Completion.

I have finally completed the essay which I started from scratch. It really wasn't easy. In the process, I was close to tears every time I thought about how I had ended up at this stage. I wouldn't say that working on the assignment was pressurizing. What was, was probably the hurt caused and which I just couldn't get over. I mean, a friend I held so dear to me actually accused me of something which I didn't think I was guilty of. I kept saying, "Forget it, it's over." but as a matter of fact, I actually really minded. This time, it is really over. The assignment, not the friendship. But nothing changes the fact that a friendship that I've always cherished is scarred now and whatever is done cannot be undone. This assignment actually made me see things a lot clearer and allowed me to know myself a little more. I think I could have done a lot more for this essay had I not spent three hours out with my friends yesterday. Nevertheless, I do not regret it because I dare to say that it is not the grade that matters to me eventually but the joy I derive from doing on a topic I like and hanging out with my friends. And it is really stressful and urgent times like this that I realised there are people who do stick around, including my sister who kept going up and down to pour me glasses of water knowing that I can't do work without a glass of water in front of me, Mic who listened to my nonsense and asked if I needed data for my assignment, Yanli who kept hearing me rant, Wen Jie who kept texting me, Wang Wang who read through my essay, Yingxi who whatsapped me, Yuju laoda and Sze Sze who told me I could do fine on my own, Yanxing who talked to me almost every night and my bitchy friends Maxie ZR and Yan Hong who listened to me rant about all these.

 

Yeah, it's over. Another deadline awaits tomorrow and I shall hit the bed now because I got to wake up in about five hours to wake my sister who is taking her A levels Chemistry paper.

 

Such is life.