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Sun-day.

It always feels exceptionally sunny on days that you abandon me. But I'm pretty sure that I'm beginning to get used to it, or perhaps even like it. I am learning to love all the things that I have to live with (except for some out-of-the-question ones). It is then that I realise there are so many things I can do without. I just need to move on.

The past one week I kept seeing figures that bear uncanny resemblances to the teacher I have lost. I no longer grieve. I am just. Extremely numb. I see myself teach my students based on his guiding principles. Every time I come to this realisation, I pause. And feel extremely grateful to the great impact on my life.

My student told me today, "If I pass my Chinese this time, I'm going to treat you to lunch!"

It dawned on me that it is so important to meet a teacher who can influence you positively.

I am still thinking about my Superhero dream and hoping to dream about it again. I guess that is how much I want to get away from the real world and go to somewhere that makes me feel useful.

The three-day weekend break has been a thought-provoking one for me. Somewhat enlightening too.

I hope everyone will be healthy and happy.

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