past.

也许我们活着最大的考验之一就是将所有的不愉快都吞进去。

I really feel demoralised today :(

九十春光半已残。诗兴阑珊。酒兴阑珊。镜中憔悴不堪看。羞画眉弯。懒画眉弯。 涩雨悭风特地酸。不许春闲。不许人闲。年年愁病苦相关。花也长叹。人也长叹。

A-Mei's concert was truly an amazing one! I would say it was totally worth the price and probably the loudest concert I have ever been to? The part where the different gay couples kissed really touched me. I think it is always nice to know that someone is there to love and support you, no matter what kind of relationship that is. I really respect those gay couples who love daringly, I wish them all the best!   The 40-minute long ballads medley was another highlight of the concert. I had so much fun!   Thank goodness I had never hesitated to go :D

长大了，就老想着要回到从前那无忧无虑的日子。 最难做的选择，也不过是饼干应该吃巧克力或草莓口味的。

Dear GL, You really got to work harder. It's your last semester. You want to graduate happily with your friends and proceed to your graduate studies. Work hard and persevere! You.

真的累了。 这次，已经不再懂得怎么笑。

如果伤疤从未完全愈合，那么每一次被揭开，都是一次痛。如果伤口经常被触碰，痊愈的时间就会更久。你可以尽量避免伤口被人触碰，但并非每次都这么成功。你可以做的，唯有更坚强一些，克服这痛。若无其事也是一种途径。你有选择的权利。也许有一天当你痊愈了以后，再看看这伤疤，你自己都不知道当初是怎么受伤的。 而当中所感受过的情绪，或许都不再重要。 剩下的那些感动，能记得多久？

是不是我们总要经历一个无助的阶段，才能学会振作？

Have always been apprehensive about welcoming the month, probably because it brings back too much. I have never been someone good at forgetting, even if I don't try to remember things. Fragments of those incidents that happened before always linger in some parts of the brain, seemingly unwilling to leave. It could be why I like to keep things on a low profile since then, it's just too difficult to be happy on such a day.   Nevertheless, I do appreciate the thoughts my friends and family had. I have to say, I am REALLY scared of receiving presents sometimes because I am so afraid that it would be something that I probably wouldn't use and thus be taking up space in the house, after which my mum would ask me to dump it, much as I hate to. Yet on the other hand, I do understand that it is the thought that counts. I have become so uneasy about receiving gifts from people these days. One thing for sure, I really don't like the idea that my friends spend money on me. I've...

这一天总是令人觉得有些压抑。曾经在这一天所发生的事，人与人之间在这一天所许下的承诺，一切都还历历在目。尽管不再重要，也无法回头，但总是禁不住再去回味一次，或者再痛苦一次。 快乐也好，痛苦也罢，所有事情终需在回忆里待续。 至于朋友们在这一天给予的祝福，我都收到了，也铭记于心。感恩。

美好的景色，有時候可以用相機捕捉。 美好的聲音，有時候可以用錄音器錄下。 但什麽東西再怎麽美好，心靈要把它記得才會更深刻、更有收藏的價值。 讓心靈記得美好的時刻，十年后在腦裏播放，讓自己的心再次激蕩。

Realised how coincidental things can be. I met Rahil, Salih and Badd on Monday, Mrs Teresa Chua on Tuesday, Darren, Joel and SK yesterday, and then my sec two classmates today. We were a crazy lot today. I was reminded of the stupid things we did when we were younger, and the very stupid things we used to say. I have to admit, I got a little lazy to meet YP after the last time I met her, that was two years back probably, nearly three. Today, I was actually thinking of giving the meet-up a miss because I had so much work to do. But I know, she's hardly in Singapore and that few hours spent with her shouldn't be regarded as a chore. I'm glad I thought this way. The feeling of familiarity and nostalgia she gave me after I met her was really overwhelming and I missed it. She's the same old her and we are like schoolgirls again.   Suddenly, I do miss those days.

