算是如愿以偿吧。
今天下了很大的雨。
我们的船搁浅了。
尽管不免觉得很可惜，但是还是欣然接受了。
要不是这场狂风暴雨，我不会知道自己建造的船只那么不堪一击。
原本以为注入时间和心血就可以了。
也许人算不如天算吧。
如果天不作美，再怎么努力也只会是徒劳无功。
不过这样也好，因为以后建造其他船只，我会更加小心。
可能决定了这样子，所以今天的心特别平静。
外头的大雨也更加突出了这静。
This CNY, I realised many things. I realised I have always envied families who go out as a whole for CNY visiting, or those who invite many relatives and friends over. I realised I am very afraid of the coming of CNY because CNY simply means watching movies and slacking at home for me. I love to watch movies, there is no doubt about that. Perhaps I just don't appreciate the latter because there is so much to face head-on. I hate the silence or otherwise awful hurlings at the dining table. I hate how I need to pretend to be hospitable to people I dislike. This year, I hid in my room when people I did not feel comfortable with came, then I was accused of being stubborn and impolite. Sometimes I really wonder if being myself is of imperative or being polite is. Whichever the case, I want to confess that I really feel tired and unhappy this CNY. The worst is that I feel that no one can understand because everyone I tried to rant this to tells me I should go home because it is CNY after...
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