Before.

Just now I texted a list of people to wish them Merry Christmas. Most of the replies were quite standard, Ying Hao's SMS caught me:

"...We might not be as close as before but I really appreciate your occasional messages of concern :) ..."

I was quite taken aback. All along I thought I was the one who mulled over the drift but now it dawned on me that my friend did too. I suppose nothing much will change anyway, but the realisation did make me feel a lot better though. I mean, friendship works both ways, not one. 

If anything, I think it cheered me up a little, or touched me a little such that I don't feel so restless like before. 

And yeah, I really love the Wolvie plushie from Maxie. He always makes my Christmas wish possible. Last year, the shopping vouchers and this year, the plushie which I had already decided not to get for myself. I know that as best friends, he, ZR and I always have our fair bit of arguments but at the end of the day, they love me generously. I have to admit, I might not be able to do the same. I am just not always that generous to my friends I guess.