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Dear Mr. Yeo


I had so much tears today I almost had trouble stopping. The venti soyed latte helped me a bit. But not the oreo cheesecake. Indeed, it is not a happy thing to try out something you don't like. I have been sitting here for nearly two hours. And I have been shivering. I think it's because I have been containing my tears. Even now. I feel like I'm just swallowing my tears.  Last night YR and Xi tried to cheer me up by treating me to nice Korean food. I had the best kimchi pancake thus far. I really appreciate their goodwill. But when I woke up this morning I felt torn apart again. The last time I felt this way was when you left.

Shimu texted and offered me a listening ear just now.
I'm very thankful but I declined it. I really need someone to talk to and listen to me but I don't know what to say anymore.

Tacenda. I told myself. I have run out of words. Because whatever I have said before wasn't understood.

My tears are threatening to fall again.
I'm trying so hard to contain them I think my heart will drown.



Regards
GL



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