First day

Over the years, we somehow just get less enthusiastic about getting together during festive seasons, but I just feel more complete whenever I spend the last few hours of the year with Ohana. It's been as such since... 2007? And it feels like a tradition that I just have to adhere to. It was a very noisy and fun first of January. What makes it different this year is that we spent quite a few hours at the airport before sending Fel off. I don't always meet up with Fel, but I always remember her as a strong girl whom I often look up to. I am glad she has got over the bad things and she is always positive about her life. There is so much that I must learn from her. I sincerely wish her a great and memorable time in Sydney. 

On the long MRT ride home, many issues flashed past in my head. There have been people who think I am one who gets angry easily (as a matter of fact, I really am a petty person), there have been people who think I am heartless, unkind. Recently, I have heard worse. I don't deny I have been so upset over all these remarks. But as the days passed, I found myself, not immune, but indifferent to them. Now I really do realise, how important it is to recognise that there are really people who judge you but still love you for you are. I am never too kind a person, there are people I cannot get along with, but I don't hate anyone. If there is anyone I hate, it has to be the man my mother married. Apart from that, I always try my best to be at peace with everyone, even if there are those I cannot communicate with. The only reason why some people's remarks affect me so much is that I care. Some ask me not to bother with people who don't matter. The thing is, these people do matter. But I have also learnt, that we should never expect to be given as much as we have given. 

I really am a fortunate person.

I don't share a close relationship with my family but I know I can always count on my mum and youngest sister.

There are 4 friends I have known for more than a decade and I know I can always count on them. ZR, M, Zhi and A.

I have a friend chew chew who is like a counsellor to me although she always says a social worker cannot counsel her family and friends :)

I have a group of uni friends whom I can always turn to whenever I want to rant. SYX, M, YL and J.

There is this senior cum big sister who has taught me so much. 

There is WW whom I don't always see but who talks to me almost everyday :)

And my source of motivation: Marvel, Doraemon and LL!!!

I really, really want to start this on a positive note. There may be heartaches, but I really, really want to do my best in thinking less, burying the unhappy past, loving the people whom I love, whether or not they love me, and achieving more. 

JIAYOU GL!!!