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Dear Mr. Yeo


Today's class with your girl was cancelled because she was still running a fever.

I went out anyway.

I roamed about, I didn't know what to do. I wanted to sit at Starbucks and get myself a soyed latte. But I didn't think that was going to save me. I have a home but I dared not return. I lied that I had class because I was scared she would bring me to see him, but I didn't want to. I had wanted to squat in a corner of the shopping mall and cry my heart out. But my rationality didn't allow that. So I spent some in Kino. Since the last book, I haven't really read another one because I haven't found a suitable one. Reading helps in healing too and I am running out of things to read I feel.

I went back home eventually. Mum wasn't home. I played X-Men 3 on PS3. It did take my mind off unhappy things I think. E, M, L and Xi texted. I appreciated all that. And things did seem better in the evening.

It has pretty much been this way. Good sometimes and bad sometimes. Then I think, I have lost any bit of eagerness for good things. Because eventually they just vanish. Because I have lost so much. Actually I think I must be a bad friend, a bad daughter, a bad person. Or why would I lose so much? To be frank, I didn't think I did anything wrong. But look, everything is just slipping away.

I need faith. A lot of it.


Regards
GL

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