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healing songs and endless path

Since a few days back when I discovered all my lessons for today had been brought forward to other days in the week, I was actually very looking forward to today because I thought I could finally have a whole day to myself. There was however too much to do, hence I had to stay home. But Sunday evenings should never be wasted. My new favourite thing now is walking on an endless path on a Sunday evening and listening to Sodagreen's 我好想你. This combination always makes my heart at peace. I picked up a book at Popular and rashly made payment. Two days ago I needed to sing. Now I need a book. The title appealed to me, so did the cover. Well, yes. Sometimes I am but a person who literally judges a book by its cover. I didn't manage to have a cup of coffee at Starbucks so I decided I would get a matcha soyed latte from Jollibean. It was certainly more economical, but also a lot more disappointing. The evening was short, I never saw that coming. When I came out of the NTUC, the sky had turned to a rosy hue. So I naturally switched to Fish's 接受 on my mp3. I had missed that. The last time, in my memory, that I saw this sky was in my last semester, at my favourite spot in AS 7. The silhouettes of the trees were beautiful on an evening like this. On my way back, again on that endless path, past episodes of school were on playback, I guess they were aided by the songs I was listening to then. Once in a while, I clenched my fist, whereas sometimes, I found myself smiling. I thought of Liz in Eat Pray Love. I still haven't mustered the courage to finish that movie. Because the story really spoke to me, but I couldn't bring myself to think that my story probably wouldn't end as beautifully as Liz's. When I stepped into the house, I was smiling. The scene in my head was the last time I sang with the uni people. Thankful for fragments like this which I can never forget. There are always phases in life we have to get by, some say. How long is a phase? One month? Five months? One year? Three years? I don't know if this is a phase. It has to be. Because I'm giving myself at most one year. I hope nothing comes up (again) and by this October, I will be able to hear or even talk about it with no hurt. 

I figured I haven't watched a good movie in ages, have I? Maybe, I should catch one soon. Really need it.

Jiayou.

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