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精神自由

好久没有尝到自由的滋味了。

这种自由,绝对是精神上的。也许毅力不够坚定的我,总是在得到一些精神寄托后才能真正的释放自己。否则,什么都可以说得天花乱坠,但实际上,心里却从来没有一刻安宁。

是不是我们总得先被约束,才会知道自由为何物?
用约束来换取自由。多讽刺。
但如果是这样,那我情愿先被约束。
不经一番寒彻骨,怎得梅花扑鼻香?

 今天的我还没痊愈。还是不停地咳嗽、打喷嚏。
一天下来上了七个半小时的课(还另外推掉三个小时的课),真的真的好累。
但今天的我不会同情这样的我。
因为再累,今天还是感到很充实,很满足。尤其在看到两个同学经我一番解释后对所学的内容更了解,那种眼前一亮的表情让人看了充满自信和自豪感。
我想不管是什么年龄,一个老师在学生眼中看到领悟就是最大的满足感。

作为一个老师,我会希望把学生教得好。作为一个朋友,我不过希望能够给身边的朋友带来欢笑。那是听似最简单,却是做起来最具挑战的一件事。
沉沦的时候,总是忘了身边还有曾经共患难的朋友。希望今天开始我会更把这些人牢牢挂在心上。
今天周围朋友的欢笑声,那些我见到的和没见到却感觉得到也听得到的,都是我坚持的推动力。

这些对我而言都是一种精神上的自由。
寻寻觅觅,原来不过就是需要片刻的宁静,让思绪休战,让自己冷静。

今天的我,别无他求。

我还是这么相信着,自由的味道竟是如此扑鼻。

 

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