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星期六

Hmmm... 今天这个星期六, 天空感觉特别阴暗。
我又坐在星巴克了。
又是苦苦的绿茶拿铁。
因为我实在不知道还有什么治愈的方法。
眼泪一直在眼眶里打转。
我每一分钟都要深呼吸一次。因为这样好像可以收回一些泪, 不至于溢出来。
只是时间久了, 觉得自己满腹泪水, 更不舒服。

近来话少了。
不知道为什么。就真的不想说话。
这使我想起孙燕姿的一句歌词:
原来人会变得温柔, 是透彻的懂了。
我好像还没透彻的懂。
但还能怎样呢?

我好累。
但有时候我并不介意自己那么累。
因为太精神太清醒, 现实会显得更残酷。
用惺忪的睡眼去面对这个世界, 现实好像比较模糊。
模糊, 杀伤力也比较弱。

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