A simple lunch with my fellow uni girls today at Hwang's. The food wasn't really satisfactory but the company definitely was good. They made me a really pretty photo album which I know will bring back really fond memories when I look at it again a few years down the road. And it is definitely nice to have Yanxing back. I like how all of us hang out together like last time and today we spent some time together in the library. It was a great feeling to be with them. Thank you all :)   I can't help but say this again. LL is just so nice. He told me he would finish writing my recommendation letter by the end of next week but I saw him rushing it in his office today and he actually finished it at 4 p.m. and asked me to collect it from him tomorrow even though he was supposedly not going to school. How can I not be touched? How can I not be grateful? I guess no matter how tough ISM is going to be, I must do my best and not disappoint him.   Met Darren, Joel and SK for...

Finally, I have made that first step out and I am now in the midst of applying for my postgraduate studies. I am indeed a little apprehensive and nervous during the process because, maybe a part of me is still reluctant to move out of that comfort zone. I mean, everyone fears the unknown and unfamiliar. But I know, rationality has won over anything else. And I am trying to get myself ready, to embark on this journey of my own and learn to be independent.   JIAYOU GL.

I'm worried. Really worried that making myself get carried away by work by shouldering more responsibilities will eventually drown me. But somehow this is the only way out for now, at least it is a safer way out. I am so, lost.

人生有很多阶段。在几乎每个阶段中，或许一定都有身边的家人、朋友给予支持。但是，人生中总有个阶段是要自己一个人去面对的。要自己面对，不是因为身边的家人朋友都离开，而是就算家人朋友都在，有些问题都不见得能够解决。因为其他人不是你，他们终究不能明白你所经历的，不能明白你所感受的。他们可以给你一百个建议，告诉你应该这样，应该那样，只因为他们根本不在经历你所经历的事。也就是在这种时候，自己的意志要非常坚强。因为在得不到家人朋友的支持和帮助时，甚至只得到他们的冷嘲热讽或落井下石，要继续坚持自己一直相信的事情就会变得更加困难，更加无助。也许，人生最困难的阶段莫过于这一阶段。

It's not exactly a typical Friday, probably because school hasn't started, so Friday doesn't seem exceptionally special. I would say, though, that it has been a rather good one. I went to school to search for a book which I will be using for my ISM, and I thought I would start on my readings which I promised myself to finish by the end of this week. However, my dear friend Wang Wang suggested to catch a movie and so the very easily-persuaded me agreed and there we went, Wreck it, Ralph at Jcube. I thought the idea of the movie was a very good one, and I liked the graphics. It was quite an interesting catch for a supposedly quiet Friday :)   Although I was really happy over having lost 2.5 kg recently, I had a craving to satisfy and so I went to Macs to have my Mcspicy and shaker fries after meeting ZR. Yes I know, I am going to gain that 2.5 kilos back soon if I go on this way. No worries, I will control! At least I will try!   It was quality time spent with my best frien...

I had expected this to come, but didn't see it coming this soon. First, two years back my younger sis told my mum she became a believer of Christ, my mum broke down. Just before the new year started, my older sis told my mum she has become a believer since three years ago. My mum flared up. And then it is as if my youngest sis and I were in this too. I don't know what I can do. I really don't. I know my mum doesn't agree with Christianity and I know too that my sisters won't change their minds no matter what my mum thinks. And so it just means that they are going to fight over this issue over and over again every now and then. The conflict has been ongoing since 31 Dec and truth be told, I'm going nuts. I don't mind my mum calling me to rant about all these, I know she just needs a listening ear sometimes. But I know she's suppressing so much anger and dissatisfaction inside her, and I really don't know how to help. She can't accept differences i...

Breakfast was pretty sumptuous. And the weather was so good while Yanli and I had our swim. I managed ten laps after not swimming for nearly half a year. Thereafter, we went to honors room and I went to LL's office in the afternoon to talk to him regarding my ISM. He started by chatting with me, so nice of him :) Yl and I were hungry so we went to Clementi to have 3 plates of sushi each at Shin Tokyo. Cheap and satisfying! I got my printer at Courts after that and I'm quite happy with the new printer.   It's such a happy and simple day :)

人与人之间的相处都讲求信任吗？ 你是否曾经被信任的人背叛呢？ 又或者，你是否曾经觉得自己可以很潇洒地原谅一个背叛你的人，但当真正被信任的人背叛后，你却无法接受，耿耿于怀？ 信任是多么可贵，近来却一直贬值。 你会不会为了换取一堆诱惑而把信任当掉呢？ 人与人之间的相处如果不讲求信任，那又还可以建立在什么基础上呢？