past.

somehow it's a good thing, that holidays are not an every-day thing. or i'd be stuck to the teevee ! =xx so hooked to the hongkong drama series . spent my time gawking at BENNY CHAN ! SHUAI! =xx ugh. physics workout is killing me. 70 more pages to go! madness. i want more holidays! =xx it took me so much courage to listen to it again. just like it took me so much courage to realise i can't get over you.

first day of new year? i'm bored to tears. ate so much. no doubt i'll be gaining weight again. =xx rather, i'm gaining everyday. =/ man, my homework load isn't decreasing. and i'm not prepared for physics mock exam! looks like new year this year isn't going to be a great one. =/ anyone knows how to watch mtv online ?! i can't find mine! how can you just walk on by, without one tear in your eye. don't you have the slightest feelings left for me? maybe that's just your way, of dealing with the pain. forgetting everything, between our rise and fall, like we never loved at all. the times you broke my heart.

probably another 8 months more? i would have left by then. but i will cherish these days. even if it means just looking at your back . all's enough. (: i can't imagine someone loving a person so deeply. i won't be able to achieve that. but i will love with a genuine heart. i call this fate . sad songs that send me crying.

slept at 4 am and woke up at 10 . thanks to two people. hahah. =xx had my hair cut, finally! (; having steamboat in an hour's time! yummies! HAPPY NEW YEAR! NOVDAY. ANGIE - hey!! haven't heard from you lately. must take care okay! xin nian kuai le! (; JIAHUI - thanks for pei-ing me today! you looked great in those shorts! keke. =xx happy new yr! (; TECKY - eh!! don't so bei guan la!! you are who you are! think through it! happy new yr! (; YINGHAO - oei! must persevere okay! prove that you can do well! jiayou!! xin nian kuai le! (; goodbye my lover.

I MET HIM AGAIN! all smiles now. =xx keke. no regrets at all about not going to watch the match with KEVIN . because i met him i met him i met him! =D some more on 173 again. the last time i met him was like 48 days ago? hee. got 15 bucks for some uber simple tasks. GREAT! =xx i need sleep! goodnight! (: man, i have to believe in fate. i know we will coincide again. (:

wet day with my lovely ones. man, i have survived another day. (: i hide but you don't seek.

first higher chinese test in 2006. guolian 's last in class for the first time. ha. at least you bothered. (:

studied chem today. (: it took me so long to finish a chapter of tys. =xx i searched myself, and i found the truth.

great dinner with RAHIL . (: higher spirits today. MICHAEL saved me from everything. =xx

tears on the verge of flowing. i'm just tired. very, very tired. me me me. always me.

if i give reasons why i didn't shed a single tear these three days, i'm probably just giving excuses. but i have feelings too.

can't believe i share the same birthday as MISS KOH . LOL. people wished me. THANK YOU. (: YUYUAN TECKSING HUIMIN YINGHAO JIAHUI MELISSA STHENG SHIRLEEN ZIRUI ANGIE CHRISTOPHER TSUHUI MICHAEL SHANLING SHAUN SINI SHUYI PEISIN JAVIER NICOLLE MAX STHER FERNANDO RAHIL ARIFF QIMEI BIANCA BERVYN KINMENG WENSI YANHONG KIANWEE FUYU YIXUAN GERALDINE GUOMIN CLEMENT LIYANA XIAOWEI SHIRLYN QUEENIE believe it or not, KINMENG and CLEMENT wished me. LOL. if it was in the past and CLEMENT had wished me, i'd appreciate it. but now, SORRY BUT I DON'T. people gave me presents and letters too. THANK YOU again. (: YUYUAN TECKSING HUIMIN YINGHAO JIAHUI MELISSA ZIRUI ANGIE TSUHUI MICHAEL SHAUN PEISIN JAVIER MAX STHER QIMEI BIANCA KIANWEE MINHUI ZHUANGWEI SAMANTHA ZENIA HUILING SHIRLEY woke up with a kinda bad mood. my mum didn't wish me for the first time. my dad, as usual, didn't know the occasion. at least when i returned home, my mum did like previous years. kissed and hugged me. ...

i learnt something at the workshop today. it's a terrible feeling to hold my bladder for too long, that is. hahaha. =xx XIAOWEI and i have waited this day for so long to watch nc16! but ADAM KHOO has ruined our GREAT plan. well, XIAOWEI 's got a bikini . how cool. =xxx i don't want one though! off to watch tv now! it'sonlyacrush. I LOVE JOE ! (:

went on a "shopping spree" with ZIRUI at lot1! keke. and then had lots of fun with him, YINGHAO and TECKY . wahahaha. off to do my work now! I LOVE JOE ! (: let's cross our fingers.

it's been raining and raining. like practically every single day. the weather's been so cold . i hope it won't rain that much today. i'm going out! =xx yesterday got some presents from SAM , ZENIA , MINHUI , QIMEI , BIANCA , NURI and STHER . oh my god i love them la. the gifts are so ex! =/ i feel so loved siarh. received so many gifts and then some more yesterday my mother was in uber great mood. i reached home at 9 she also didn't blast at me. how surprising! =xx still, i don't quite look forward to my birthday. which i think should be the first time that i don't. =xx well well, i should leave my house already. ZIRUI will be waiting! I LOVE JOE ! (:

i don't know if it's just around my area or all over singapore. it's been raining since LAST NIGHT . and has NOT stopped till now. i like it and i don't. i like it because the wind is great. i don't because i want to go out!!! tomorrow can go late to school le. yipeeeeeeeee. how SHIOK ! =xx off to do my project now! YMOEU: hey! tell ya something. NONE of your entries is rotten and just want to let you know that your mood affects mine because you're my friend! so you ought to be happy all the time okay! at least, try your best! SMILE! (: I LOVE JOE ! (: after one big round, i'm back to you again. but i can only go on deceiving you, deceiving myself.

kind of bloated. went to pizza hut with JIAHUI , ANGEL , MELISSA , YINGHAO and TECKY to celebrate my birthday in advance. YINGHAO treated me. hahah. =D had lots of laughter there and at big bookshop. keke. =xx hey people! thanks! (: JIAHUI! SMILE! (: and, I LOVE JOE . =D

heng man. fortunately everything's alright. well. kind of worried for our days to come. i don't know what's ahead. time to do work. MELISSA HENG! JOE'S MINE! I LOVE HIM! GO AWAY! =xx

first day of school turned out to be BAD , very bad. involved a big group of us. i shall not elaborate. all i can say is, i won't change my views so easily again . but, really had loads of fun at max 's house yesterday. the tarot cards comforted me. =D god bless ouxiang. *crosses fingers* second day? HA. ain't any better. how nice can it be to have 4d1 being called out in the early morning? LOL. as the dirtiest class some more. yuan pin was right, "you're such a failure." .

damn it! i'd have a hard time adapting to school life again! holidays = sleep late wake up late. school = sleep late wake up early. =xxx slept at 3 a.m and woke up at 11.30 a.m. very bad! =xx and i'm dead. with the chinese project undone. =/ damn, MELISSA tempted me to watch something. got my GAY . =xx

went on a shopping spree today! hee. my gawd. someone wanted to spend 300 bucks on my birthday prezzie. lucky i stopped him. =xxx i smiled like i mean it. (: