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Was really happy to hear from Fel today and saw a smiley in the text message.
 
I ought to be the one mentally strong but somehow I turned out to be the more vulnerable one. These days I feel a rock on my chest and it just doesn't feel so good. In fact, I find myself suffocating. Every time someone asks, I feel like crying while explaining it, when the one directly involved wasn't even me at all. I do wonder if I am over-reacting, if I should react this way. But. I just can't help it. Maybe, I should now see or have seen the other side of people and start to grow up. Not everyone is as simple as he or she seems...

Now I should learn to take things in my stride, be less emotional, be less vulnerable. Be stronger.
 
In any case, Fel, take care :)) Be strong.

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