past.

I must start working very, very hard, for my long-awaited wish has been fulfilled and I ought to be grateful. JIAYOU GL!!!!

I dreamt of Blue coming to NUS. BIG SIGH. I miss them so much but I jolly well know that I should pull myself together and start studying for my paper later! JIAYOU GL! Breathe easy! Oh and, for some reason, 29 Feb is my favourite date, so, Happy Leap! :)

I don't know what to say, for words can't express my feelings of the time anyway. It's the best night, ever. Really. What more can I say?

I know I ought to be sleeping now but I know that if I do not express my feelings now, I might just be unable to sleep, like last night. FYI, I have not been sleeping too well the past few nights because I was extremely anxious about today (even more anxious than the concert itself) and the day has passed so quickly before I even realised it. Last night I tossed and turned in bed, suddenly recalling all the old times in school and how it all started. I remember how I started listening to Blue at Primary Five because of my eyecandy. (You know girls have eyecandies from the age of 10 or 11.) I remember how I first sang Blue's song Fly By during Children's Day party at Primary Six. My friend was like, "You sing?!" I remember how I bought my first and last Lime magazine with Blue's poster inside. I tore Duncan's face out so that I could put it as the cover of my pocket file, but I lost it in Sec 3 after lending it to a friend who wanted to draw a portrait of Dunca...

1. About an hour or so ago, Duncan announced on Twitter that Blue will be releasing their brand new singles in May 2012. How long have I waited for this? 2. I have been too excited about the concert since a week ago that I could not calm down to study today. 3. I have been looping "Breathe Easy" on my mp3 for the longest time and I think I might just cry when they sing it live next week. I have yearned for this for 8 years! While I am very excited these days, I pray that the people in Syria can embrace peace soon. And I felt very upset at the demise of the two journalists whom I felt certainly did not deserve to perish. People should stop fighting. Well, easier said than done.

http://youtu.be/Vz2lyq7kGms 98 Degrees - My Everything The loneliness of nights alone the search for strength to carry on my every hope has seemed to die my eyes had no more tears to cry then like the sun shining up above you surrounded me with your endless love Coz all the things I couldn't see are now so clear to me You are my everything Nothing your love won't bring My life is yours alone The only love I've ever known Your spirit pulls me through When nothing else will do Every night I pray On bended knee That you will always be My everything Now all my hopes and all my dreams are suddenly reality you've opened up my heart to feel a kind of love that's truly real a guiding light that'll never fade there's not a thing in life that I would ever trade for the love you give it won't let go I hope you'll always know You are my everything Nothing your love won't bring My life is yours alone The only love I've ever known Your spirit pulls me thro...

http://youtu.be/FK3rLHSwEv8 A1 - Like A Rose And as I look into your eyes I see an angel in disguise Sent from God above for me to love To hold and idolize And as I hold your body near I'll see this month through to a year And then forever on till life is gone I'll keep your loving near And now I've finally found my way To lead me down this lonely road All I have to do is follow you To lighten off my load You treat me like a rose You give me room to grow You shone the light of love on me And gave me air so I can breathe You open doors that close In a world where anything goes You give me strength so I stand tall Just like a rose And when I feel like hope is gone You give me strength to carry on Each time I look at you there's something new To keep our loving strong I hear you whisper in my ear All of the words I long to hear Of how you'll always be here next to me To wipe away my tears And though the seasons change Our love remains the same You face th...

I can no longer tell you that I miss you. But I really do!

Today is like the great depression day. On my way to meet Rahil, I was so about to break down on the bus :( (ok I think it was because of Blue's song that I was listening on my mp3) Then I think about all the work to be done and upcoming exams, then I .... don't feel like thinking anymore.

老师小小的举动让我有种沉冤得雪的感觉，让我觉得其实我并不是很笨，或并没有问个很笨的问题。说真的，那天我还真有点觉得很不是滋味。 最近是干嘛？这么容易就觉得感动，然后想哭。 老师是好人。我要记住。

This bad habit of mine, is taking a really long stroll in the past and many times, reluctant to come back to reality. Today, my journey did not go too far back, merely a year ago this time. I saw how I wished Blue would come to Singapore one day and true enough, they are coming next week. Everything else seems pretty much the same. There are those who have stayed and are still staying, those who left and those who came in later. I know, though, that there is always this place I will revisit all the time. And this brings me back to my heading. Old habits really do die hard.

http://youtu.be/_92iHkrSnGQ This song never fails to break me, especially at the climax. Can't wait to hear it live. The thought of it just makes me hyperventilate!

GL，你一定要撑下去。 加油。

Maybe I have long hit the quota but I never really knew. Everyone has a quota that he or she eventually hits. Somehow, the more I try to be a better friend, the worse I become. Perhaps I never should have resolved to accomplish anything like such. It just makes me a very guilty person. I have always wondered if the problem lies with me. Maybe it does. On a different note, I had always regarded him as a big brother. Frankly, I had respected him. And he was probably the most reliable among the rest who were unfamiliar and hypocritical. I chose to believe the rumours were merely rumours initially but subsequent actions made me doubt and gradually lose every little respect I had left. I think I will become more skeptical than ever after this incident. It seems that people really cannot be trusted. Whatever, I think people should stop harping on it. He has been condemned and punished if he deserves so for anything he has done. I think enough is said and done, for who...

