a break now..wanted to hv a cup of hot milo and some biscuits for supper..but looking at my size again..guess i better b on a diet..haha.. on many occasions..i was hoping to c at least "1 message received" on my fone..cos my fone's gonna b confiscated soon..lyk lyn..so i hope i can hv pple sms-ing me to greet me..definitely not to ask me stuff n wateva..i know i m lyk wat medwin said..DEMANDING..lol..m i?.. perhaps?..i dun seem to know myself well enough..all i know is tat i aint tat simple=x..sometimes weird..or is it unique?..haha..n kinda up to mischief all e time??..lol..pple who know me well will know wat i m always up to..i just dunno myself well..anw..back to e previous topic..it has been a long time since someone ever sent me a msg to ask how i hv been..bout a month ago..huixia...

15 nov 2002..~memories.. woke up at 9.30++...n immediately on my fone n sms jiahui to wish her happy bdae..how could i ever forget my mei's bdae??..lol..she was happy..i said i was sorry for not preparing any bdae prezzies for her n she understood..phew~..when she comes online at 10++..i greet her again..wat a joke!..she said she wan to buy blue's album for me as bdae prezzie next yr..another 57 days..haha..but i rejected it..din wan her to waste money..scurri everyone knows i lyk blue n desire e blue's new album den all buy for me..den wouldnt i hv lotsae same original copies?..lol..anw..i hope i could throw a small party at my new house next yr..den can invite pple to my house..hope so la..i wud hv lotsa pple to invite by den..lol.. just uploaded some new pics..today is 15nov03..one year ago..which is last yr..last yr's today..i wud b in school..getting ready for e p6 graduation ceremony..i really missed it..tat day was a memorable one..each p6 cls were to go up to st...

just recovered..lol.. phew~..just recovered..my flu is gone..mayb still a little..lol..crap.. haha..mayb i m fine now..so e mood is better oso..geez..was still feeling a little fed up and angry tis morn..but much better now..lol.. today..haiz..another day wasted..i shud hv done my assignments today..but i spent my day doing lame stuff and killing time only..well.. guess i was rite to do some soul-searching..hahaha..now is 7.05pm.. n i just saw my fone n saw siti sms me at 6.07pm..gosh..i really cant reply her..firstly..my bill has exceeded..secondly..my fone is going crazee!!..lol..in e sense tat..is not really in order..haiz..nvm..i will find ways to reply her..well but her sms oso quite chim..yesterday nite shuyi just asked me some confusing qns..wat..eh..if a single lyks a single den tat single dun wan to hv a stead and dun feel lyk falling in love den how..wah..i blur le..i was only telling her bout tat shawn tay and his fren..simply cos she seem kinda interested..geez=x..den after...

wAt eLsE cAn I sAy??..hAiZ.. haiz..currently at yiwen's house..tat so-called secret was kinda revealed le..all thx to ke xian and yiwen..keep telling me to tell..-_-".. lolz..haiz..tis two days in yiwen's house..so ... lolz. dunno how to describe. i really regretted saying lahz. haiz... wateva. wats e point of saying now??..lolz..haiz.. yesterday. at e party at west coast park. shouldnt hv gone. i lyk so extra. though i'm not e only one. lolz. yiwen oso. hahahahahaha. lolz. -_-". kinda lame though. hahaz. and tat stupid christopher and yoke hwee. lolz. they so damn...haiz. forget it. n zhou chuan xiong. play e captain's ball. against e girls some more! is tat fair?! wah kaoz siao manz. den i quit e game le. so bo liao. with e guys scoring all e time only. lucky after tat ke xian came. my one-and-only sworn sis. lolz. got one companion to talk to le. she lyk hungry ghost lyk tat. eat and eat. =X. lolz. cant blame her though. she din eat anything before tat. hah...

sAd . sAdDeNiNg . tOtAlLy dEvAsTaTeD . hAiz..i'm sO sAd nOW!!!..cant explain y..cant reveal e truth..well..just hv to keep it to myself..only lyn knows bout tis..but anw..wats done is done..cant b undone..since i hv created tis trouble on my own..i hv only myself to blame..hAiz..TiMe HeAlS aLl wOuNdS... Currently feeling: depressed

bad flu day.. down with a bad flu tis morn..or is i was too sad last nite??..tat caused me to be ill today?..lolz..wat crap is tis..anw..i haven recovered yet..still sad..yet i couldnt say it out..tis darkest, deepest secret..guess only lyn and shawn know..but they promised not to tell any single soul..i know they wont..haiz..nopez..now esther oso know le..but she oso promised wont tell anyone.. yesterday went to work..first day of work..went to uncle's office..e job he assigned to us is rather easy actually..just tiring after doing a lot..his job is actually helping others to design banners..guess is called advertisement design or something..first thing i did was to tear off e sticker-like thing..so many to do!..lolz..my fingers are tired.. but no choice..hv to continue until i could finish all..first day at work mahz..must adapt??..lolz..wateva..anw after tat uncle gave a treat of chicken rice..tat was lousy..not as tasty as home cook one..lolz..i know i'm picky oso..heh..anw...

