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The good and bad.

I guess it's always better to say the bad first, so there goes...

I committed a terrible mistake early this morning. Now I'm not even sure if I will get to rectify it. This is seriously bad. And definitely dramatic. Heaven must bless me.
I gained one kg again. The price to pay for succumbing to hunger at eleven pm. While I grieve I cannot regret my actions for my mum had given me a choice between eating and not but I opted for the former. Cheese and mayonnaise. Gone case.
Student 3 was really rude today. Usually I put up with all his nonsense because he is always getting scoldings from everyone else. Today he went overboard I decided he needed to be dealt with. He said I'm blessed with a loud voice. I proved him right. I think he regretted that.
The lift at my student's block was down. I had to take the stairs down. Going down was easy. But at the 5th storey, my world spun. Thankful I made it to the ground level.

The good.

I made myself a nice ham sandwich with egg in the morning and I was satisfied. I hardly eat the food I cook (yes I know it's ridiculous) but I'm honestly delighted with what I prepared myself today and it lasted me a good long six hours.
Mr. Tay TH called. I think the last time I found comfort in this familiar voice had to be during college days in his class. He actually went all the way out to help me find out the cause of my mini crisis of late. Frankly it won't really bother me if it doesn't get settled, I'm just grateful so many people are helping me get out of this. Because I have indeed been affected and demoralisd by this issue.
My new favourite show now is Storm in a Cocoon. I'm really going gaga. But it's airing too slowly so I had to undergo a tortuous wait before the next episode is uploaded. So... I had to resort to watching AhWU's scenes in The Dream Makers. It was magical. I find myself smiling in front of my laptop like some retard.
Student 1 was sweet. He gave me a bag of food in the middle of class. I asked him why. He said he hoped I have something to eat on the plane. Innocent eight-year-old.
I told D I'm really happy for him. He said my right one would come along too. I don't want a right one now. I just need a clear life direction. I haven't given up though.

jiayougl.

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