It was a bad night. In the dream there were the people I lost. Everything felt pretty much the same except I couldn't reach them. In the later part of the dream one of my closest friends died. And I cried. When I woke up, I was still crying and it hurt very badly. I think maybe I need to see a doctor. Because really, I can feel that excess anxiety surging every now and then. I am overly worried about losing. People in particular. I really don't know how to put this across. But it just feels really painful and I don't know what else to do to curb the pain. Sometimes tears would come suddenly. And all I want to do is squat in a corner of somewhere so that I have a wall to lean onto and cry. I feel something in myself screaming, but I cannot hear the words. If I can, maybe I can do something about myself. But. everything's muffled. My vision too, very blurred. I just want to run away.
study study study? went to library with chris and clement.. time was gang gang hao.. we reached e traffic light at e same time..lols.. went to fourth floor and took so long to find a place to sit..all thanks to chris..so fussy abt where to sit..lols.. they did math..i did history and..chinese?..yea..as if..jus wrote e title for my compo..content was blank..keke.. we did for like 1 to 2 hours plus den went to makan.. i darn thirsty kies..lols.. deciding where to go..ljs..kfc..or mac..took so long..thanks to those 2 indecisive guys..lols..=x.. so in end..went to hawker centre.. win liao lor..reached dere le they stil decided which hawker centre to go..diaoz.. den we decided le..they wanted to decided where to sit.. changed seats 2times siarh..lols.. so they ate..i played with chris hp..they ate so loudly thou..=x..contributing to e noise pollution..=//..heh.. den went to 7-11..bought many drinks and chocs and sweets.. and chris wanted to try twix..cos i kept saying is niceyy..lols.. plus...
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