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The last time I actually sat at The Deck and had beehoon and soya milk for breakfast all by myself was probably Year 4? I think so. And I kinda miss the times I sat there alone and after a while, my friends would come along and join me. But everything just seems so faded and faraway now.

The last time I actually sat at AS7 com lab and racked my brains so hard for an essay was probably Year 4 when I did my ISM. I would sit here all by myself and my friends would come and join me whenever they saw me. But everything just seems so faded and faraway now.

New faces and new layout. I wonder if they miss all these as much as I do. Technically it should have been three hundred and sixty-five multiplied by three because the last three years were the most memorable. (And even if I subtract the holidays we still met up so they should still count..) I think I rely too much on the past.

Which is only ephemeral. Ephemeral joys I hope.

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