i never could have seen this far, i never could have seen this coming.
it seems like my world's falling apart.
why is everything so hard?
i don't think that i can deal with the things you said. it just won't go away.
in a perfect world, this could never happen.
in a perfect world, you'd still be here.
and it makes no sense.
i could just pick up the pieces, but to you, this means nothing, nothing at all.
i used to think that i was strong, until the day it all went wrong.
i think i need a miracle to make it through.
i wish that i could bring you back, i wish that i could turn back time.
because i can't let go, i just can't find my way.
without you i just can't find my way.
celebrated sther's birthday in advance yesterday.
not as fun as last year anymore. people were no longer enthusiastic as well.
everything's so different.
and, pizza hut reminds me of the two times i had lunches with s.h.e, and once with novday.
if yinghao is reading this, he will probably pull a long face again.
but sorry, i didn't want to keep harping on it. the memories just kept flowing back.
there are so many things i can look back at, so many things to reminisce.
but even the happiest memories will leave me grieving eventually, for they shortlived and will never come back.
i remembered how nerdy i was last time, in sec1 to be exact.
it was rahil and sther who kept pulling my uniform out each time they saw it so tucked in.
and today, it's almost not tucked in at all. ha.
sec2 was all about parting, ain't it?
miss moo, and then miss soh, yiwen, anand..
nevertheless, 2c1o4 shall always remain as 2c1o4.
i ever said that in sec3, i went through the unhappiest period of my life.
that was the 3 months of cold war with rahil. ha.
how petty could i get?
but, the year 2005 contained the most wonderful memories with yinghao, tecky, jiahui and angie.
sec4? is the year i can't wait to get out of ctss.
and the year i know i'm going to miss sheena, shirl, xian, xiuying, felicia, sini and nic loads.
i will miss the guiding days.
the days the 8 of us changed together in the guides room, bathed in the same toilet, slept together, went through hardships together, the wonderful days.
studied with angie, yinghao, jiahui and yuci at lib today.
when i was at the mrt platform waiting for the train, i walked to the last escalator because it's nearest to the escalator in clementi.
and when i boarded the train, i was thinking why i knew that.
oh, it was tecky. it was tecky who told me about it, whenever we went to the library last time.
well at least even though the past cannot be turned back, i have kept certain things in my brain.
even those days i spent with my family.
the last meal i had with my complete family 2 years ago.
i don't know how true it is for a child to grow normally with the love showered by both parents.
i never really believed in that.
i feel that i can survive and grow up normally with just my mother's love.
but i know if that man leaves her, she will break down.
all i can do is that be a good daughter.
and, all i want to do is to change my sis's mindset. but it all seems so tough.
when will she ever understand that i do love her and i do care for her?
nah, she says i'm a bitch. she hates me.
but in the light of all these troughs i have to fall into, life is still summed up by three words, i.e. it goes on.
i have no choice but to keep my life going. we don't always have a choice, do we?
i think she really loves him. but he thinks she has a motive for what she does for him.
maybe she's so going to feel heartbroken.
but then again, if she has 5 minutes of her life left and has to make a phone call, she will call him and say,
"i don't have a motive."
mrs gan told amitabha to invent a machine that can read people's minds.
but there's a someone who wouldn't use it, i think.
it might hurt her too much if she knows what he is thinking.
instead, she might love the invention of a time machine.
so that she could go back to the past and tell herself, "i will try not to fall for you this time."
it seems like my world's falling apart.
why is everything so hard?
i don't think that i can deal with the things you said. it just won't go away.
in a perfect world, this could never happen.
in a perfect world, you'd still be here.
and it makes no sense.
i could just pick up the pieces, but to you, this means nothing, nothing at all.
i used to think that i was strong, until the day it all went wrong.
i think i need a miracle to make it through.
i wish that i could bring you back, i wish that i could turn back time.
because i can't let go, i just can't find my way.
without you i just can't find my way.
celebrated sther's birthday in advance yesterday.
not as fun as last year anymore. people were no longer enthusiastic as well.
everything's so different.
and, pizza hut reminds me of the two times i had lunches with s.h.e, and once with novday.
if yinghao is reading this, he will probably pull a long face again.
but sorry, i didn't want to keep harping on it. the memories just kept flowing back.
there are so many things i can look back at, so many things to reminisce.
but even the happiest memories will leave me grieving eventually, for they shortlived and will never come back.
i remembered how nerdy i was last time, in sec1 to be exact.
it was rahil and sther who kept pulling my uniform out each time they saw it so tucked in.
and today, it's almost not tucked in at all. ha.
sec2 was all about parting, ain't it?
miss moo, and then miss soh, yiwen, anand..
nevertheless, 2c1o4 shall always remain as 2c1o4.
i ever said that in sec3, i went through the unhappiest period of my life.
that was the 3 months of cold war with rahil. ha.
how petty could i get?
but, the year 2005 contained the most wonderful memories with yinghao, tecky, jiahui and angie.
sec4? is the year i can't wait to get out of ctss.
and the year i know i'm going to miss sheena, shirl, xian, xiuying, felicia, sini and nic loads.
i will miss the guiding days.
the days the 8 of us changed together in the guides room, bathed in the same toilet, slept together, went through hardships together, the wonderful days.
studied with angie, yinghao, jiahui and yuci at lib today.
when i was at the mrt platform waiting for the train, i walked to the last escalator because it's nearest to the escalator in clementi.
and when i boarded the train, i was thinking why i knew that.
oh, it was tecky. it was tecky who told me about it, whenever we went to the library last time.
well at least even though the past cannot be turned back, i have kept certain things in my brain.
even those days i spent with my family.
the last meal i had with my complete family 2 years ago.
i don't know how true it is for a child to grow normally with the love showered by both parents.
i never really believed in that.
i feel that i can survive and grow up normally with just my mother's love.
but i know if that man leaves her, she will break down.
all i can do is that be a good daughter.
and, all i want to do is to change my sis's mindset. but it all seems so tough.
when will she ever understand that i do love her and i do care for her?
nah, she says i'm a bitch. she hates me.
but in the light of all these troughs i have to fall into, life is still summed up by three words, i.e. it goes on.
i have no choice but to keep my life going. we don't always have a choice, do we?
i think she really loves him. but he thinks she has a motive for what she does for him.
maybe she's so going to feel heartbroken.
but then again, if she has 5 minutes of her life left and has to make a phone call, she will call him and say,
"i don't have a motive."
mrs gan told amitabha to invent a machine that can read people's minds.
but there's a someone who wouldn't use it, i think.
it might hurt her too much if she knows what he is thinking.
instead, she might love the invention of a time machine.
so that she could go back to the past and tell herself, "i will try not to fall for you this time."
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