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“再见,保重”

在巴士站接到诗玲的电话,我不知道可以给怎么样的反应。
上了车,我忍不住,从第一站哭到回家那一站。
这个月听到五个噩耗,而在这些人当中,他是离我最近的。
所以,我真的很难受。

我很清楚记得,我对他说的最后一句话是:“再见、保重。”

但是再也见不到了。 

那是差不多两个星期前的事。我在国大的食堂看到他,便立刻跑上前跟他打招呼。每次看到他,我都很兴奋。因为他是我非常敬佩的老师。每次碰面,他都问我几时约他喝茶。我也只约了他一次。

对他的印象很深刻。

第一次上辅导课,他说我的名字不像女生的名字,照片也和真人不同。
第二次上辅导课,他点名没有点到我,点完后,他问:“还有谁的名字没有叫吗?” 我举手。他笑着说:“放心,记得。”
第一次在食堂碰到他,他说:“你们吃早餐也不约我,太过分了吧。”
那次他载我和佩琦到校外吃午餐。在他的车上,我问他以后可不可以聘请我到他的翻译公司任职。他说:“我哪里请得起你。”
有一回吃早餐,他跟我说:“如果你对翻译有兴趣,那你去签教育部,2015年会开翻译课,我负责训练教翻译的老师。到时我们再续师生缘。”

他对翻译的执著和热忱,让我很感动。是他给了我力量去报读香港中文大学的翻译系硕士学位。就连最后一次碰面,他也还是关心地问我:“结果怎样?”

记得最后一次在utown吃饭,他坚持要请客,还说:“以后你们毕了业记得跟我保持联络。到时候你们请我。”彦丽说:“那老师到时你一定要出来。” 他说一定。

最后一次发简讯问候,他说一切安好。

他曾经说,如果国大觉得他教得好,那他会一直教下去。
老师,你真的教得很好。

我很后悔,为什么今年没有祝老师教师节快乐?我每年都会发个电邮祝愿他。偏偏今年忘记了。我怎么可以忘记呢?

老师,教师节快乐。
谢谢你,一切的一切。


直到现在,我还偷偷的希望这一切都只是个恶作剧。多么希望有人可以来告诉我,我上当了。如果这是恶作剧,我一定不会生气。真的不会。

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