guilty is out!!! just now in e afternoon went to je popular bookshop with my sis..oh gosh!!..guilty is out!!!..but is 19bucks..too ex for me..i sure cant buy..or my mum will kill me..but duncan is so shuai!!..oh well..i min duncan has always been shuai..but..i'm so anxious!!..heh..i called siti immediately and she told me she hasnt bought yet..hope she will buy asap den can burn for me..oh well..if any guys were to buy tat for me..i will love him!!!!...lolz...really cant wait to get tat cd in my hands!!!... anw..siti asked if i wanna go out tmr..so sorry to tell her tat i cant.. cos i hv been going for e past few days..sure cant go out tmr..my mum will kill me..but i shud b going out on fri again..watch movie and stuff..wateva..c first lorz..den sat got hike..after hike go limin's party.. hoping is a nice and great one..sunday..should be going to queensway shopping centre to buy something bahz..monday..got project to do..tue another project..wed..mayb muz do guides le.. haiz..a...

tired. but enjoyable. today. just went to westmall with sis. or probably not with her i min. i went with jiahui. she went with her fren elewhere. just stepped into westmall den saw lotsa pple crowding in e middle. i tot it was kinda lame actually. lolz. anw i went up on e escalator to e library and looked down. so it was actually kym ng and adrian pang shooting a channel u prog. lolz. i prefer sharon au=p. heh=x. anw. jiahui and i shopped around. intending to buy a farewell prezzie for yingpeng. but of cos we dun wish to buy at all. rather wan her to stay with us in ctss. hope so bahz. den so zun. saw meili and christine and an unknown sec2 guy from our school. dunno his name lahz. den after tat we went to popular. cos i wanted to buy some foolscap pads. so zun again. met jiaxin and tat girl. i tink shud b pearlyn bahz. so scary siarh. jiahui almost banged into her. den she laughed. guess she oso din expect to c us dere. lolz. we continued to shop around. den went into e library to tal...

current fav song..kinda lame though..lolz.. GUILTY [VS 1 - (DUNCAN)] I never want to play the games that people play I never want to hear the things they gotta say I've found everything I need I never wanted anymore than I can see I only want you to believe [CHORUS - (LEE)] If it's wrong to tell the truth What am I supposed to do When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL] If it's wrong to do what's right I'm prepared to testify If loving you with all my heart's a crime - [ALL] Then I'm guilty [VS2 - (SIMON)] I wanna give you all the things you never had Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad I need you back in my life I never wanted just to be the other guy (be the other guy - [LEE]) I never want to live a lie [CHORUS - (LEE)] If it's wrong to tell the truth What am I supposed to do All I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL] If it's wrong to do what's right I'm prepared to testify If loving...

currently. currently chatting online with lyn hock chuan shaun. currently watching mtv of qing tian. quite sad. currently feeling. n o t h i n g. today. maybe. just yet another boring day. besides watching tv. still watching tv. now should b attending a wedding dinner with my mum. but dun felt like going. so din go. stayed at home. morn woke up kinda late. cos last nite played hp till v late den slp. 11am watched 'my fair princess' till 1pm. den finally had lunch. ate two bowls of noodles cos din had breakfast in e morn. today is older sis' birthday. haven wished her yet. lolz. currently watching mtv of zui hou de zhan yi. currently feeling. b o r e d. afternoon. too bo liao. kept switching channels. until my sis got e remote control and switched to an indian prog. it was kinda interesting. bloody at e same time. my sis said it seemed like e final destination. wateva. from 1pm. we watched till 3.30 i tink. not too sure. cos halfway thru i dozed off on e bed. lolz. after tat...

if i knew If I knew it would be the last time That I'd see you fall asleep, I would tuck you in more tightly and pray the Lord, your soul to keep. If I knew it would be the last time that I see you walk out the door, I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more. If I knew it would be the last time I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise, I would video tape each action and word, so I could play them back day after day. If I knew it would be the last time, I could spare an extra minute to stop and say "I love you," instead of assuming you would KNOW I do. If I knew it would be the last time I would be there to share your day, Well I'm sure you'll have so many more, so I can let just this one slip away. For surely there's always tomorrow to make up for an oversight, and we always get a second chance to make everything just right. There will always be another day to say "I love you," And certainly there's another chance to say o...