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走廊

非常非常想念读大学的时候, 每当走过中文系的那道走廊, 就会稍稍注意林立老师的门。如果他不在或者不想被打扰, 门就是关着的; 如果他在, 想让同学们知道可以进去找他, 门就会是半开的; 如果里面有学生正在问他问题, 门一般都是敞开的。

今天看到他的门是半开的, 不知道为什么, 心里真的很开心, 立即上前敲两下, 然后等待那把熟悉的嗓子说: "进来。"

看到那位我一直既尊敬又仰慕的老师, 真的。好开心。
五个月没见了! 老师依然精神奕奕。真好。

另一边。

尽管心里充满畏惧, 还是故意走到了中文系的另一道走廊。为的只是想看看门上那个标有他名字和职位的牌。

没想到, 不在了。

牌和人, 都不在了。

以前每当走到中文系, 总是最期待看到两位对我人生影响很深的良师。今天, 却连有他名字职位的牌子都看不到了。
我知道, 地球总不能为了谁停止转动。所以如今我唯一能做的, 就只有把那个牌子挂在心上, 永远怀念他, 感激他所教会我的, 影响我的。

我想以后, 如果再回到那里, 我只会选择走那一道通往一个半开的门的走廊。

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