今天在书店逛书的时候，随手拿起一本书，名为《特别笨拙的人》。读到第四页，眼眶开始泛泪。于是把这本书买了下来。好久没买书给自己了。近来一直很放纵自己，也不知道是不是好事。不过我相信，接下来的日子也很难再像这样肆无忌惮、为所欲为了。未来的路，我来了！路不好走，没关系，只求自己不论遇到什么困难，什么瓶颈，都要勇敢面对，不轻言放弃。
This CNY, I realised many things. I realised I have always envied families who go out as a whole for CNY visiting, or those who invite many relatives and friends over. I realised I am very afraid of the coming of CNY because CNY simply means watching movies and slacking at home for me. I love to watch movies, there is no doubt about that. Perhaps I just don't appreciate the latter because there is so much to face head-on. I hate the silence or otherwise awful hurlings at the dining table. I hate how I need to pretend to be hospitable to people I dislike. This year, I hid in my room when people I did not feel comfortable with came, then I was accused of being stubborn and impolite. Sometimes I really wonder if being myself is of imperative or being polite is. Whichever the case, I want to confess that I really feel tired and unhappy this CNY. The worst is that I feel that no one can understand because everyone I tried to rant this to tells me I should go home because it is CNY after...
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