It was superb time spent with superb company yesterday (even though the very cheap steamboat place was under renovation how sad). We lunched at Phin's Steakhouse which I thought was a great place to chill just like Hoagies. I can't believe it's already Thursday today when I still have not done my revision for teaching next week. What a dread. These two weeks are like the best days after exams have ended for me. Work wasn't so nice but still manageable. But of course I prefer holidays like now when I get to check my list of TVB serials and read the books which I've always wanted to. Sadly such days are coming to an end and I'll be back to work next week. Gosh, this is perhaps why people say happiness doesn't last!
This CNY, I realised many things. I realised I have always envied families who go out as a whole for CNY visiting, or those who invite many relatives and friends over. I realised I am very afraid of the coming of CNY because CNY simply means watching movies and slacking at home for me. I love to watch movies, there is no doubt about that. Perhaps I just don't appreciate the latter because there is so much to face head-on. I hate the silence or otherwise awful hurlings at the dining table. I hate how I need to pretend to be hospitable to people I dislike. This year, I hid in my room when people I did not feel comfortable with came, then I was accused of being stubborn and impolite. Sometimes I really wonder if being myself is of imperative or being polite is. Whichever the case, I want to confess that I really feel tired and unhappy this CNY. The worst is that I feel that no one can understand because everyone I tried to rant this to tells me I should go home because it is CNY after...
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