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下了一天的雨,风还在刮。冷冷的天气,一个人独自在家里吃着火锅,感觉挺不错的。一个人的好处就是不用找话题聊,也不用顾及到对方。虽然这不一定是最后的结局,但至少到目前为止 是最舒服的生活方式。最近听到这么一句话:孤单是心里没有人而没有人陪,寂寞是心里有人却没有人陪。此刻的我应该属于前者。因为一个人的时候,我想找的人是身边的朋友。而在这个大家都到外国度假时候,我总是找不到人陪。我就是孤单。但孤单也无所谓,因为孤单的人没有太多的牵挂,寂寞的人才有。不知不觉,心里空白的地方原来老早就已经填补了。填补的是对前事的倦意,但也有对生活的逐渐热爱和追求。人是很可笑的东西,总是不知道自己就是烦恼的根源。我想我应该学习正视这一点,开始把倦意减到最低,把对生活的热忱升华到另一个境界。说得容易,要做呢,就要鞭策自己了。

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