Back in 2007 when AhWU was awarded Screen Heartthrob in the 2000s era Award, he was not present. Today he finally clinches an award in Show 1, but he was not around again. That was quite disappointing. I still get nervous though, whenever he is nominated for an award and when the results are about to be announced. Overall, I thought the event's standard is deteriorating over the years. It is good to have everyone recognised for his or her efforts but since they have decided to come up with an award to recognise the MOST OUTSTANDING performance, does it still make sense to present an award to three nominees at the same time, out of five nominees? The same can be said for games and sports. We always have just one champion in every game played and even if there is a draw, something has to be done to sift out an ultimate winner, no? Nevertheless, congratulations to all winners.
This CNY, I realised many things. I realised I have always envied families who go out as a whole for CNY visiting, or those who invite many relatives and friends over. I realised I am very afraid of the coming of CNY because CNY simply means watching movies and slacking at home for me. I love to watch movies, there is no doubt about that. Perhaps I just don't appreciate the latter because there is so much to face head-on. I hate the silence or otherwise awful hurlings at the dining table. I hate how I need to pretend to be hospitable to people I dislike. This year, I hid in my room when people I did not feel comfortable with came, then I was accused of being stubborn and impolite. Sometimes I really wonder if being myself is of imperative or being polite is. Whichever the case, I want to confess that I really feel tired and unhappy this CNY. The worst is that I feel that no one can understand because everyone I tried to rant this to tells me I should go home because it is CNY after...
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