It's 1 a.m. and I'm lying in bed, trying to think about myself, my life, and the people around me.
My mum has gone overseas. Truth be told, I'm actually feeling a little relieved. She's been putting tremendous pressure on me and for the longest time I have been gasping for air. I am extremely certain my siblings are feeling the same way. My Christian sisters especially. I guess, that is why I am really going to cherish these remaining four days.
I met Chris today. We often saw each other around on campus but we have drifted alot since he went up to year 2. I think we are different now. We no longer share things the way we could. Once in a while a sense of unfamiliarity, I won't say awkwardness, intervened our interaction. We still laughed at each other's jokes like old times but things were just different. I guess that's how people drift apart? I joked about how he never asked to meet me these 1.5 years and he laughed that we would meet every 1.5 years from now on. I believe we will. And I can only hope that we can still chat and laugh like today the next time we meet.
It's Monday.
These days I'm scared of Mondays the way I do Saturdays. It's mental torment to scroll down that list every week. I know, though, that my fear is about to end. Whatever the result, I believe it is going to have a huge impact on my life. I have been wondering if I am mentally prepared for whatever comes. But I think I cannot be more prepared anyway. Maybe I'll act accordingly when the time comes.
Well, till then.
Have a great week ahead.
My mum has gone overseas. Truth be told, I'm actually feeling a little relieved. She's been putting tremendous pressure on me and for the longest time I have been gasping for air. I am extremely certain my siblings are feeling the same way. My Christian sisters especially. I guess, that is why I am really going to cherish these remaining four days.
I met Chris today. We often saw each other around on campus but we have drifted alot since he went up to year 2. I think we are different now. We no longer share things the way we could. Once in a while a sense of unfamiliarity, I won't say awkwardness, intervened our interaction. We still laughed at each other's jokes like old times but things were just different. I guess that's how people drift apart? I joked about how he never asked to meet me these 1.5 years and he laughed that we would meet every 1.5 years from now on. I believe we will. And I can only hope that we can still chat and laugh like today the next time we meet.
It's Monday.
These days I'm scared of Mondays the way I do Saturdays. It's mental torment to scroll down that list every week. I know, though, that my fear is about to end. Whatever the result, I believe it is going to have a huge impact on my life. I have been wondering if I am mentally prepared for whatever comes. But I think I cannot be more prepared anyway. Maybe I'll act accordingly when the time comes.
Well, till then.
Have a great week ahead.
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