Clarity.

No wonder people say, when you hit rock bottom, the only way to go thereafter is up. I guess it's true too. I can't possibly go any lower. I've been proven that the emotional struggle I've undergone for the past three days, at least, has been pointless. I don't think I should speak up for myself because as a matter of fact, I did abandon the group abruptly and chose to give a reason which was apparently absurd. It's just that I never thought of being doubted by a friend, one that I thought of first before making a decision. I never thought I would be seen as someone who would do something I like at the expense of my friends. One thing I always thought was my priority in life was, my friends. Maybe I was wrong after all. Maybe I still put myself before my friends. Whichever, I think things have somehow become clearer. I failed to see the full picture because I didn't step out of the picture to look at it.


I'm sorry I didn't stick around till the end.