本以为确定了方向是件好事, 迎面而来的却是意想不到的阻力。就连以为会最支持自己的人都不愿举起赞同的手。也许一开始就不该太乐观? 不管怎样, 我想我已经决定了。就算总有不认同的人, 我也要持之以恒。就算路有些崎岖, 有点偏离其他人, 我也不能后悔。因为我没有错, 因为这是我的人生。
我现在需要的, 是支持, 是鼓励。你若不认同我的选择, 没关系, 但不要泼冷水, 好吗?
我现在需要的, 是支持, 是鼓励。你若不认同我的选择, 没关系, 但不要泼冷水, 好吗?
This CNY, I realised many things. I realised I have always envied families who go out as a whole for CNY visiting, or those who invite many relatives and friends over. I realised I am very afraid of the coming of CNY because CNY simply means watching movies and slacking at home for me. I love to watch movies, there is no doubt about that. Perhaps I just don't appreciate the latter because there is so much to face head-on. I hate the silence or otherwise awful hurlings at the dining table. I hate how I need to pretend to be hospitable to people I dislike. This year, I hid in my room when people I did not feel comfortable with came, then I was accused of being stubborn and impolite. Sometimes I really wonder if being myself is of imperative or being polite is. Whichever the case, I want to confess that I really feel tired and unhappy this CNY. The worst is that I feel that no one can understand because everyone I tried to rant this to tells me I should go home because it is CNY after...
对!加油! 过自己想要的生活!
ReplyDeletehang on there and don't give up on your dreams. press on, even if the future is full of doubt and uncertainty.
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