My love for Blue

I know I ought to be sleeping now but I know that if I do not express my feelings now, I might just be unable to sleep, like last night. FYI, I have not been sleeping too well the past few nights because I was extremely anxious about today (even more anxious than the concert itself) and the day has passed so quickly before I even realised it.

Last night I tossed and turned in bed, suddenly recalling all the old times in school and how it all started.

I remember how I started listening to Blue at Primary Five because of my eyecandy. (You know girls have eyecandies from the age of 10 or 11.)

I remember how I first sang Blue's song Fly By during Children's Day party at Primary Six. My friend was like, "You sing?!"

I remember how I bought my first and last Lime magazine with Blue's poster inside. I tore Duncan's face out so that I could put it as the cover of my pocket file, but I lost it in Sec 3 after lending it to a friend who wanted to draw a portrait of Duncan.

I remember how I bought my first and last Teenage magazine at Sec 1. I signed Duncan's name on the poster and Esther was like, "Are you that desperate?" I replied, "Cos' I will never see them in my life so I have to sign it myself." She laughed at me.

I remember how once my mum switched on the TV in the middle of the night to watch 綜藝大哥大. My sis asked, "Is that Blue?" I jumped up from my bed and finished the whole variety show.

I remember how regretful I felt when I missed their concert in September 2004.

I remember how upset I was for two months when they announced that they were going to disband.

I remember how I had a deal with this friend to listen to Breathe Easy live if Blue ever came to Singapore.

I remember how I wished for Blue's comeback on every birthday.

I really, really thought they would never come back. I never thought I could see them perform right before my eyes. But they did last November.

And today, I was this close to them. I can't say how close, just too close. Yanli was too engrossed in Ben (from a1) that she did not move to Blue and so I was the first person in the whole long queue to shake the hands of all Blue's members! Can you believe that?! I can't!

It all felt too surreal. Seriously, will I be able to sleep tonight?!

I am going to hear Breathe Easy live tomorrow. Ohmygad.