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15/12/2013

I met Y today. Had missed this girl a lot and I'm pretty sure, I hadn't seen her for the longest time before today. I still love spending time with her as always, her nonsense sometimes, her amazement at little little things. Time always seems to pass very quickly when I'm with her. She got me a sweet Christmas present and card and I love them so much. Thank you, my dear.

It poured. And I was at the back seat of the bus. A long and peaceful ride.

I met good friend Cyclops for dinner. I honestly thought it was quality time spent because we managed to catch up quite a bit. He and V got me a Christmas present and I was pleasantly surprised.

A very nice friend texted today. And I deeply appreciated the listening ear. Somehow I am beginning to see things in a different light.

Aunt Huang passed away. Two years ago today. And I only knew about it today. I hate to hear that. I'm. Such a failure, am I not?

Shimu emailed. In her email I could still feel her pain but I could also feel her strength. It is something I lack and need. Truth be told, her reply has given me a lot of it.

I'm sorry I cannot be the very happy and positive person everyone loves to be with. It's the way I am. There is never one time I haven't tried being an optimistic person. In fact, everything I do, is all in an attempt to get closer to happiness. I'm very thankful for the people who have encouraged me to hang in there. It's all that I need.

Somehow, the skies seem clearer today.
I decided I need to stop being a fool.


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