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Caterpillar: How do you become a butterfly?
Butterfly: You have to be willing to die.
Caterpillar: Die?
Butterfly: Well, it feels like you're dying. But it really turns out to be a transformation to something better.

if that explains what i feel, then i'm willing to die.
till i'm healed again, rediscovered my strengths, perhaps those bitter blues will be gone.

it takes far less courage to kill yourself than it takes to make yourself wake up one more time.
how true is that?
i'm broken and faded but i just need the courage to wake myself up.

time is an equal opportunity employer.
each human being has exactly the same number of hours and minutes every day.
rich people can't buy more hours.
scientists can't invent new minutes.
and you can't save time to spend it on another day.
even so, time is amazingly fair and forgiving.

for no matter how much time you've wasted in the past, you still have an entire tomorrow.


what if i die tomorrow?

then i would have wasted my life, all of it.
i wouldn't even have the time to wake myself up.

the clock keeps reminding me that o levels are edging near.



have i found a reason for me?
it's not you. the reason is NOT you.

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