You can be moaning in pain from a very bad gastric but still dying to catch a movie you have anticipated for ages. Then a best friend is someone who lets you have your ways. Thank you best friend! A very sad but beautiful story. Love it. On my way home, many things from the past flashed through my mind. 加油 is such a strong phrase.

I am an extremely angsty person today. Perhaps anger has gotten the better of me but what I want to say is that I have never had anything against them until recently when every little thing they do seems to irritate me. Why do you have to challenge your elders? Why do you have to make a clear distinction as to who is from where when you yourself are on a foreign land? You do not need to spell out your abilities, prove with actions please. I hate to be caught between expectations but sometimes, or many times, I don't know what to do. How can I allow these people to make my Valentine's Day a bad one?! Terrible. Thank you people who listened to me rant. At least the last couple of hours of Valentine's were less angsty.

Thank you to those who care for and love me. I hope everything stays like this.

I'm not sure if I have heard correctly but I secretly wished that I have. And all I know is that everything was dead silent right after. I think I never felt this scared. Mic asked me why I never cry even when I am upset. I think I cry when I am scared. I am very scared now, but I know I will hold back all my tears. Got to be stronger.

I feel like just giving up.

This week has been extremely hectic and I am so beat. There have been occasions I was so upset I think I nearly broke down on a few. Why upset? 1. I really, really cannot stand the people who disrespect 林立老师 and take his niceness for granted. I really detest the fact that they are always interrupting the class and I really cannot focus in class because of them. It's been 4 weeks. 2. I learnt about how my two good friends were being bullied by older students in their level4k module and I really wonder why people can be so selfish. 3. Group work has never been easy but it will be tougher if members are not willing to make sacrifices. 4. I have been so occupied with never-ending work that I have come to a point where I actually forgot to reply messages or appointments. 5. If dreams are a  true reflection of true feelings, then I am very confused about mine.

I woke up at 8 to have breakfast with my friends. Then I attempted to start on my project which is due tomorrow (Friday) morning but failed to do so. I started whining to YiRong. Then I had lesson from 10 to 4. Then meeting from 4 to 6. Then project discussion from 6 to 9. Yanli and I made our way back to our rooms then there was a fire drill exercise -.- And so I returned to my room at nearly 10. Then I finally started on my project. But I promise I am so sleepy now. At a time like this, I just want to be with my best friend who knows me best and hears me nag even though he is not going to understand what I am going to rant about. I know he is just going to interrupt me and laugh at my nonsense but he will listen to everything I have to say. I jolly well know I should not waste time typing all these but I really need the avenue. I am so damn stressed.

Wolverine knows that he should be happy for Cyclops but Wolverine is still a little upset. Cyclops says he will not neglect Wolverine but Wolverine knows things will still be different. Wolverine is a little sad rather than happy today, but Wolverine will be fine after today. Wolverine hopes Cyclops will be happy.

我做事總是不夠用心，不夠拼命，所以事情總是做不好。 用心點，用心點…

Today 無名氏 took a picture of a rainbow on the floor at The Deck and rushed to my table and said to me, "See? A rainbow appears even in your darkest days." Sweet hor? You made my day! No more Monday blues ;) Edits: 昨晚做了很美的梦，很不想起床。

I had a great time with my sis today. I treated her at her favourite Buddy Hoagies cafe and we took a bus home together. Then I showed her my room in school. She loved it and said that she would love to stay over some time. Before she left, she hugged me and said, "Thank you for your treat 二姐, see you soon."

周末又快結束了。歲月不饒人。上星期過得很不開心。每天晚上做噩夢，早上不是被鬧鐘吵醒，就是從惡夢中驚醒。很累，很辛苦。甚至有一度無法分辨現實與夢境。思緒混淆。最近笑容明顯少了，説明顯是因爲已經明顯得我自己都察覺到了。也許是忙得忘記笑了。身邊的笑聲一樣多，那也未嘗不是件好事。下來兩周將會非常非常忙，忙得我根本無法去想象是否可以順利度過。不過，還是先別想太多了。反正該來的終究會來。愛我的朋友，我知道最近的我不是沒空赴約，就是忘了約會所以爽約，真的非常抱歉。接下來兩周我應該會忙得不可開交，所以請不要約我。我想我會連自己是誰都忘記，所以更別説記得跟誰出門。 周末又快結束了。不過這個星期過得太辛苦了，結束是好的。嚮往更美好的新一周。

I hate to be caught in the middle, especially when the two sides are whom you love so much.

脆弱的时候，你就想哭。

I think even if I were to leave after this semester, I would probably leave with the fondest memories. What more can I ask for? On a side note, I hope and I choose to believe that my true friends will understand, and so I do not want to explain. Today is my best friend's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BF! I know you know I am damn stubborn and rebellious and whiny and spoiled and noisy and choosy but you always compromise with me and give in to me in every way you can. Thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! I hope you will always be happy because you deserve to be. I hope you will gamble less so that you can treat me food more often. I hope you will be blessed because you are special :) I know I am such a sweet best friend! 加油了GL，不要再蹉跎歲月了…

“放不下過去，活不了當下。” 要學會割捨，就現在。 沒有什麽是學不會的。