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紧紧抓牢

有时候我会想,这个世上还有什么是可以紧紧抓牢的?

不是回忆。
不是时光。
不是人。

也不再是信念。

今天再次踏进四库,感觉很熟悉又很陌生。
里头的味道唤起许多记忆。但里头的面孔却未曾相识。
我想起那段日子。
四库翻新的时候,书架、书本我有份搬。桌子椅子我有份搬。东西的位置我有份决定。
再后来,每个星期四早上8点20分冲到那个位子。
再再后来,在四库的相识和相知。
只可惜不曾相惜。
然后慢慢的,我也不到那里去了。

如今再次踏进那个地方,因为味道太熟悉,只需要闭上眼睛,看见的全是你们的面孔。
但睁开眼睛后看到的却是现实。

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