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What ifs.























Over the years, our perspectives have changed so much. We ourselves, are perhaps changed persons too.
Look around you.
Are they the same people? Or have they changed?
For the better? Or worse? Whether or not it's the earlier or the latter, do you love them as much as before? Somerset Maugham ever said that we are not the same persons as before; nor are those we love. Yet it is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person.
Sometimes I wonder if I can really achieve that...

Darren brought up something which I thought was pretty interesting and that never really left my mind since. Sometimes we are so sure we're on the right track only to find out that we're on the wrong train. It may sound a little cliche but I guess it's another stark reality that's placed right before us.
Many a times I am so glad I am doing something I like, but only to realise that it isn't something I should have done. Can't really specify an example here but I guess all of us have gone through this phase before and we aren't really out of it yet..

There're so much to explore out there and it sometimes gets me very worried how I am to survive in this complicated world. The things you do, the places you go, and most of all, the people you meet. Am trying not to be a cynic here but it's so damn hard, I am just so paranoid.. I appreciate simplicity but everything isn't as simple as you think it is.
I may not have stepped into the real world yet but I've already understood how it feels like to have someone smiling at you in your face but stab you in the back. I guess even if I have the most clear-eyed adjustments, I will still get stabbed somehow.

Enough of pessimism of the day. I believe these are the WONDERS of life and I'll just have to stand firm and be ready for unseen attacks.
I'm over that tough period once again and I'm glad I have people around to care.
There are a few reasons why I'm still strong. And I guess every one of you makes up a reason.

Because you care.

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