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i was silly.
i guess i had been too silly.
to believe something i shldnt have.
but i realized it too late.
y must you fool me?
y did i not doubt it at all?
y?

this morning.
supposed to be a nice one.
but it has turned into a bad one.
when i saw something i didnt wan to c.
as i walked into e school.
i really felt like crying.
but there seemed to be no leaning shoulders around.
i felt.
a sense of loss.
til i saw them come to school tog.
i knew i had been fooled.
by 2 pple whom i tot i could trust.
watever it is.
thanks to sther and min.
nice and broad shoulders they have lent me.
felt more comforted.
ha lol.
today was boring.
except that we watched e mtvs during chinese lesson.
had much laughter.
went to mac after school.
with stheng and sther.
stupid 2b1 pple.
go take my umbrella.
next thing they did was to spill sther's food.
almost wanted to scold them.
uncivilised pple.
good enough that they knew to apologise.
and said will pay tml.
or i sure hoot them.
lucky i siam when they threw my brolly at me.
cos stheng wil sure hoot them.
ha!
anyway.
we got medium fries instead of e small fries we ordered.
keke.
den after that ate ice cream.
didnt finish thou.
went back to school.
had e com class again.
was boring man.
damn boring.
haha.
thou we haven got tired of looking at 'jay'.
haha lol.
after com class.....
saw him.
he haven gone home.
cos got cca.
but i look at him.
quickly looked away.
i didnt have much courage left.
to even steal a glance of him.
haiz.
anyway.
went home with yingpeng and yuyuan again.
on our way to bus stop.
i walked very slow.
hoping to see him behind me.
but too bad.
maybe he walked e other direction.
maybe he stil in school ba.
maybe he walked off long ago.
jus that i happened not to c him?
who noes.
i waiting for him to come online.
but to no avail.
i got lotsa stuff to tell him.
but i may ponder.
if i wld tell him.
nvm.
dun crap le.
go watch american idol le.
lol.

guolovesduncan & sheena ng? lol.
10.03pm

i need a leaning shoulder.
rite now.

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