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想不开就不想...

心情好像平复了许多。

每次看到那群人,就感觉所有的正面能量都回来了。
我不知道别人怎么看他们。但对我而言,他们是再正常不过的人。
每一次见面都会让我觉得这个世上还有很多很正面的事情,让我觉得这个世界不至于太沦陷。
不是那里的人,但去吃一顿早餐居然就收到很多礼物和纸条。超感动的。
要离开的时候,收到盈利的电话。
电话那头问:“还在吗?”
我说:“还在啊。”
她说:“我现在马上过来,等我!”
就这样,我感动了好久。
还有Mic从包里拿出一大盒Kinderbueno,我都要晕了。
还有岚花写了长长的字条给我,真的真的好想念。
还有“马来妇女”曦的附带笑脸贴纸的Milo。
离开的时候碰到亦容。她说买了维他命给我,但是在店里付了钱却忘记把维他命带回家。
心意都收到了。心很暖和。
还有司衍兴!!!我们花了差不多2个半小时在说些有的没的。
但那很重要。因为我的心真的痛得快死掉了,所以我很需要找人诉说我心有多痛。
谢谢!!所以请你千万不要比我早死,不然我真的会跟着去撞墙。

走回家的路上,我发现自己口中仍然念念有词。
“这个世界为什么这么恐怖?”
我心里真是那么想的。
甚至下午有很长一段时间,我都不停地问自己这个问题。

我决定了。
两天都好,我一定要离开这里。我需要冷静。

总而言之,今天得到的感动和笑声远远胜过昨天。
所以,我觉得自己又赚了一天。

"想不开就不想,得不到就不要。”

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